"Blair…It's Chuck honey…he's be…been shot." Serena said as more tears stained her face, she had to choke out the words because she didn't want to believe it was true. She faintly heard Blair gasp as she watched her brown eyes go wide.

"No."

The second the words Chuck and shot escaped Serena's lips in the same sentence, Blair's entire world stopped. 'How could this happen?' 'No, this can't be happening.' 'Not Chuck, not MY Chuck.' Questions swarmed in her head as all the nausea from earlier came back fasted then before. She didn't want it to be true. This couldn't happen to Chuck Bass, things like this don't happen. Even if it was only a week ago she was screaming at him, in that second the words left the blonds lips she wanted him back, she wanted her pain in the ass boyfriend back that she did and still loved back.

"No…NO NO NO. Serena this can't be happening, not Chuck." Blair lost it right in the middle of the crowded airport, screaming and grabbing onto Serena in a death grip. Tears ran down her face in waterfalls, her eyeliner running down in angry black streaks. Serena tried to calm her best friend as she cried for both of them.

"I know Blair…I know but it's no good just standing here you know we have to go get a flight out to Prague now." Serena stated rapping her arms around her best friend fearing she was going to collapse any second. Blair pushed her face into Serena's embrace as the blond pulled Blair to the other end of the airport leaving Blair's fathers and their luggage behind.

"You two are in luck the next flight leaves in ten minutes." The man at the ticket counter said with a smile, he had kind of rushed to find the pair tickets because he had felt bad for the brunette who was sobbing uncontrollably as she paced behind the blond.

"Thank you so much, you have no clue what this means to us." Serena said as she waved the man goodbye and pulled Blair into the direction of the platform they needed to be at in ten minutes. Blair couldn't sit down as they waited to board the plane. She paced back and forth, her heels clicking loudly against the tile as she twisted the now stained hanky that Serena handed her when they got to the gate. Serena sat turning of both cell phones because she knew Blair would not pay attention to when she needed to turn them off. They only had a few minutes left before they could board. Blair looked around to try to distract herself but it wasn't helping. There was an elderly couple sitting near Serena and a young mother with a baby in her arms, Blair thought she was all alone until she saw a man who seemed to be the woman's husband come back with a baby bottle full of juice. Blair's heart broke as she watched both couples interact lovingly to each other, she tried to picture her and Chuck together like that but the more she thought about it the more she pictured him dying in a hospital bed all alone.

"Now boarding flight 018-012 to Prague." A woman with a French accent said in the intercom above Blair's head. Serena quickly stood up, handing a very shaky Blair her purse back. Blair gripped onto the purse for dear life as Serena silently led Blair into the plane.

"Here you go B, you wanna sit by the window." Serena asked softly rubbing Blair's arms. Blair nodded and quickly slid into the window seat. At this moment Blair didn't care she was now flying coach with screaming kids and snoring adults all she wanted was to see Chuck. Serena had to help her buckle her seat belt because she wouldn't give up the purse in her hands.

"It's going to be ok B." Serena tried to keep calm as much as she could she just wanted her best friend to be ok and keep her hopes up for her brother. Blair just nodded and stared out the window as the plane started to take off into the night sky. Silent tears ran down her face as she watched Paris disappear below. She was supposed to be having fun, forgetting things she was running away from but she always seemed to be running right back. So now Blair sat staring out the window of this hour and forty-five minute flight in silence, tears coming and going as she prayed for the first time in her life that the man she would damn to hell on numerous occasions would not get even the slightest chance to even fulfill that wish she had spat out many times in their short years of life. Serena stared at her best friend with sadness in her eyes, she had never seen Blair this broken before, and she guessed this is how Romeo must have felt when he had found Juliet dead well decanally asleep, broken down at the mere thought of his love being gone forever. Even if Serena had never really paid any attention to the movie because she was too busy staring at Leonardo Decaprio, she now understood what her friend was going through. So when she watched Blair finally let go of her purse she had to cry too because Blair had pulled out the one thing Serena never expected for her to have let alone in her purse.

"Oh…B." Serena gasped as Blair dropped her purse to the floor and clutched Chucks signature scarf to her chest as if it was going to disappear any second. Blair couldn't part with it, even if she was mad as hell with Chuck a week ago she just couldn't let it go. The scarf had been a gift, the third box of presents that Chuck had given her on the day he had finally said "I love you" to her. Blair sobbed into it, instantly staining the silk with her salty tears. Serena prayed for Blair's saintly and hers that Chuck had better be ok. Because when she spotted to tiny gold heart pin dangling from the end of the scarf she knew if Chuck didn't make it, Blair wouldn't either.

"Serena I…I think I'm going to be sick." Blair stated as she quickly rapped the scarf around her neck, pushing Serena out of the way and sprinting down the path way towered the tiny bathroom. She couldn't help it, Blair knew this was bad but then again this wasn't how her relapses went. She always had to force it but this time and the time earlier were not forced with her own finger.

"What's wrong with me?"