Edward Point of View
I herd Bella call downstairs begging for Alice and my heart stopped. I was so nervous to finally see her again, just hearing her voice made my feel uncertain of all my life decisions. Victoria clung to my arm, showing everyone she belonged to me and to back off. I rolled my eyes and watched as Alice came back downstairs smiling and a pair of footsteps trailing behind.
Bella walked down the stairs and for the first time I was shocked out of words. Her gorgeous hair I had always loved flowed loosely in curls that swayed down her back. My eyes lingered around her flawless body until they landed straight on the perfect bump under her shirt.
I made myself believe I was imagining it, and she had maybe put on some weight. But the more I stared, the longer of a silence the family suppressed and I knew I wasn't dreaming. My Bella had already moved on. I glanced over at her ring finger hand and saw it bare except the small butterfly ring that lay on her middle finger. I looked into her chocolate eyes and couldn't look away. Her eyes made her look innocent and promising. We held each others gaze, both taking in one another until Victoria stuck out her hand and made us all snap back to reality.
"Victoria Baker," she introduced with a fake smile. Bella glanced from Victoria to me until reality hit her. I could tell Bella tried to hide back tears as she bit her lip and looked down. Before I would speak Bella backed up and ran away. I would just barley hear Victoria mutter "Hormones," under her breath from under Bella's sobbing.
Bella's Point of View
After Alice had regained my confidence and convinced me to go down stairs I washed up and slipped on my long sweatshirt. Everyone but myself sat talking about the missed months and plans to concur before Edward left. I sat silently next to Rose eating dinner wile everyone chattered away. Occasionally Edward would look over with sincerity burning in his eyes but I stayed strong and kept my eyes glued to my plate.
Everyone continued talking and laughing about days in the past we had cherished together when Victoria randomly piped in and announced "Edward and I are getting married soon." Everyone stopped talking and stared at Edward. It seemed like we were all thinking back to the other night were I had screamed I still loved Edward. The pain hit my like a bullet through my heart, he had really truly moved on.
"Wow! That's umm that's really big guys congratulations," Emmet stuttered.
"Thanks you he just proposed a week ago. We want all of you to come so we made invitations," Victoria said with a fake smile. Edward sat blushing looking embarrassed and disappointed in himself. "Even you Bella," Victoria said like it was the biggest shock.
"Why wouldn't she be invited?" Edward spoke for the first time.
"Well I don't know you used to date so I wasn't sure if it would be comfortable," Victoria said innocently.
"It's fine you don't have to make a deal about it," Edward muttered not meeting my eyes. The painful image of Victoria in her white wedding dress slipping a beautiful wedding ring onto Edward's finger made my stomach lurk.
"Yes I do were not blind. It's obvious the way she basically drools over you that she is still in love with you," Victoria snapped. "I didn't want to come here let alone have your ex falling over you again."
"It ended and now I'm with you," Edward said coolly, not even bothered by Victoria's outbreak.
"I was just making sure…" she said faking hurt feelings
"Just because we thought we had something in the past doesn't mean we hate each other now," Edward said acting like I wasn't sitting right across from him.
"Why do you say were not?" I spoke quietly.
"What? Why would we?" Edward asked confused.
"I don't know maybe because you left me without any warning or maybe it's because I now know all those times you said you loved me were just words and not really feelings. The first time you got a shot to have a prettier woman you ran off and moved on like nothing had happened," I said teeth clenched.
"Speaking of moved on!" Edward shouted pointing to my stomach.
"Yes Edward I'm pregnant and that's none of your damn business!" I yelled back.
"I left and chose to get engaged because I didn't feel that way about you anymore. You're pregnant with that thing because you were irresponsible and reckless!" Edward shouted. As soon as the words left his mouth they stung. He had no clue it was his child and that made it ten times worse.
"Don't you dare call my baby a thing," I said sharply.
"Don't you dare call out me or my fiancé," Edward said venom in his mouth.
"You don't have any clue whose child this is or what I have been through," I whispered.
"Probably some worthless bastard who was drunk and that paid you to mess around with him," Edward snapped.
