A/N: I know that's I'm a bitch for finishing this chapter like this but I was having surgery so I'm tried.

DO NOT judge my medical knowledge. I'm not a surgeon

Warning: mild smut

Chapter 2: Confessions of a Ten Year Old

"Why didn't you start from the beginning?" Dr. Blanc's question didn't seem like a surprise to the nineteen year old. She was sitting behind her desk gathering her last few papers then she rolled her chair around and sat across from Ciel with only the table between them.

Ciel waited for her to come around before answering "No offense, but the further I go back then the less you'll believe me." A smile drew on his face and he held her stare.

She sighed "Why do you say that?" She wasn't writing anything yet, only listening.

"Because I was younger which means that you'll assume that I'm not capable of remembering that far back and you simply won't believe me" his voice was confident and steady.

She started writing something down then she looked up and asked "You seem sure of that Ciel, why?"

Ciel took a breath "Don't pull that psych crap on me; I've been around shrinks enough to last a lifetime. So yes, I am sure that you won't believe me because adults generally tend to make up their own story since my version of it isn't to their liking"

"Do you want to explain that?" Her voice was a little shaky.

"I'm not going to tell you when our relationship started so you just have to take my word when I say that I was the one who started..." He paused to look for the right word "...hitting on Sebastian" he finished with a smirk.

"Have you told anyone before the whole story?" She placed her hair behind her ear and titled her head a little, waiting.

Ciel seemed amused by the question "That would be a no...but again, I'm getting ahead of myself."

It was the weekend, Ciel's school day has been longer that he'd like but he kept reminding himself that it was Friday. This is the weekend that he gets to spend with his dad. His mother would be at work for the whole day today and tomorrow, Alois never missed a chance to sleepover at one of his friends' houses so it was a very exciting for Ciel. He was sitting through eighth period with his head on his desk; it was considered his second study hall for the day. Ciel had a doctor notice that said that he can't participate in physical education class because he has asthma so all his gym work was paper work, tests, and essays. If he happened to have finished everything then he can just sit and do other homework or read. Reading was his second favorite thing since the first was eating sweets. He usually spends his free time reading but today was too distracting. He knew that if he picked up a book and read then he won't remember a thing from it later because he'd be too busy overthinking what he'll do with his father.

Alois sat in the principal's office, right outside to be exact, waiting for his name to be called. The blonde had his ear buds in and loud music could be heard by his little brother who sat next to him. Ciel didn't seem scared though he was. He's never been in trouble before unlike his older brother. He would glance at Alois every once and a while like he's waiting to be comforted. He knew his father was on his way. The one time he wished his dad was too busy at work, he wasn't. Sebastian couldn't just drop what he's doing to come to school because his sons got in trouble, especially considering his line of work. Sebastian had patient to take of but he was free of surgery.

The door opened and only Ciel turned his attention to see who came in. Sebastian walked in gracefully; his jet black hair matched his suit and reflected on his crimson eyes making them glow. Ciel stood up but stayed in place as he watched his father walk closer and give him a small smile before sitting down. Ciel kept silence, standing in front of his dad who was looking at Alois.

The blonde removed his ear buds and looked back. "I didn't do anything wrong" he stated.

Sebastian looked at Ciel and then back at Alois "Then why are we here?" He had a firm but calm tone.

Ciel was the one who answered instead "Alois was just trying to help me daddy.."

Sebastian turned to him, a warm smile of his face, he took the boy's hand into his own and pulled him a little closer. Being cautious enough so they don't look out of the ordinary. "Tell me"

Alois snapped "They were bullying him! Should I just stand on the side and watch?"

Sebastian looked at the blonde, eyebrows knitted together "Who was bullying him?" He asked seriously, all emotions disappeared from his face.

Alois took a quick glance at Ciel who was shifting his looks between the two. "They messed with him because he got into an advanced math class...right in front of me" he was angry just from remembering it.

Sebastian sighed, irritated and a little annoyed. He tried not to show it because Ciel would get affected and think it was his fault. "Well, they're just kids, you can't go around picking fights with kids Alois"

Ciel interrupted "But they started it. You can't be mad at Alois daddy.." Ciel was still frowning but he had the most determined look on his face that made Sebastian stare absentminded for a minute. "What did they do?" He asked while tightening his grip around the small hand. He wished, more than anything, to be alone with Ciel at this second. He wanted to comfort him but not as his father.

