I CAN ONLY GIVE YOU EVERYTHING I'VE GOT

"We have gone through so much than this before. Please just save me from this darkness" Meredith and Derek travel to New York, Owen and Amelia in tow to handle a family crisis, while each of them deal with the repercussions of the prospect of loss, something they all now too well. Previously called "LOVE LIKE CRAZY"

A/N: Hey guys! So, I decided to redesign this story, throwing Amelia and Owen in the mix of the family dynamic, and having a lot of family moments because, admit it, life is to fragile, to instantaneous, like it was for Derek, rest his soul who wasn't even given a proper send off.

I don't own anything but my mistakes, that I apologize in advance for.

Chapter 2:

Carolyn was used to chaos. She had raised 5 children as a single mother , each of those now had children of their own. Her youngest grandchild was an 10 month old baby girl named Kenzie, she was Amelia and Owen's rambunctious lucky number 3. So yes, big mama Shepherd knew a thing or two about children, big families and mess. What she didn't know a thing about was how she was meant to leave this world when things had finally started to make sense for all her children.

Amelia was happy, for the first time in her life since her father had died, she was truly happy, with a man that loved her and cherished her just as she deserved, that's all as a mother she could want for her youngest child, whose childhood traumas and personal demons had always pushed her away from others, that had all changed when she had gone to Seattle, being around Derek's life and children had made Amelia evaluate a lot of things in her life, including what loss had meant to her. Carolyn remembered back when Amelia had been pregnant with Kenzie, Owen had been called back to Iraq as a Field Surgeon, the best there was, he'd been Chief long enough and a soldier for longer so it only made sense he went, of course his wife hadn't made it easy on him, not with two young children to care for, but she was aware of what the risks were and she had agreed on them.

"Mom?" She was pulled from her thoughts by Amelia, who held a basket full of clean clothes she and Lizzie had helped wash for her, she hadn't been thrilled about it, she had never depended on others and yet, here she was, being cared for by her grown children and grandchildren. "Are you okay?"

"Of course I am, why wouldn't I be?" She quickly said, Amelia held her gaze for a moment. "Is everything ready for today?"

"I still don't know how we plan on... handling 22 children?"

"What about our husbands, don't they count, I'd be like adding 5 more to the mix?" Lizzie asked. Amelia held her breath. "Oh right, Owen's gonna go all G.I on them if they misbehave?"

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Oh, nothing... That has to be the way he handles things at the hospital, right?"

"I don't know where you want to get with this but for your information, yes Owen's offered to make sure everyone has safe fun?"

"Amelia, I cannot believe you just said safe fun, you've been around Derek too long!"

"What? You make your teenage son wear sunscreen just so he doesn't get burned on his way to school!" She bantered on. Carolyn watched her children as if they were mere kids, bickering about boyfriends. She didn't say anything, she was just saving these moments for herself, she hated to get emotional, she wasn't seen like that kind of woman, life and hardship had taught her better.

"What's going on here?" Derek came into the laundry room, he and Amelia looked at each other quickly and she left before Lizzie could add anything more. "I was just... What did I say?"

"It's more of what you didn't, dear." His mother said with a smile. "I imagine everyone's ready?"

"You mean if they are all, ummm... remotely prepared for today?" Derek grinned.

"For Pete's sake!" Carolyn said. "It's just the park, it's not as if we are headed for war, which I know a lot about!"

"Can someone explain to me, the reason Owen is lining up the kids by ages in the hall?" Nancy came into the room. "Mom?"

"You were saying?" Liz eyed her mother. "This is why he's your favorite, isn't he?"

"Is he now?" Carolyn said with a smile. "Perhaps it is, he knows how to keep control, I like control..." Derek sighed. "Shall we?"

"My mother loves you." Amelia said as soon as she got into her rented Jeep, besides Owen. "She really does, she hates all of us, but she loves you."

"What are you talking about?" Owen asked with a grin. "She asked me to lend a hand, so I did..."

"That's what gets me, that she asked you for help ahead of time. She knew we'd loose control over our own children, I mean, we don't... my sisters and Derek maybe, but us?"

"Mommy!"

"Mom!"

"We do have very well behaved children, but she doesn't mean it like that, of course Derek and your sisters can..."

"Daddy!"

"Dad!"

Owen rolled his eyes at Amelia just to look back on his children. "Everyone's leaving dear..."

"Yes, I see that, thank you..." Matt giggled when Owen winked his eye at him, starting the car."Dear."

So... I just needed to write something with Amelia and Owen because... Yes, they are so precious and I am rooting for them now on the show! Sorry it's a bit short but it's really late and I don't have more will in me.

Up next: Derek and Bailey have a talk and more on Owen and Amelia's kids! Thanks for reading and if you're liking it, please tell me what you thought, reviews make me happy!