I was shocked and stunned out of words. "Yes Edward, he was a bastard and he was worthless," I said getting up to walk away away.
"Edward! Don't talk to her like that!" I heard Alice scream. After I went up stairs I took a soothing bath and changed into pink and green pajamas shorts and a brow tank top. I walked down the steps and stopped around the corner until I was far enough away so that no one could see me, but close enough to hear every word of the conversation.
"She's really upset," Alice murmured.
"I'm sorry I don't know what got over me. I just wish I could tell her how I really feel," Edward sighed.
"You still can," Alice said encouragingly.
"She would hate me if I did. Besides I'm engaged," Edward sighed. I felt wrong to be spying on them but wouldn't stop until I had answers.
"If you still feel that way about her why did you propose?" Alice asked confused.
"Because I never thought I would see her again. And I love Victoria. She's everything I wanted and I'm not wasting my time anymore. I wanted her all to myself and that's what I got," he confessed.
I decided it was time to walk down stairs so I skipped into the kitchen and 'accidently' stumbled into Alice and Edward. I looked at the two of them and turned back to the cabinet to find some food.
"Bella we have to go shopping soon. You're not going to fit into your clothes in another week so we have to be prepared," Alice said.
"Don't you think we should have this conversation some other time?" I asked angrily.
"I guess," Alice said clearly hurt.
"I'm sorry I'm just not in the mood for shopping," I sighed and Alice immediately beamed up.
"So tomorrow you will be in the mood?" Alice asked with pleading eyes.
I groaned and reluctantly nodded. "Yah! Ill make a list now," Alice said running out of the room. That left Edward and I alone. I sighed and threw a left over burrito into the microwave.
"So do you have a date set?" I asked. There was a moment of silence before Edward sat up and answered.
"No, there's a lot going on and it's causing some problems. We might put the wedding on hold until I'm done training for my PhD," Edward sighed. I missed those emerald eyes that always looked at me with adoration and care. I missed running in fingers through his soft bronze hair and laughing as he whispered in my ear.
"Of course you're training for your PhD," I smiled wrapping up the burrito and sitting down across from him.
He gave a stressful smile and sat quietly reading the newspaper. After a while he set it down the crossed his arms. "Who's the lucky guy?" he asked curiously.
"Just a random worthless bastard remember," I whispered. Was I ready to tell him yet? Did I want him to know at all?
"Right," Edward blushed. "Are you keeping it?" he asked uncomfortably not meeting my eyes.
"Why does everyone ask that?" I asked annoyed.
"It's a big deal, this is important news. You never seemed like the type to be able to raise a child," he said.
"Especially as a single parent," I sighed.
"He left you?" Edward asked in amazement.
"Nothing new," I said giving a sarcastic smile.
"I get it Bella, I did something awful," he said through clenched teeth.
"You would be surprised what little a guy can know," I said
"It's ok Bella I promise," he murmured awkwardly. I stood up furious and snarled at him.
"No Edward, nothing will be okay," I hissed. He dropped his head into his hands and rang his fingers angrily through is bronze locks.
"I don't like seeing you like this. Your so different know," Edward accused.
"Why do you care?" I asked with venom in my words.
Edward was shocked beyond words, I so badly wanted him to say because I love you but I knew that was impossible.
"I- I don't know…. I guess I don't anymore," he said nervously, he then got up and walked away to find his fiancé.
Edward Point of View
I reluctantly walked away leaving Bella alone in the dinning room. Ever since I got back she had bottled everything she thought and felt inside a bullet proof container, and I begged to find the key to get inside. I wanted to know more about her pregnancy and how she's been doing, but in reality maybe we weren't even meant to be.
"Hey Edward everyone is going to get some drinks down at the club, you in?" Victoria asked me with pleading eyes. I figured I could use a get away and sighed.
"Victoria you're not even old enough to be drinking," I sighed.
"Come on Edward Please! Let's go together and have some fun," Victoria smiled.
"Alright but if you drink more then one beer I'm taking you home," I said.
"Oh come on don't be fun sucker!"she laughed and pulled me away.
