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1st September.
After that night we tried to spend as much time as we could together without seeming weird and at the same time I couldn't stop thinking about Lysander, me and James would spend the night together and so far this was the best summer I've ever had. I know it's only been 3 days since I saw him but I can't wait to see him, so maybe we can make it official. By the time I had to go back to get ready for school I had decided to tell Lysander what I was thinking.
Flashback-29th August.
I can't believe how quickly the summer had passed and now I was leaving the shell cottage so I could get ready for Hogwarts. Freya knocks on the room that me and Rose are sharing, she smiles proudly, I roll my eyes at her. she's smiling because once again she is ready before me. "Late again!" Freya says happily, I shake my head but I smile.
"How is it that every time I take back more than I brought with me." I say with a shake of my head, Freya laughs and walks over to me, she help me pile everything into my case and then she puts in the car while I say goodbye to the gang, I make sure to pull Lysander away from the others. "So May, I wanted to ask you something." Lysander says with a small smile, I look down and think about what I might be about to do. "Lysander I really like you but I need time to think about what I want." I say slowly, Lysander frowns. "You just want sometime to think about things. That's fine, I know what you think about relationships." Lysander says with a smile, I smile and he kisses me softly on the lips, hugs me and then leaves, I say a quick goodbye to Rose and Alice with lots of hugs.
After realising that I've forgotten one of my hats I walk into the Shell Cottage and just as I reach the room, James grabs my arm and pulls me over to a wall. "I see that you have to go now." James says with a sly smile, I bite my lip. "I didn't know if I should say goodbye in public or not." I say as James places his face closer to me, I halt my breath as my heart beats faster and places his lips on mine softly, I kiss him roughly and he bites my lip and places his forehead against mine as he pulls away from the kiss. "Thank you for my most amazing summer ever." I say softly, I feel James grin.
"What are we going to do." I ask softly as James looks me in the eyes. "I don't know but just know that I had a great time too." James says with a grin, he kisses me quickly before going into the room and grabbing my hat and passing it to me, I smile and nod my head in goodbye and walk out of the cottage and over to the car, where Freya waits patiently, I get in and smile at the cottage before Freya starts the engine of the car and we start moving.
End of flashback.
I grab my truck from the back of the car and start pulling it across the platforms until I get between platform 9 and 10, I wait for Freya before running through the wall. It's not long before I see Rose and her family, her trunk obviously already on the train, once she sees me she runs up to me and hugs me. "Alice keeps telling me that she has something to tell us." Rose says excitedly, I sigh but smile.
"What does want to tell us about now." I say with another sigh, Rose shrugs. "She won't tell me, she said she wants to tell us together." Rose says with a curious look on her face. We place my trunk on the train and then she walks me to our usual compartment, we open the door and see Alice sitting on the seat reading a magazine, she looks up and smiles. "Oh May, I'm so glad you're here, I have something to tell you and Rose." Alice says excitedly, me and Rose sit down. "First I'm going to say this might be a little awkward but I hope you'll be happy for me." Alice says to Rose, I wrinkle my eyebrows together in confusion. "What's going on?" Rose asks, her curiosity getting the better of her. "James asked me out and I said yes." Alice says excitedly, my face drops and so does my heart.
"What? When?" I question quickly, Alice smiles. "Well I had noticed that most of the summer he would keep looking at me so just after you left I asked him why and he said that he couldn't help it because he had a crush on me." Alice explains happily, I look down and feel my chest ache. "And then he asked me out, I couldn't believe it because I had quite liked him and I know he's your cousin, so I hope this doesn't ruin our friendship." Alice says with a glance at Rose, she smile and just when I thought my morning couldn't get any worse, there's a knock on the door and when I look up and see James, once Alice sees him she rushes up to him and hugs him. "Told them the good news?" James says with a large grin, Alice smiles happily as he kisses her forehead.
