Title: The Perfect Time
Anime: Ouran High School Host Club
Pairing: HikaKao
Chapter 2
In the hospital, when he finally awoke, he found me next to him, holding his hand. I couldn't cry anymore. My mind had gone blank a long time ago. Just knowing that he had survived that somehow brought me a peace of mind. I heard him gulp and look away from me. I looked up quickly and realized he had woken up.
"Kaoru…" I whispered. I felt the tears start to come back. To see him moving again, even if it wasn't much, filled me with hope. He wouldn't look at me. "Kaoru!" I embrace him, crying on his chest, being careful not to further injure him. His left arm isn't broken, and I feel his left hand on the back of my head, gently stroking my hair. I look up at him a little bit. "Please…" I say through my tears, trying to make it come out smoothly despite my sobbing. "Tell me why… why did you do that?"
"Hikaru…" he whispers my name, adverting my eyes. "I don't want to talk about it…"
"You never seemed suicidal… you never seemed unhappy… why would you do that? Why would you abandon me like that?" do I look as lonely as I feel? I can't control my tears at all. He's the only one I've ever cried in front of like this. I've never felt so hurt in my entire life.
"Being sad has nothing to do with it." He whispered. The way he moved his head to look away made his bangs fall over his eyes. "I wasn't supposed to survive that fall. It was that perfect time for me…" his voice cracked and I knew he'd start crying in a moment, too. It only hurt my heart even more.
"Perfect… time…for you?" I… understand what he meant, now. He was referring to the day he would die. "You're too young to up and die! What about… what about me? What about us?!" I yell. "When did you decide that you were going to die?! When did you make that horrible decision?! Why did you DO that?!"
"I… don't want…" he whispered. I cut him off, continuing to yell at him.
"To talk about it? Well, you're too late for that one, Kaoru. There's no way in Hell that you can get out of telling me why you did that. You're the one I care most about. You're the one person I see in my world!" I have his attention. I hold his gaze. "It's ourworld. We. Us. There isn't anyone other than you and me. The world is destroyed without one of us here. Please…" more tears start to fall. "Please… don't leave me…" my hair falls over my eyes before I cry against his chest again. I don't have the energy to talk anymore. All the questions still hang in the air, and remained unanswered. At some point—and I'm not sure how this happened—I cried myself to sleep in his arms. I don't know what's going on in his mind.