Chapter 2

Now that I think about it he did seem interested in me. He was my best friend after all. I guess it was my fault for leading him on like that. Who am I kiddin'? I didn't know he liked me. I didn't know! Tears tingled in Mello's eyes. I'm sorry, Matt.

"It's L's birthday today," I said running into our room.

"Really today?" Matt said looking up at me.

"Yeah, we're having a costume party tonight to celebrate. And—"

I was interrupted by a knock on the door. I saw Near standing before me twirling his white hair. I glared at him, "What is it, Near?"

"Nothing," He replied with a smile, "I just wanted to tell you I'll see you at the Halloween party tonight."

"I know what you're trying to do!" I grit my teeth. "You're gonna try and make me look like an idiot in front of everyone."

"Oh silly Mello, I don't have to do anything that you excel at by yourself."

"Near—"

"—Oh hey Near!" Matt cut in, "It would be a shame if we got into a fight when we're almost sixteen! And it being L's birthday too—"

"I didn't ask your opinion, Matt."

"Well you're sure as hell voicing yours!" Matt yelled as he slammed the door.

I looked at Matt, "You okay?"

"Fine," He said turning and walking towards his bed.

I tried to lighten the mood, "So… what are you gonna be dressed as at the party?"

Matt smiled up at me, "You'll see."

I arrived in the courtyard after everyone else. Matt wouldn't let me see him in his costume. I was in black leather out fit with pants and a jacket. I had on knee high boots and gloves. My jacket had some black feathers streaming out of it that resembled black wings. My blonde hair was brushed back in its usual dome cut.

"Hello Mello," Near said from behind me. I turned and saw Near in an L mask wearing blue jeans and a long-sleeved, white T-shirt.

My gaze lowered, "Near…"

"I like your costume it's your most terrifying yet."

"And I see the over achiever is trying to show his equality?"

"Oh this? It's just something I had…" Bullshit! "Where's Matt?"

"He'll be here soon," I said scanning the crowd. Where the hell is he?

"Mello!" I heard Matt's voice behind me. I turned and was surprised. Matt was wearing a purple three piece suit. He had on matching gloves and shoes and he even wore a tall matching hat.

"M-Matt, what are you wearing?"

He smiled showing off his suit, "I'm Willy Wonka!" He ran up to me smiling.

"C-cool…" I have no idea why I'm friends with this guy he's so weird… Who comes to a costume party dressed as Willy Wonka?

"I thought you'd like it! After all the chocolate you eat!" He patted my head.

Ooo…Well that makes sense. "Yeah thanks buddy," I smiled.

"Matt, it looks like you've out done yourself this time," Near commented on his suit.

"You shouldn't be talking, 'L'." Matt did a cheesy bow, "I'm not worthy to be in your presence."

I could tell Near was loving the attention. I don't know why, but I was kind of angry when they talked. My blood was boiling. I caught Matt's arm, "Near, I hope you don't mind, but I wish to speak to Matt privately."

"Very well," Near said walking off and I sighed in relief.

I didn't notice my hand being dragged till after he left. I turned to Matt, "Where are we going?"

"You told me you wanted to speak to me in private. C'mon there's a tennis court a little ways beyond the courtyard."

"Okay…" That's strange of Matt. He's really eager about something.

We reached the tennis court and walked on the fake green grass. I felt awkward for some reason. It was a full moon on a starless night. Matt walked with his hands in his pockets. I inhaled the cold night air exhaling deeply. I stopped dead in my tracks when I felt Matt's lips on mine. He slid his tongue in and to my surprise my tongue responded.

I pushed him back, "Matt…"

Matt came closer brushing my hair back, "Mello." Matt probably thought I reacted without thinking and kissed me again.

I stepped away. My back was now to the fence, "What the hell, Matt?" I wiped my mouth, "What the hell was that?"

Matt looked confused, "Mello, what's wrong?"

"What's wrong? You fuckin' kissed me that's what's wrong!"

"But I thought that's what you wanted." I looked questionably at him. "You wanted to talk to me in private and then you have nothing to say? I thought you were sayin' 'I love you, so kiss me already!'"

"I only said that so that Near would stop talking to you!" I yelled.

Matt put his right arm across the fence over my head, "Why?" My face went blank. "If you don't have those sorts of feelings for me then why are you so defensive? You shouldn't be bothered if I'm talking to someone else if you don't have the same feelings I do."

I could feel my face blush. Our faces were inches apart. "W-well, I- I just don't wanna see my best friend get hurt—"

"Oh quit with the bullshit! Your blood was boiling wasn't it? You wanted to punch him, didn't you? Or more…" I gulped because of the truth in his words. Matt had pressed his entire body against mine. "I know because that's the way I feel when I see you talking to him." Matt stroked my hair, "I love you, Mello. I've always loved you. Ever since the first day we met."

"But you're a guy and my best friend," I know it was a lame comeback, but I was out of ideas.

"I know, but that doesn't change the way I feel." Matt grabbed my hand and unbuttoned his shirt. He placed my hand over his chest. I felt a rapid pumping from underneath his skin. "That's how I get when I'm around you. I get nervous and I can't think straight." He turned around and started wiping his face. Was he crying? "You were the first person I ever opened up too."

I placed my hand on Matt's back. "Matt, I don't know. I do get all weird when I'm with you but is that love? I mean, we can't have a stable relationship if we're two guys, can we?" My mind blurred.

Matt turned and placed his lips on mine, "Can't we?" He pushed me against the fence. Our tongues danced with each other. They twisted violently. Why does this feel good? Matt pulled himself up out of breath. I was the same.

"You look sexy in leather, Mello," He panted. "Ya' know why I dressed like Willy Wonka?" He didn't expect an answer, "Because I've always wanted to taste a specific type of candy."Matt tossed his hat aside and started unzipping my pants. He pushed them down to my ankles.

"Matt!" I felt Matt's hair brush against my inner thighs as his head went between my legs. I gripped his head. "Matt…" I heard myself moan as his fingers went inside me. Is that me? Why does this feel so good? We're both men and yet- and yet we're doing this.

"Mello," Matt gasped, "call my name over and over."

It felt humiliating. We were out in the open like this and I couldn't react. It was matt. My best friend, who had shared everything with me… or at least I thought everything. I was moaning like some idiot as his damn tongue worked its way inside of me. I didn't know how much I could take and then the white seed appeared. Matt sat back licking his lips smiling.

"Don't swallow it you idiot!"

"Mmm… Mello you're delicious."

"…Ugh… Matt…"

Matt stood up pressing me to him. "I love you, Mello." He kissed me letting me know that.

It was all a lie. Matt's gone now and where's the love he always talked about? Mello cried into his palm as he sat against the thick concrete walls of a library. Where are you, Matt?