I walked back to my house , and felt that familiar pressure on my heart. I did not want to feel this anymore. I wanted to move on, and right now I only wanted to hear my thoughts and one other's, my mom. I walked into the house, and called for her throughout our small house.
" Leah, baby, what's wrong?" She asked with genuine concern. I blew into hysterics, and she just cradled me into her arms.
"I want to move on. I want to change. But it just hurts so much because I love him. I loved him. And I cant bear it. I just want him to admit that he loves me more than Emily just a little bit. I know that sounds selfish, Mom. But please just help me. I miss Daddy." Just then Seth came in, and heard the last statement. He didn't say anything, just came over and hugged both of us. He was his job as the man of the house to make sure we all were alright. A couple of hours later we were sitting in the middle of the floor, the only thing heard in the house was our voices. And all you could see was food everything from every restaurant around. Seth just cracked another joke, we were all laughing. I never thought I could ever feel this way again. It could never feel good to laugh for humor not sarcasm. We pulled out different pictures, and reminisced on the times we spent on the beach. Especially this time when Seth and I were on our Dad's back trying to push me over. I remember exactly what I was thinking at the moment, My Daddy so strong. Then he told me and Seth to hold on, and he pushed us both underwater at the same time. Then there was another time when we were on the mountains, and My Mom and I were lounging on the chairs near the fire because we were freezing. I remember the feeling even though now I can never freeze. Then it hit me.
" You know what this is exactly what I need to go up to the mountains. To get away from here for a little while." I said pointing at the photographs.
"Honey, the soonest we could go up to the mountains is Saturday. Im sorry."
"No, its fine. See it work out because I have money saved up so I could head up tomorrow, and you guys can follow up Friday. That way Seth can ask Sam off duty, and I don't have to go to that wedding. I cant take it. I looked at the ground."
"Sounds fun! What do you say Mom?' He looked at her with puppy dog eyes.
"Fine! But you will be careful, right?" My mom stated and yawned. "I think it is well past my bed time." She kissed us both on our forehead and was out of sight.
Seth launched at me and wrapped me in a hug. "Im so glad your back to your regular self. I missed you."
"I missed you too, Seth! I missed you too!"