Ciel stepped closer unconsciously, placing his small frame between the man's legs. He kept his gaze on the scarlet eyes when he talked "I was going to have lunch with Alois like every day and they were following me, they said mean stuff and Alois defended me...but then a teacher heard him and the boys said that they didn't do anything wrong." Ciel was so close to crying that Sebastian couldn't resist wanting to hold the boy close. He let go of Ciel's hand and pushed him away gently by the shoulders.

Before anyone could say another word the door to the office was opened and a man with long blonde hair looked at the three with a smile. "Come in"

The three males walked to the office, Alois ahead and Sebastian placing his hand on Ciel's shoulder, guiding him. The office was spacious and greatly lit. There was a huge wooden desk at the center and two chairs across from it. The blonde man pulled another chair from the side and placed it in the middle "Take a seat" he walked to his chair across from the desk and sat down with a smile.

Sebastian looked at the platinum tag at the desk that said Aleister Chambers. He looked up at the principal who was staring at the three before he started talking "Mr. Phantomhive-"

Sebastian corrected him "It's Michaelis."

Mr. Chambers smiled apologetically and continued "Mr. Michaelis, a teacher informed me that your sons where involved in a small fight...and used words that are not allowed to be said. Parents trust that their kids are only here for educational purposes-"

Sebastian didn't seem to care much about what Mr. Chambers was saying "What kind of words?" He asked curiously.

The blonde picked up on the serious vibe Sebastian was giving. He looked at a paper ok his desk and picked it up then sent it across the desk. "Take a look Mr. Michaelis"

Sebastian took the paper and scanned it with his eyes. He had no expression on his face and he just placed it on the desk again. He looked at Mr. Chambers "Who wrote this?"

"The teacher that saw the whole thing. She heard Alois say these words to sixth graders." Sebastian glanced at Alois who still had a non-caring-angry expression on his face. Mr. Chambers shifted before starting to talk again "I can only imagine what kind of environment your kids live at"

Sebastian gave a scary look to the principal making him wipe the smile off his face "What I do with my kids at home is none of your business or the school's. And you have no right to criticize my sons based on one interaction. I do admit that Alois' choice of words could've been avoided but I will not tolerate punishing him for standing up for his brother. What kind of example are you setting here Mr. Chambers, bullying is fine as long as swear words aren't used? What kind of institution am I leaving my sons at? Because if you or any other faculty member allow bullying then consider this school had just lost one of its brightest students. With Ciel's academic level, he's putting this school at the top five educational systems in the country. So, should I start looking for another school, because I am a busy man and I have patients to get back to." He paused for minute to let his words sink in and placed a thin smile on his lips "Patient just like you, normal people that can end up on my table and under my scalpel...where I'm the one in charge in the O.R, I'm the doctor that everyone will be listening to and waiting for his instructions. I'll be the one to hold a life in my hands and tell the nurse to push that extra dose of Heparin that will prevent a blood clot from forming and cause a stroke or pulmonary embolus. And I will be the doctor who calls the time of death. So please tell me that all of us can go back to our daily routines and I can deal with my sons how I see fit."

"Means doesn't justify the end." Mr. Chambers was about to explode after getting threatened twice in the same hour. He didn't want to push his luck with a man like Sebastian so he settled for proud defeat.

"They do in my house." Sebastian didn't have to try hard to look scary and serious. The man stood up without lifting his eyes from Mr. Chambers and the two boys followed quickly. "Have a good day Mr. Chambers."

Mr. Chambers didn't even bother moving from his chair to see them out and he held a stare at Sebastian's back as the man walked out like he's going to pierce a hole through it.

Alois was the first to pace out of the office and into the hallway, clearly trying to avoid talking to Sebastian. The man called out "Alois" making the blonde turn and stop few feet away "Listen, you may be part of this family but you are not my father. You're great respectful guy, you make my mom happy and Ciel's attached to you and I like that because I want him to have a father while growing up. But you are not my father, I already have one and he's good at his job so back off. I don't need any parental advice...not from you anyway." The teenager stormed off as fast as he could, leaving Sebastian who was still processing what was said.