I was so stupid to think that he liked me, of course he was just using me to get other things. I fake a smile, trying to hide how much this actually hurt. James looks at me and for some reason I swear he looks guilty. "I hope you treat her right, unlike everything else you care for." I say giving him a glare small enough that only he can see it. "Of course I will, anyway I have to go find the boys." James says with a small smile, he kisses Alice on the cheek and then leaves. "Isn't it exciting." Alice says, she's blissfully happy and she's one of my best friends so I can't break her heart so I smile.
"I can't believe you didn't tell us sooner." I say with a smile, Alice giggles. "I can't either." Alice says with a large smile. "He makes you happy though? he's good to you?" I ask with a small frown. "Oh yes, I can feel how much he care for me." Alice says, I try and make a small smile but it doesn't come out very well and Alice grabs my hand and holds it softly. "He's going to look after me and you're going to have that soon, I promise." Alice says softly, I smile and squeeze her hand. She obviously took my attempt to look happy as feeling lonely and wanting what she has.
"Don't mind me, I just need to go to the toilet, I'll be back in a minute." I say quickly, they both nod and I leave the compartment, and walk until I find him, I pull him into a spare compartment and shut the blinds down. "What the hell was that?" I ask, James puts his head in his hands and shakes his head. "I knew that things wouldn't work out with us, plus I did kind of like Alice and I knew she liked me." James says, he sits down.
"So you used me to have a bit of fun." I say angrily, James growls angrily. "I didn't use you." James says quickly. "Well that's not true." I say angrily, I bite my lip and sigh angrily. "I did like you, it wasn't a lie." James says softly. "I can't believe I almost became my mother." I say absent mindedly, I shake my head and go to leave when James grabs my arm and pulls me close, I try and pull away when he pushes his lips on to mine and for a second I don't stop him but I do pull away and give him a glare.
"Don't you dare ever do that again." I say angrily as I push him away and leave the compartment. The rest of the ride to Hogwarts was quiet, with Alice writing in her notebook, Rose reading a book and me looking out of the window, thinking about how this was going to be the worst year of my life.
8th September.
This past week has been horrible, I've had to spend almost all my waking hours around the boy I fancy and my best friend kissing and being all couple like. Not only that but I keep getting sad looks from Lysander, who I've decided would be the best thing for me, a great distraction and something to flaunt around James.
I make my way to breakfast alone but once there I'm anything but alone, James and Alice sit in front of me parading their happiness and I know I should be happy for Alice and I am but I just wish he could have picked someone else, someone I could hate, someone like Celeste Davies or Elise Finnigan, who were my real life enemies. Both in Ravenclaw and best friends, they thought they were the queens of Hogwarts and they sure like looked like it, they bully people but not me.
Once upon a time I was friends with Elise but she stole my boyfriend so she doesn't mess with me because she knows what I can do. After finishing breakfast as quickly as I can I leave the great hall and go to my classroom, I'm 15 minutes early so I just sit on the floor and read some of a textbook to help me catch up on what we would learning about today. 10 minutes later I hear the click-click of high heels and look over to my side and see Elise and Celeste walking over to me with their arms hooked around the others.
"Summers you're a little early to class don't you think?" Celeste says with a laugh stuck in her throat, I sigh and get up off the floor. "What's it to you?" I ask as I put my book in my bag, Celeste rolls her eyes. "Everything is it to me." Celeste replies breezily. "What do you want?" I ask and nicely as I could, Elise whispers in Celeste's ear and then giggles. "I bet you wanted to get away from that insufferable couple in front of you, I know I would. They thing they do in public is enough to put anyone off their food." Celeste says with a look towards the entrance of the great hall, I look over and see that Alice and James must want to join me, I sigh loudly before remembering that Elise and Celeste are next to me, Celeste laughs.
"Don't worry we won't tell anyone that you're in love with James Potter." Celeste says slowly, I shake my head and look at her shocked. "What the hell do you mean?" I ask shocked at the thought. "The only people blind to it is them." Celeste says as she points to James and Alice. "I don't love James Sirius Potter, once upon a time I fancied him but now I think he's disgusting." I say angrily, Elise share a look. "Too many girls? I don't know if you know but every summer he takes a girl to the Weasley cottage that you go to and sleeps with her." Celeste says with a disgusted look at James.
