Chapter Two: Miss Me Baby
Sometimes at night I'll lay in my bed in my new apartment and I'll play a little game. I call it "What If?" I think up all these absurd scenarios that always end with Paige and me getting back together. One of my favorite scenes is where Paige shows up on my doorstep soaking wet, having ran all the way from Banting to my apartment in the pouring ran because she couldn't stop thinking about me. This will never happen for three reasons. One, Paige has no clue where I live. Two, There's no way in hell Paige would run from Kingston to Toronto. And Three, because she's over me. She's moved on with some guy at Banting named Bennett. Bennett from Banting. How appropriate.
I have conformation from Craig. He went up there to visit her last weekend and seemed very uncomfortable when I asked how she was. Finally, I managed to extract the information from him (I had to buy him a cookie) and at first I was okay. But I soon as I shut the door to my apartment, I lost it.
I slid to floor and sobbed my heart out till my eyes burned and there were no more tears. I sat there all night, until sometime around three in the morning when I suddenly imagined him touching her and had to run to the bathroom to empty my stomach. I slept on the bathroom floor for two nights. It was very unpleasant.
I found myself doing exactly what you're not supposed to do after you find out your ex, whom you still have feelings for, has moved on. I started wondering what he has that I don't. Maybe he's easy to get along with. This Bennett guy, I bet he has blonde hair. Blonde hair, surfer body, captain of the football team, great grades, smart, funny, witty, never sarcastic, always smiling, always pleasant. Yeah, that sounds like my opposite. I bet he's a real charmer.
I wonder if she misses me at all?