"Aren't you a neurosurgeon?" Ciel's question was random and sudden. Making the man look down to the boy "Yes" he answered confused.

Ciel seemed to think about it for a while before talking "Then why were you talking about pulmonary embolus, that's cardiovascular."

"I also mentioned a stoke...which happens in the brain" he said while taking the boy's hand and walking towards the exit. Ciel simply smiled and kept silence. Sebastian shook his head few times with a smirk and whispered to himself "and you are way too smart for your age."

It was around seven when Ciel woke up from his very late nap. After leaving school late then having to do his homework at a later time, it just pushed his nap time. He knew neither his mom or Alois would be home by now. He wasn't very sure about his dad though. Because Sebastian was here when the boy fell asleep but he could have paged for work any moment from then to
now. He climbed down his bed and walked out of his room, still sleepy and dizzy. But he just wanted to lay in his father's bed whether the man was there or not. His scent would linger on the bed and it's as close as the boy would get to feeling his dad's body. He walked beside the wall in the long hallway, his eyes already used to the dark from his room.

He could see his parents' bedroom so he rubbed his eyes and hurried a little bit when he saw the light from under the door. His eyes shot open, thinking that his dad must be home. The closer he got the more noise he heard. He paid no attention to it and just reached for the door, and as soon as he did, the noise wasn't noise anymore. It was clear voice of his dad and someone else. It wasn't his mom, it wasn't feminine voice. Ciel's heart dropped between his feet and his face burned when he heard his dad's name being moaned loud. He tried to keep his breathing from turning to panting but couldn't. His hand was on the knob before he knew it. He opened the door ever so slightly and his sapphires widened when he saw the figure of his father lying on the bed with a man that had the same jet hair sitting on his lap.

He took a step back and covered his mouth with both hands, he could see his dad's face flushed, his eyes glowing, and his body tense and sweaty. The other man was on the same state, his hair stuck to his face and his hand touching the hard muscles of his father, leaning down and moving his hips. As much as boy wanted to leave he couldn't move. He knew he would start crying any second but even that didn't make him budge. His eyes wouldn't tear from the scene, his ears were able to catch every word, pant, and moan.

"Oh shit..!...don't you dare..cum..Fuck!" The man with the yellow eyes had his head thrown back and his eyes closed. He was moaning as loud as he please, his breathing fast and uneven. Sebastian's hips were thrusting hard while his hands were on the man's ass pushing him down. "Ahh...Sebastian..!" He leaned down, his body pressed against Sebastian's and demanded a kiss by crashing their lips together. Sebastian ran his hands up the man's back and down again to his ass. One hard thrust made him break the kiss and moan in ecstasy, hands clinching and not moving a muscle.

"I'll cum if you squeeze me so hard.." Sebastian closed his eyes and his hips lost their rhythm. His thrusts were fast and he barely pulled out of the man. There were grunts and groans heard from both males, neither seemed to want to stop for even a second at this point. Ciel closed his eyes shut and hung his head down. He didn't want to hear anymore, he didn't want see his dad with anyone else but he didn't know why it was so hard to just run. He moved his hands from his mouth and covered his ears instead and felt something cold run down his cheeks. The small boy shut all his scenes as best as he could as a shiver was running in his body. He could still hear small noises but they were far and faint. His thoughts began to scatter all over the place.

His heart was beating as fast as it could, his breathing became rapid and inconsistent. He knew it was the beginning of a panic attack but couldn't stop it. Every word that was in his mind was betraying him, he couldn't tell himself to calm down or just move his feet and go somewhere else. Soon enough, his ragged breathe was all he can hear, there was nothing coming from the room. He moved his hands and brought them to his chest, he felt his heartbeat with every short and unsatisfying breath. His chest began heaving and his mouth was barely closing anymore. He wanted to get as much oxygen as possible into his lungs but no matter how hard he tried he'd still feel a blockage making the huge amount of air seem useless. He couldn't keep his eyes open and the dizziness hit, his view was moving and he couldn't stand straight. He took few steps back to lean against the wall, still seeing the crack in the door but not inside the room. He wanted to call out for somebody but he didn't bother trying because he'll just consume the air that he needs and not have anyone hear him.