"He tried to get me to go with him the summer before last." Elise says, I shake my head. "Please leave." I say with a sigh of anger, Celeste rolls her eyes. "Don't say we didn't warn you." Celeste says with a knowing look, her and Elise walk off without saying anything else.
I watch as Alice and James comes closer, Alice stands next to me with James hung around her waist, he looks at me and I stare him down. "I have to get to class, see you in a bit Ali." James says, he quickly kisses Alice on the lips and then walks away, Alice gushes and I sigh with angry butterflies in my chest. After class I have a free period so I decide to head to the library, while walking I bump into someone and fall over.
In the moment I just look for fallen items from my bag when a hand comes down in front me, I grab it and look at it's owner, who happens to be Lysander, I smile and let go of his hand, I look down suddenly embarrassed, I haven't spoken to Lysander since that day at the cottage, 3 days before I thought that James was going to ask me out. "Hey I've been meaning to talk to you." Lysander says with a small smile, I smile. "Same." I say.
"Oh, you go first." Lysander says with a smile. "Are you sure?" I ask, Lysander smiles again. "Of course." Lysander says, I smile. "Well I've been thinking about what I said and I've decide that if you still want me, you can take me." I say with a smile, Lysander grins largely. "Wow, really?" Lysander asks happily, I smile and nod, he smiles happily. "I just wanted to say that I respect you wanting time to think and that I'm sorry if I didn't seem that way when you said so." Lysander says softly, I smile.
4th October.
I know at first I was mostly using Lysander as a tool to make James jealous but now after being together for a month I can truly say that I really like him, a lot more than I thought I did. Of lately have been kind of weird, I'm feeling tired a lot but I put that down to spending most of the nights talking to Lysander. It's still hard to watch Alice and James being all lovey dovey but now I don't hate it as much because I can do just do it back in their face. But I still think back to what Celeste said, I don't know why I keep doing that.
She's the enemy but she seems to know what she's talking about, which I hate. After finishing my shower I start to get ready for the trip to Hogsmeade when I notice that I'm having a hard time getting my jeans on over my waist, I shrug my shoulder and laugh. I have been eating loads more food lately with the stress of being around James and Alice. Rose notices me having trouble and smile. "I've noticed that my clothes have being doing that lately, I think that one of the house elves have been leaving the clothes in water for too long or something." Rose says with a smile.
"It probably doesn't help that I've been eating a lot lately." I say with a grin, Rose shakes her head with a smile. Once finished getting dressed I look in the mirror, making sure I don't look too bad. It's getting a little colder but I've decided to go with a red halter-neck top, a white cardigan and black skinny jeans with my red converse, my hair is done in a fishtail braid and I'm wearing minimal make up with shiny lip gloss.
Finally okay with how I look, Rose hooks her arm around my arm and we walk out of the girls dorm and downstairs, where we see Alice sitting on James' lap and his hands around her waist, Alice has gone for a long sleeved top with and opening for her cleavage to be seen and black skinny jeans with black ballet flats, she's also got a fur body warmer. Rose wears a purple top with short dungarees and purple converse and a blue jacket. We walk towards the entrance hall, where Lysander is waiting for me, he walk up to me and kisses me on the cheek, I look over to Rose.
"So I'll meet you at 2 o'clock in the three broomsticks." I say to Rose who nods, we smile at each other and go our separate ways. Me and Lysander walk around for a while, casually going into a couple of shops, during breaks we kiss a lot. We are very intimate, especially after our first night together. After getting together, later that night after dinner, he suggested we should hang out and things just went from there, it made me forget all about James for one night.