Bella Point of View
Who really cared if the baby stayed alive? It was just another mistake in my life. Edward already had a hate on the thing and he was its father. So why did it matter?
Edward Point of View
After many shots and a drunken Victoria we pilled into the Jeep and headed home. It was past 11 and I was worried when Bella never called Alice like she promised. I felt bad for leaving her home alone, but I had to get away to think for awhile and clear my mind. When we opened the doors and awful stench filled the living room
. Bella leaned over the couch and puked into the silver trash can and coughed, several beer cans crunched as she laid back down and moaned.
"Bella!" Emmet yelled running over to her. She immediately opened her eyes and squinted, her blood shot eyes concluding she was drunk.
"What were you thinking? You could have harmed the baby," I yelled out before I could think about what I was saying.
She looked at me confused and swayed back and forth. Alice and Jasper ran over to her helping her stand. She glared at me slurred sloppy words sounding something like, "Only you would care about the baby."
"What are you talking about?" I asked taking a few cautious steps towards her.
"Well the father of the child should be most worried, right?" she asked turning to meet Alice's eyes. Alice looked down at the ground looking almost sheepish and guilty.
"Your drunk," I laughed sarcastically. But I couldn't help to think back to the night of our anniversary. The details started to add up in my mind and I cursed myself. "No," I whispered. "It's not possible," I said.
"Edward-" Alice started.
"I mean you guys would have told me, I would have known," I said trying to reassure myself, but my head was spinning and I was worried that Bella wasn't the only drunk one...
"Edward," Alice said again more sternly this time. She handed the now passed out Bella over to Emmet and ordered for him to take her upstairs...
"Oh hell, what if it is mine?" I asked myself in full panic mode. I ignored Alice as a passed back in forth shrugging off Victoria's reassuring words.
"Edward!" Alice yelled shutting me up. "It's your baby," she said.
I heard Victoria gasp. "What!" she screeched. Everyone turned to glare at her. "How dare you not tell me!" she yelled glaring viscously at Edward. Her eyes filled with revenge and hatred.
"I didn't know," Edward said blankly, his pace turning pale.
"That's bull!" she yelled before storming out of the house. Nobody talked as we listened to the car engine screech to life and drive away.
Alice Point of View
Edward covered his face with his hands and groaned in confusion. "Why didn't you tell me?" Edward cried.
"She wasn't ready," Rose sighed putting a comforting arm around him. I felt bad as a saw a tear slip from his eye but he stubbornly wiped it away.
"Wasn't ready? Well hell I'm not ready for a child but you would think she would have the decency to tell me!" Edward shouted angrily.
"She didn't want you to do it again," I said softly.
"Do what?" he asked in a desperate tone.
"For you to leave again! Whenever you were mad you would storm away from her and sometimes she would wait weeks for you to return. Do you know how horrible that must be? To make a mistake and get abandon, you should have been there to support her through everything, even if you had to take one for the team," I reprimanded.
Edward sniffed and acted distracted by tying his shoe. "You can't just keep running away, your going to have to talk sometime," I said softly as Edward got up and started to walk away. Edward turned slightly and sighed,
"Just give me some time," he just barley spoke. I looked at Rosalie with a worried face but her face mimicked my expression. We truly didn't know what to do.
Bella Point of View.
I woke up with a terrible head ace and a bad cramp. I couldn't remember much of the previous night besides drinking a lot and passing out. I got out of bed and fell back down as the room seemed to shake.
Once I caught my balance, I walked down the kitchen were sausage caught my senses. When I walked through the doors everyone stopped to stare at me. I looked confusingly at them and sat down awkwardly.
"Morning Bells," Jazz said ruffling my hair.
"Morning," I said back. Everyone immediately fell back into there pace of conversation besides Edward who just stared like I had turned purple over night.
"Bella your appointment for an ultrasound had to be canceled. Were going this afternoon," Rose said.
"Why was it cancelled?" I asked taking a bite of the warm sausage.
E.J ran over to me and smiled brightly. It was the first time I had seen the tiny toddler in a week. He had been visiting his grandparents and must have just gotten home. His pearly teeth sparkled as I picked him up and kissed his golden hair. E.J was a beautiful 17 month boy. He already could walk and he was just barley starting to talk.