"Ciel?" A panicked voice was heard so close to the boy and he knew who it belonged to. The scarlet eyes didn't take a second to scan the boy and understand the situation. The door to the room was sent flying open and he rushed inside to his night stand. One drawer was emptied before he found what he was looking for. He rushed back holding the small inhaler in his hand and kneeled in front of the boy, placing his free hand on the side of his face to support to neck and the other brought the inhaler up. Ciel locked eyes with his father as the first real breath entered his lungs. He closed his eyes after and pushed the inhaler away. The boy slid down the wall and sat down, breathing normally but still taking deep and long breaths.

Sebastian sighed in relief and dropped from his knees to sit on the floor. Ciel noticed that he was wearing clothes and eyes him for a minute before anything but Sebastian brought his hand to stroke the boy's cheek "Are you ok?"

The boy flinched and moved away. A frown the most obvious expression on his face and his sapphires glowing with rage. He refused to say anything until he was sure that he can breathe normally. He didn't want to seem unconfident so he kept glaring at his father.

"Ciel?..what's wrong?" Sebastian seemed genuine in his question. He believed that he didn't do anything wrong and that he doesn't know what could get the kid so angry. When Ciel kept silence his dad moved closer with a confused look still on his face "I'm sorry that I didn't see you sooner. Are you still in pain?" He knows that Ciel always complains of chest pain after the attacks but not immediately so he thought that this time the pain came sooner.

"You are a liar! Every day you lie to me and I believe you..." Ciel hadn't realize that he started crying again because he was too angry "This was supposed to be our weekend...but you always forget and you always lie! ...Why do you keep lying to me. I'm not a baby!...You won't even say that-that you love me...at least that would a lie I-I want to hear. why do you lie so much...why do you..." He hiccupped but didn't look at his dad once "Why do you chose other p-people over me?...I love you...so much..." He still wasn't looking at Sebastian "I love you more than anyone...more than...mommy and..Alois...I love you daddy..."

Sebastian pulled the boy to his chest and held him tight in an effort to calm him down. "I know...I know you do.." He cooed with a low voice, kissing the boy's hair over and over. Ciel held on to his father shirt, taking in his scent and making it wet with tears. "Please love me...please daddy...I'll do anything.."

Sebastian felt his heart almost burst out of his chest and his stomach turned. "Don't say that...don't say you'll do anything...I'll lose control."

Ciel lifted his head, sniffing his nose few time as the last tears were falling and looked at Sebastian, face too close to his father "But I will...I'll do anything you ask. Will you love me now daddy?"

"Stupid boy" Sebastian whispered to himself as he smirked. His hand made their way to the small frame of the boy and wrapped around it as Ciel presses himself closer. Sebastian made their faces aligned "That's my line. I'm the one who should say that I'll do anything you ask. What kind of a father would I be if I didn't spoil you." The crimsons were staring at the boy's lips lustfully as he leaned closer tempted to kiss them. Ciel's hand were slammed on Sebastian's lips stopping him from getting any closer "You kissed him too, didn't you? I don't want to kiss daddy anymore." He pouted as Sebastian was so close to pinning the boy down in the hallway and kiss every inch of him.

Sebastian smirked as he removed the boy's hands slowly and looked as innocent as possible "But daddy loves you" he leaned closer pushing the boy against the wall. He knew what unspeakable effect it would have on the boy if he said those words. And having pushed them off for a while now, there was no harm in just spoiling his son. "Daddy loves everything about you...you're so adorable when you pout or laugh...makes me just want to play with you all night long.."

Ciel almost moaned at the words but only a whimper came out as the color red covered most of his face and his ears. He looked away, feeling Sebastian press himself to his small body. A growing heat was gathering in the boy's small cock with every hot breath he felt on his neck. His mind so slowly shutting down and all he can think of was being held close to his dad. "Daddy.." He moaned lowly as he turned his face to meet the other. Sebastian just hummed a response. He was too busy imagining what he could do the boy to make him go crazy and scream out. Ciel parted his lips and his erection finally poked his dad in the thigh. He wasn't trying, but the most innocent expression took over his face and his voice shook with childishness when he spoke "Can we play again?"