Chapter 2

Lucy's P.O.V

I turned around to see Embry leaning in the doorway. He had on a pair of blue jean cut offs, that I cut after he got mud all over the bottom of them, and a dark brown t-shirt. His hair had now melting snow in it, which means that he must have come straight to Claire's room. Then there were his warm brown eyes, that suddenly seemed to make the temperature change. If I stared into his eyes like this for to long than I would most definitely start hyperventilating.

"What do you mean not everything?" I said.

No one was saying anything, and I was starting to get a little annoyed by the quietness surrounding me. Someone got up from the bed, and put their hand on my shoulder to motion me towards them.

Claire had a understanding look on her face. "This is something the two of you" she said motioning to Embry and I "need to talk about on your own."

"Why does it have to Embry who tells me?" I didn't understand.

"Because it's something I should have told you before now." Embry said from behind me.

"You guys are seriously starting to scare me. To say I'm clueless right now would be an understatement." It really was.

"It's nothing to be scared about, but Hana and I do need to leave." She motioned for Hana to follow her out the door.

Once they left the room I went to Claire's bed, and stared at Embry who still had his same stance by the door. Why did he say that he should have told me sooner? What was so important that only he could tell me? All of these were good questions, that I shouls be asking, and he should be answering.

"Embry you know that your not telling me anything right ?" I wondered if he had gotten glued to the doorframe.

" I don't know where all of my time has disappeared to. You just grew up faster than I expected you to, and I'm glad that your finally at the point where I can tell you… Its just you may not be ready or not feel the same way." He seemed like he thought about whatever this was on more than one occasion. What was he talking about feeling the same way? Could he mean that he has feelings for me too? No, that is impossible. I excepted long before now that I would never be good enough for him, and I was just the dumb child he was obligated to baby-sit.

Right now felt like the now or never point to ask him what I had been longing to ask since I was fourteen. "What do you by feel the same way? Because if this is some sort of joke you, and the guys put together I'm never going to talk to you again Embry."

"Is that so?" He seemed to get some humor in that. So maybe it was a lie a lie, but no one ever said that I would be pleasant.

I wasn't about to tell him that though. "Yes, it is. I don't want to be the next big practical joke." I wouldn't put this kind of behavior past Paul on his kindest day.

"Well even though we both know that's not true… I will tell you that you are not a practical joke." He was now walking towards the bad slowly. "I've thought for a long time how to tell you about this, and its not really something a person can go over smoothly with in their head."

"Yeah I know the feeling, but believe me intimidation is not really something you have to worry about, so what is so hard that you have to tell me? Can you not hang out with me anymore? Did you finally find someone else to fill you're time that you didn't have to raise?" I really had been holding this in for to long.

While I was talking he'd stopped about a foot away from the bed. When he sat on the bed next to me I inched away from him. There are a lot of things I can handle, but being close to Embry made me lose all focus.

"Intimidation of what?" he was confused "You are to headstrong to be intimidated."

"You Embry!" I screamed. It had finally gotten to me that he just didn't understand, and I didn't care if I embarrassed myself, because part of me said that it would all work itself out for the best. "How come you haven't noticed it? I'm sure Paul has told you all about my little breakdown." If Paul did tell him, he didn't show any sign of it on his face. So now was the time to confess. I moved my self to look at him to see that he was already looking at me. "Embry you were my best friend in the whole world, and I have tried to make myself feel that way again, and it just wont. I love you more than I have anyone else in my life. I know you wont ever see me like that, so how about I spare you." I said standing up.

"Lucy if you would just wait and not be so hard headed." I wasn't waiting on him to love me like that anymore. Claire, Hana, and I were going to that Christmas party in Forks tonight.

"I cant wait for you. We have plans tonight anyways." I hoped that made him mad.

"What kind of plans?"

"Christmas party in Forks of you must know."

"Who invited you? I bet if Sam and Emily knew what kind of party it was they wouldn't let Claire go." He was just being stupid now.

"That's why they wont find out." Did he really think Claire not going would stop me.

"Maybe they will, and you didn't answer my question." Always the unfair player.

"Maybe they wont." He gave me a competitive look. I turned around, and walked out the door. "By the way Justin asked me to come." I called over my shoulder. It was lie because I didn't even know a Justin, but I was willing to try anything to make him jealous at this point.

I found Hana and Claire sitting at the table eating cookies, while talking to Emily. "Hey Em do you care if the three of us go to Corrine's house for a bit?" I asked. It wasn't a total lie about where we would be.

"I don't care as long as your all back by curfew." She said scraping more cookies off a pan onto a plate.

"We will and save some cookies for me." I said trying to butter her up.

"I'll try my best." She said giving Claire a kiss on the head. "Have you're cell on you at all times."

"So what are guys going to be doing?" Embry asked coming up beside me.

"Oh you know the usual. Prank calls, frozen bras, and drugs." Claire said laughing.

"What? You mean no crazy Christmas party's?" Embry asked smirking at me. It didn't reach his eyes though so I knew something was still bothering him.

"No, just talking about stupid boys who lie, and girls who don't want to waste their time with them."

"And on that note I think it's time to leave." Said Claire who was picking up my car keys off the table.

"Who said that you get to drive?" I asked her as I picked up my bag from beside the table chair.

"Oh come on Luce? Just to her house that's all I ask" She gave me the puppy dog look that only broke Quil.

"Whatever just don't hit a pole or anything." I said laughing.

We all made our way to the door. One thing about tonight was for sure I wasn't the designated driver. All I wanted to do was get Embry off my mind, which was not happening unless I was wasted. Alcohol is never pretty on me, but tonight I just want to have a good time, and not feel the hurt that comes with being away from Embry.