As Edward drove me home I couldn't stop thinking how terrified I was if Charlie was home early. He would punish me for leaving school and if he saw Edward dropping me off he would punish me further. I looked out the window at the trees and the birds. They are so lucky they can escape any danger. I wish that was the same for me. We were around the corner from mine and I didn't want Charlie to see Edward dropping me off if he was home.
"You can drop me off here", I said.
"Bella I wanna make sure you get in alright", he debated.
"Edward, stop the car", I shouted.
And he did. I hated shouting and I didn't want him to hate me. There was something different about him. Something I trusted in him.
"Look I know your holding something back from me. Maybe it's serious maybe not but I want you to know that you can trust me and if you ever need to talk come to mine. This is my address", he said handing me a note with his address on it.
One, Forest Lane, Avenue.
I smiled.
"Thanks", I said and opened the car door.
"Bye, Bella".
"Bye Edward", I replied shutting the door and walking towards Charlie's house praying to god he was not home.
I closed my eyes as I turned the corner and my worst fear came true. I saw Charlie's cruiser parked in the driveway. He was home. I can't turn back now I just have to face him. I continued walking towards the house and spotted Charlie at the corner of my eye at the window looking out. He saw me and he looked murderous. Shit. I shouldn't have left school. I turned to the window and Charlie was gone. As I was walking up the front steps I looked up and there was Charlie standing at the door waiting for me.
"Get in. Now", he shouted and I done as he said tripping along the way.
I got through the door and with a slam Charlie shut the door and turned the lock so I was trapped. I backed away as far as I could until my back hit a wall and I came to a stand still.
"Well, your home early", Charlie said stalking towards me.
My heart sped up.
"I..I wasn't feeling well", I said, terrified.
He was now only a few feet away from me now and I could feel his breath on me and I could smell the drink coming of his breath. It made me feel sick.
"Mmhmm. And who was the boy", he asked.
Shit. Edward. The Nurse did call him. I can't tell Charlie about Edward. I don't want Charlie to hurt him.
"What… what boy", I lied.
Edward wasn't the only one could tell when I lie. Charlie has grown used to my tell tales. He drew his hand back and slapped me in the face and before I fell he grabbed me by the neck and pinned me to the wall.
"You know what boy. TELL ME", he shouted.
"No.. I.. won't..let..you..hurt..him", I said trying to breath.
Charlie dropped his hand and I fell to the floor. I laid there coughing trying to get my breath back. As I laid there trying to get my breath back Charlie bent down and came to my level.
"You will learn your lesson this time", he said grabbing me by the hair and through me back on the floor.
I couldn't believe what was happening. He was my Father. I couldn't believe he would go this far.
He got on top of me and started to undress me. I felt sick and disgusted. That my own Father would try and rape me.
"Please, don't do this. Your my Dad", I screamed.
He stopped and looked at me.
"Your right I am your Dad", he said getting off of me.
"Get up stairs now and wait on your bed", he shouted kicking me hard in the side.
I picked myself up off the floor and slowly made my way up stairs to my room and I heard Charlie on the phone to someone but I couldn't make out what he was saying. I opened my door to my room, shut it and sat on my bed like Charlie had instructed. I have learned to listen to him as much I could. But now? I can't tell him about Edward. Charlie would kill him and I can't let that happen. Why do I care so much about him? I have never felt this way about any guy. What makes him seem so different? Because he helped me? Because he wants to protect me from something he had no idea about? Even if it hurt him? Even if it dangoured him?
I sat on the edge my bed for Fifteen minutes when I heard the door open and close. I had no idea what was happening but my stomach churned. I had a very bad feeling. I heard two sets of foot steps coming up the stairs. I stood up from the bed and started backing away from the door and as I got as far as I could the door opened. Charlie was standing there with a boy who doesn't look any older than me. Charlie walked up to me and I flinched knowing I had no where to run.
"You were right. I am your Father and I can't do that. But he can", he said pointing to the boy.
I knew what he was talking about. He called him to come to the house and rape me. My eyes started to fill up with tears. I couldn't believe this was happening.
"This is Jacob, Billy's son", Charlie said.
I remember him now. Jacob Black. We used to be close when we were kids. I used to go to his and play in the forest with him and his sisters. He was my friend.
"Anyway Jacob I will leave you too it", Charlie said addressing Jacob.
As Charlie turned to leave to room I thought it would be the chance to run as I might not get another chance. I ran towards the door and punched Charlie out the way. I thought I would get away but my clumsiness got the best of me and as I reached the top of the stairs I missed my footing and feel to the bottom hitting my head on the way. I couldn't find the energy to get. I tried my best to crawl my way to the door but as I was reaching door the handle someone turned me around.
It was Jacob. I looked at him in horror. This can't happen. I was so stupid I shouldn't have left Edward's car. I should have just told him the truth. Jacob started to kiss me. My cheek, my lips, my neck. And hes hand went to undo my jeans. I fought with all the strength I had I kicked and punched him. He pined my arms with one hand and my legs with another. He kept kissing me all over and he let go off my arms and his hand went back down to my jeans and this time he won. He unzipped then and went to his and unzipped them too.