"Do you remember anything from last night?" Edward asked annoyed. I glared and him and shrugged.
"You got a little tipsy, nothing too awful," Alice said with a little more patience. My heart sank and I rubbed my stomach. "We don't know how he's doing yet," Alice asked my mental question. I sighed and pushed my food back suddenly not hungry. I looked around the room realizing we were missing Victoria.
"Where's Victoria?" I asked.
"She's gone," Edward said stiffly fiddling with his fingers.
"Shame," I smiled sarcastically.
"Shame? That's all you can say? You're the one who drove her out of this house!" he yelled furious.
"What are you talking about I haven't even said one sentence to her," I said doing a better job of keeping my cool around E.J. Emmet grabbed his son and walked upstairs trying to avoid him from crying.
"Try breaking the news to the father of your baby when you're sober," Edward yelled pounding his fists on the table. My eyes bugged out and I cried out turning around for Alice to tell me this was some sick joke, but everyone turned away and tried to act busy.
"No no no it wasn't supposed to happen like this," I said mostly to myself.
"How was it supposed to happen? You go run off and get an abortion and never tell me?" Edward yelled. "Or were you going to wait until the baby was born then try cover it up?" he asked his words getting louder by the seconds.
"Yes it was supposed to be that way!" I shouted back.
He looked hurt and confused. "Why didn't you tell me?" he whispered his eyes looking full of shame.
"You would just be ashamed in me, and you and your stupid girlfriend would just run away and elope to leave me home as a single mom," I cried.
"Bella!" Edward said desperately. "I would never do that to you," he whispered.
"I didn't know who to trust at the time," I said. "I'm going to get ready to leave," I said walking away.
"Wait Bella!" Edward called. But I turned away and ignored him trying to shut out the rest of the world.
When Rose called me down for the appointment my heart started pounding. I had always heard stories about drinking and smoking while pregnant, it was a big off limits. The ride there was quiet and tense as the whole family made small talk. Alice made sure this was an important event so she dragged everyone to come with us.
When our name was called I was only allowed to bring three people into the room. I finally decided that Alice, Rose and Edward would come with me.
When I called Edward to come his face immediately lit up with shock. But I wasn't in the mood for explaining or even arguing; I just turned around and let Alice lead the way.
"Hello Isabella I'm Terry Woods are you ready to get started?" the women asked sweetly.
"Yeah umm I have a question," I asked nervously.
"Sure go ahead," she smiled encouragingly.
"Are there any serious birth defects on the baby if I drank alcohol," I asked quietly.
Terry sighed. "The child could grow up with Down syndrome, Epilepsy; it could have problems with its five senses of with sense of direction or possibly even be dyslexic. It all depends on the person, and amount of alcohol," she informed.
Edward looked at me with a disappointing glance as I mentally cursed myself.
"Is there anyway of knowing before hand?" I asked.
"No I'm sorry ma'am. But we can get started on the Ultrasound and find out how strong the heart beat is which could give us a little insider," she smiled.
"I'm going to need you to lie down," Terry instructed me. "Ok I'm going to put on some jell so the results are clear it might be a little cold sorry about that," she apologized. "Are you looking for a sex?" She asked.
I made a scrunched up face and finally made my decision, "No I want to be surprised." Alice and rose smiled and Edward looked away.
"Aright," she mused as she squeezed he cold jell on my stomach and rolled the device over the baby.
She smiled and said "The heart beat is pretty average a little on the weaker side but the baby is still young," when she said that I took a deep breathe in and closed my eyes in relief.
"Don't be ashamed in your self, and don't stress too much. Most mothers who accidently drank a glass in the earlier side of pregnancy have a bigger risk or just having a premature child. Right now you don't have anything to worry about," she comforted me.
After we printed out pictures of the baby, Alice had a therapist come into the room to help me. The man had blonde hair and dark brown eyes. "Hello I'm Dr. Trent's," he smiled.
"Isabella Swan," I smiled back.
"Isabella are you planning for an abortion?" Dr. Trent's asked with a concerned voice.
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