(I decided that since I have time, I would try to update in the same night, but I have a school related thing going on this week, so I don't know if I can. I am writing this right after posting my first chapter, so thanks for your patience.)

Disclaimer: All legal rights are copyrighted to Stephanie Meyer. I own nothing but my own plot line and characters that I create myself.

Song: Riot by Three Days Grace

Chapter Two: Stupid Ideas

BPOV

Now I was hollow feeling. If I thought Edward leaving was bad, it was nothing compared to right now. I was to the point as if I could feel nothing. Charlie found me on the floor, still sobbing, last night. I said nothing, but he carried me to bed, kissing my forehead. I managed to stop the tears until he left before starting back up again.

My head hurt so badly. I could almost feel the pain of being stabbed in the heart. I didn't understand why this felt so much worse than it did when Edward left. I hadn't cared if I had died then. Now, I WANTED to die. No, I wasn't suicidal or anything, but I felt so hurt that I would rather have died than heard him say those words.

The next morning, I felt dead. The pain was gone, but so was my heart. I said nothing all morning and the day dragged on. I could tell everyone at lunch was very confused as I was just getting more involved in conversations. I could feel Angela's eyes on me the whole time, and knew she was worried about me.

Angela pulled me aside after school, and looked in my eyes. I held her gaze for a moment and she shuddered before pulling me into death grip on the shoulders and shook me slightly.

"Bella, you look…dead." She stated. I shrugged and she frowned.

"Bella, what happened? Did something happen with Jacob?" She asked. At his name my dead persona disappeared and I felt myself begin to cry. Angela pulled me into a hug and I sobbed. I knew she wouldn't ask questions like everyone else.

"Oh Angela, I don't know what I did!" I heard myself sob and she nodded.

"I know Bella…give it some time and I am sure it will fix itself." She whispered. "Do you need a ride home?" She asked. I nodded, deciding that my truck could stay here. She sensed my decision.

"I'll pick you up tomorrow, alright?" Angela confirmed and I nodded meekly. I watched as Forks flew past out her window, and wished I was in La Pushe.

JPOV

"DAMN YOU SAM!" I yelled as I turned and stormed off. He had been poking fun at me, trying to get me pissed off. He sighed.

"You are stubborn, I'll give you that." He said as he ran to catch up.

"You always know something that pisses me off." I finally muttered. He was making fun of Billy, my sisters, my friends, me of course, and even my mother. I swore at him, and shook like crazy, but I refused to phase.

"You are so odd Jacob. You get pissed, but somehow can control the shift. And, you don't even flinch when I attack you. Mind, you still could use some training when it comes to fighting style, but you have good basic skills down pat." Sam complimented me. I turned but before I could even ask he glared at me.

"No. Outsiders cannot know the secret." Sam stated and turned heel. I growled and followed him.

"Sam, what about Emily then? You told her everything, yet you demand we hide it from everyone else."

"Emily is Leah's cousin, you kn—"

"That's not the damn point! God, you piss me off Sam! You don't let others know, including Leah? Explain that!" I shouted, peeved. He could tell his precious Emily, and Jared told Kim, so why can't I tell Bella?

"You don't understand." Sam hissed through gritted teeth.

"Oh, I don't then, do I? Care to enlighten me?" I asked, poking the stick further. He growled.

"If you knew what you were asking me to explain…it would ruin any chance of being with Bella Jacob, so you don't want to know." Sam snapped. I growled at him.

"Then tell me already!" I snarled, but Sam simply glared at me.

"You will not ask me any more on the subject." He stated, clearly giving me an order. I ignored him.

"Why not! You thrust this life upon me and then don't tell me about it! What am I supposed to ask Sam!" I yelled, shacking now. Sam just stared at me before sighing.

"I…don't want to hurt you like that. I'll only say that I told Emily and Jared told Kim because we know that….we know that we will never want anyone else Jacob." Sam finally whispered, sounding broken. He began to walk off, and I pushed past him. He called my name but I ignored him and headed for home.

BPOV

Angela dropped me off, and I waved half-heartedly. She made me feel a little better. Maybe Jacob was just going through a phase…I had to know how he was doing through…had something bad happened to make him act the way he did…I had to know.

I called Angela again. She had her cell phone and I caught her half way home.

"What do you need Bella?" She asked right away. I took a deep breath.

"Would you give me a ride to La Pushe?" I asked slowly. I could almost hear the grin in her voice.

"Of course Bella. Be there in five." She stated. I heard her clip the phone closed. I clambered up the stairs and headed to my closet. I might as well look better than the walking zombie I felt like.

Angela pulled up and I stepped outside. I saw her smile turn into a wide grin.

"You look amazing Bella!" She swooned and I flushed.

"Thanks." I mumbled. I hoped it would be enough to make him pause, for even a second. I climbed in the car. As we drove I looked out the window and thought. My stomach was full of butterflies. I knew he would be 'out', but I was going to sit on that porch or walk along the beach if it killed me. Angela pulled the car to a stop.

"Are you sure you don't want me to come with Bella?" Angela asked. I nodded.

"Thanks for the ride Angela…I'll…I'll let know how it goes at school…I don't know what's been going, but…" I frowned and turned toward the house. Angela nodded and drove away, me waving from the porch. I sighed and walked toward the front door with a feeling of fear. I took a deep breath and knocked. I heard Billy wheel toward the door.

"He isn't in." Billy said gruffly through the screen. I felt a wave of anger.

"Billy! Just tell me where he is!" I demanded. Billy sighed.

"He is having trouble Bella. Just leave him be for now." Billy turned away and I couldn't help it.

"Billy, I don't want to lose him!" I shouted. I heard his wheels pause in the room.

"I don't want another person to leave me…" I heard my voice crack. Billy wheeled back toward the door. He looked at me carefully.

"Bella…he really is out right now…why don't you wait for him here?" He pushed the door open when I heard footfalls behind me. Jacob was coming toward me, Sam Uley moments behind.

JPOV

I walked toward my house when Bella's scent hit my nose. It was strong and the most beautiful thing I had ever smelled. She smelled like roses and lilies and lilacs all rolled up with a fresh spring rain. I moved closer to see her.

"Jacob, don't you dare move!" Sam ordered, but I ignored him. Something was pulling me forward. I couldn't explain it, but…

I could feel Bella freeze as she heard my approach. She turned slowly and I glanced at my feet as I moved toward her. Sam grabbed my arm.

"Jacob Black, you are not to take another step toward that house." He ordered, and I felt his command try to crush me. I glanced at Bella, and met her eyes.

My world stopped.

(How does it sound so far then? I will try to post another chappie ASAP. Sorry if there is a wait! R and R please!)