"Please don't do this. Please", I pleaded.
"I've always liked you Bella and when I got the call from your dad well I couldn't pass up the chance off having you", he said.
I cried as I knew I couldn't win. I stopped fighting I just let my body go numb. I didn't work I could still feel everything he was doing. I screamed as he thrusted into me. I cried the whole time. The pain was too much. I can't believe happened. Why didn't fight more? Why did I stop? I gave up.
I didn't know how long... It happened for. I stopped counting. But eventually he stopped and got up off of me. He looked down at me and smiled. I felt sick. I knew I couldn't lie here forever so I done up my jeans slowly and painfully I stood up and then I remembered. Edward gave me his address.
As I went to go out the door I heard a voice behind me. Charlie.
"Where do you think your going", he asked.
I turned around and looked at him in disbelieve.
"You still need to make my dinner", he said.
That was it. I had enough. How could he be so monstrous? He just got someone to rape me and now he was asking me to make him dinner? I looked at the door and at the coat rack where Charlie keeps his belt and gun. I didn't think twice. I grabbed his gun and pointed it to Charlie and then to Jacob.
"Bella put the gun down. It doesn't have to go to far", Charlie said.
He was unbelievable.
"To far? To far! It already has. You, my own Father, got someone to rape me! I hate you and I always have! I just didn't think you were that must of a monster that you would have your own daughter raped. Now your gonna let me walk out of here and your not gonna follow me", I said.
Charlie laughed.
"You wouldn't shoot that", he laughed.
He was daring me. So I pointed it to Jacob's leg and pulled the trigger.
"Shit, what did I do", Jacob screamed in pain.
"You raped me", I shouted
I pointed the gun at Charlie. I cried and dropped the gun running out into the rain and ran as fast as I could. I looked at the address again. One, Forest Lane, Avenue. I know exactly where that was. It was the big house. I always pass it when I take a walk in the forest. I ran and never stopped until his house came into view. I took a deep breath and tried to think why I was doing this. Why did I trust him so much? I was in so much pain and I was freezing. I started walking again and stopped as I came to his door. I knocked on Edwards door soaking wet and unable to control the tears that were falling from my eyes. I kept reliving the horrible moment. I wanted to forget everything but I couldn't. Everytime I close my eyes I saw his face. It felt like minutes since I knocked on the door but it was only seconds and Edward was already standing in the entrance of the door.
"Hey. What's wrong", Edward asked, looking worried.
I can't tell him what happened. I don't even know why I am here. He was the first person that came to mind. I just wanted to see him and then I knew everything was gonna be okay. But it didn't work.
"I...I don't have anywhere else to go and I don't really want to be here but", I said unable to finish as I burst into tears.
"Hey, it's okay", he said pulling me into a hug.
I thought I would pull away or the flash backs would be worse but they faded as Edward pulled me into a hug. I felt safe but the feeling quickly faded as Edward pulled away.
"Come on", he said taking my hand and letting me into his home.
He guided me towards his massive family room and sat us both down on the couch still holding me hand. I was still crying wanting to stop but failing.
"Hey, what's wrong? You can tell me", Edward said trying to get me to talk.
I shook my head. I can't tell him. He would look at me differently. If I told him he would never have let me into his home.
"I promise your safe here. I won't let anyone hurt you. You can trust me", he promised.
He was right. I can trust him. This is gonna be the most difficultest thing I have ever had to say.
I looked down at the floor unable to look Edward in the eye as he was right about Charlie.
"You were right about Charlie. He does hit me and I am so sorry I didn't trust you enough to tell you or this wouldn't have happened", I said.
I looked up at Edward and his face was mixed with emotions. For one he looked grateful as I told him the truth about Charlie but he also look half confused and worried as well.
"What do you mean? What happened", Edward asked.
The tears ran down my face as I remembered what happened and I am trying so hard to forget every horrible moment.
"Hey it's alright. You can tell me. Charlie will never hurt you again", he said.
I know I should trust him but I'm scared that he will see me differently.
"Okay. I trust you. I was wrong. I thought Nurse Dawn didn't call my Father to tell him about the incident but she did. So when I got home he hit me and he said that…", I couldn't continue without the horrible flashed coming back. Edward squeezed my hand gently letting me know everything was okay.
"He said I will learn my lesson this time. He sent me up to my room and told me to wait. After fifteen minuets I heard the front door. I didn't know what was happening. The worst part of it was that I couldn't believe my Father would go that far", I continued.
Edward looked at me still confused like I was talking in riddles.
"My door opened and there was a boy who doesn't look any older than you and me. I knew him. We were friends when we were little because his Father and Charlie were best friends so we grew up together", I said.
I looked at Edward and he looked like he understood everything I was saying. Has he pieced every together?
"Bella, what happened. What did he do", Edward asked his voice sounding a little croaked like he was upset. He knew. He figured it out. This time the tears were unbearable to control.
"He.. he raped me. My own Father got someone to teach me a lesson by raping me", I cried sinking to the ground in tears. I was not at all expecting Edward to pull me into his arms and hug me. I thought he would be kicking me out by now. I sat there in the comfort of his arms and cried.
"I'm so sorry, Bella", Edward said.