Hey. If there is anyone reading this, then I'm glad that there is someone interested. I was beginning to worry if it was story-worthy. Anyways if you are reading, thanks for your support. Sorry for the shortage or lack of interest within the story, i'm not exactly a good literary person =S Enjoy

The Next Step Forward

The party resumes as normal, many still query about me and my new preference. I admit, I'm not entirely proud right now. I feel sick, but I feel relieved. I feel teary but they have a glimpse of happiness within its transparency. Did I say it to accept it, or did I do it to phase it out. I'm just glad it was only Meg that I told. Secrets last long, at least I tell myself. I see her talking to the crowd.

"Hey, man." A couple of the guys sit next to me. Probably out of pity.

"We just wanted you to know, we don't matter what you may think, but know that we won't change our minds about you. You're still the cool dude we all know and love." Barron says as they try to cheer me up.

"Thanks." I gave a half smile as they walked back to the crowd. I give and follow them too.

"Okay, there's something I don't get. Overall, are you saying you're gay?"

"No, its not that." I deny the insinuation labeled on me, "It's just.." I explain in a way that words cannot seem to say.

"I feel like I need to be with someone that's making me hold my breath when I see them, that I feel butterflies arrive when we talk, that I want to be with them and hold them, or them hold me in times of need. Besides that, I'm still searching for a girl. The girl. Or rather the someone."

"So you tell Meg, but not us?" Tess begins to rant.

"Well it's not like she'll tell. She doesn't gossip for the kick. She's beyond that." She smiles proud as they all seem slightly offended.

"I find it hard to believe that you would think I stoop low as to gossip for the sake of it." You find it hard to believe?

"Geez, why won't you tell us. What happens at this party, stays at this party." Mitchie begins to beg too.

Now they're all over me. The thin line begins to lose strength as I feel myself giving in. I've decided. Should this heart ache further as I walk away from the truth? However, I feel less strongly for this. Now I'm confusing myself.

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The sun moves across the blue sky to shade it a little lighter. The shadows begin to grow that provides a cooler atmosphere. We all crowd on a patch of grass, partly shone by sun. I sit in the circle we made and kept myself covered within my crossed leg and arm cradle. We talk a bit, hopefully until we feel off topic.

"Hm," Mitchie's phone vibrates, from a text. "Darn, my mother's calling me back home to get ready for this party."

"You haven't stayed for long. Just a bit longer." Caitlyn pleads. They were close enough to say that a lengthy time was only a small occurrence.

"Okay. But my mum can be impatient and," She plans, "I'll leave, once Shane admits who he's falling for." My face turns scarlet as I felt the heat rise to my pale cheeks.

"Ooh, yes let's get him that way." Now they're in full focus. I bring myself closer to say something to them.

"Okay, I'll give you a clue. Just so you can leave my case alone."

"Okay. So what is it?"

"Well, it's someone from our school, and in our year." Small peeps of gasps were spread as Caitlyn jumped from her spot to grab the school photo. Now they're narrowing the candidates.

"Hey," Mitchie asks me, "tell me, please. You can trust me. I need to go but I wanna stay." Now I feel kinda guilty but I kept on saying 'no'. Now we're all looking at the year photo, remembering past memories and laughing at the mishaps.

"Ooh, is it Brock? Joseph? Nick? Zack? Justin?" Ella is throwing names at me as I say no to every name thrown. It goes on and on until I take it no more.

"Alright fine. If you really want to know," My heart increases speed, I feel nervous under the paralyzing gazes fixed on me, fumbling with the grass on the ground, as I build up the strength to say, "Meg, you can tell them."

"Are you sure?" I nodded. I begin to feel relieved as I deny that their name won't pass my lips out of conformation.

"Okay. Well people, it's N..."

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