About 1:55pm I separate from Lysander and start walking to the three broomsticks, I arrive there exactly at 2 o'clock but of course Rose is early and I see her straight away, she waves me over and I walk over to the booth she is sitting at. "Did you buy anything nice?" Rose asks, I blush. "Didn't have much chance to do that." I say with a grin, Rose smiles but shakes her head. "What's the point on coming then?" Rose says, I smile. "Because we have freedom to do it for as long as we want." I say with a smile, Rose smiles.
After ordering some food and some butterbeers and gossiping, we hear the door open and Rose perks up quickly looking at the door, I follow her gaze and see her looking at Scorpius, I roll my eyes as she looks down. "Rose why don't you just go over and talk to him." I say slowly, Rose blushes. "I don't know who you're talking about." Rose says defiantly, I grin. "Rose you can't lie to me or yourself." I say matter of factly, Rose rolls her eyes. "But what if he doesn't like me?" Rose asks nervously, I smile. "Anyone can see that he likes you." I say with a smile, Rose smiles at me.
"I bet this is hard for you." Rose says, I furrow my eyebrows together. "What do you mean?" I ask before realising that Rose is the only one who knows that I like James. "You have liked James since 2nd year and yeah I know somewhere down the line you started to like Lysander but feelings like that don't just go away." Rose says, I sigh. "To be honest it is hard but I always promised myself that I would never fall in love, so even if he and Alice weren't together I wouldn't let myself get that far." I say, Rose furrows her eyebrows together.
"How would you know he would even get together with you?" Rose asks obviously confused by the fact that I assumed that he would get together with me. "Here's a truth I didn't really want to reveal." I say slowly. "What are you about to tell me?" Rose asks curiously, I breathe in deeply. "During the summer me and James hooked up." I say slowly, Rose's eyes widen. "Hooked up? As in had sex?" Rose asks, her eyes still wide, I bite my lip and Rose gasps. "Oh my gosh." Rose says the shock evident on her face. "When was this?" Rose asks her curiosity starting to get the better of her. "The night we played 7 minutes in heaven." I say slowly, Rose's eyes widen. "You did it in the shed?" Rose asks, I roll my eyes.
"Of course not, it was later, it was very romantic." I say slowly. "Now I understand why you always go to lessons really early." Rose says, she looks down sadly. "Don't be sad, I've got Lysander who is amazing." I say with a smile, Rose smiles but then her face turn to shock. "Did you guys use protection?" Rose asks quickly, I stop in my tracks and don't say anything. Seconds later a waiter brings us our food and we eat in silence as I try and think about Rose's question, my heart beating much faster than it was before.
"Summer was 3 months ago." Rose says slowly, I shake my head. "I'm sure I'm fine." I say even though I don't exactly believe it. "You did say you've been eating more and your clothes don't fit you as well as they used to." Rose says calmly. "You said that yours were too." I say quickly, Rose pulls a face and I roll my eyes. "I lied, I didn't want you to feel bad." Rose says sadly. "Me and Lysander have done it too." I say slowly, Rose's eyes widen. "Wow you're getting busy." Rose says with a smile, I shake my head and smile.
"Rose this is serious." I say worriedly. "We should go to The Hospital Wing." Rose says calmly, I nod my head and Rose gets up to leave but I stay seated. I never wanted to end up like my mother but it seems that I might be just about to become her. "Come on May." Rose says softly, she grabs my hand and helps me up.
The whole way to The Hospital Wing I don't say anything or think anything and all I can hear is my heartbeat getting faster and fast. Once there I'm too stunned to speak so Rose tells Madam Pomfrey about my situation, who then leads me to a bed. I don't flinch when she takes my blood and I don't hear a thing that she's saying, I can feel Rose's hand holding on to mine.
When Madam Pomfey comes back I look blankly at her and read her lips but don't take anything. "What?" I ask, Rose looks at Madam Pomfrey who sighs. "It seem that you are 12 weeks pregnant." Madam Pomfrey says slowly. "Oh." I say blankly. I can't believe I've become my mother. And I certainly can't believe that I'm pregnant with my best friends boyfriend.