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"Edward, I don't have much time left. I'm dying! I need you, please!" I was crying by now. I couldn't help it. He wouldn't give me what I wanted and it was killing me, literally.

"I refuse to love a monster! I asked you to marry me and you said no! Because of that I won't give you anything except what you deserve!" He screamed in my face. I felt the hole reopen as shards of glass pierced my heart from every angle. I clutched my hand to my chest and whimpered.

"How…could you…do this…to me?" I asked through my sobs.

"I'm protecting you! You're better off dead!" I fell to my knees and screamed as the pain shot through my entire body. I raised my head to look at him. He was so perfect.

Edward had a look of disgust on his face. He turned his back to me and I reached my hand out to him. He began to walk away. I screamed his name and called out to him until he faded out of my sight.

"Bella, wake up! It's just a nightmare! It's ok!" Alice said as she lightly shook my shoulders.

I jolted awake and frantically looked around the room. He wasn't here. Oh god. Had he really left me? My heart began to ache again. I dropped my head back down to the pillow and covered my face with my hands. I let out a cry of pain and shook my head. Alice's cold hands gently rubbed my arms.

"It's okay, Bella. Everything is fine. It was just a bad dream. Do you want to talk about it?" Her musical voice was a gentle, sweet melody.

"He's gone isn't he? He left because I wouldn't marry him. I should have said yes. It's all my fault. He called me a monster. Am I really better off dead? I don't know what to do! I need him! I just want to die!" I croaked out.

"Isabella Marie Swan! Are you even listening to me? It was a dream! He did not leave! He is in the house talking to Carlisle! He wants to come down here right now, but I told him you needed some girl time and you do. Nothing is your fault. You are not a monster. You are most certainly not better off dead. You will not die. He didn't say any of those things. It. Was. A. Dream. Do you hear what I'm saying? Bella!" Alice nearly yelled.

I removed my hands from my face and stared at the wall. It took me a minute to process what she said. It was all a dream. Just a really, really bad dream. I let out a sigh of relief. I smiled up at her and she grinned back at me. My smile fell when I remembered what happened before I fell asleep. Alice tilted her head to the side and stared at me, confused.

"Alice, I thought I was dying. What happened?" I asked. She frowned and carefully sat on the side of the bed.

"Obviously you aren't dead. Are you in any pain?"

"You didn't answer my question" I scowled.

"Well you didn't answer mine either." She smiled brightly.

I narrowed my eyes at her. Did it really matter? I thought about her question for a second. I wasn't in pain. Well I was in pain, but it was just the normal pain that I had to suffer every day. I smiled at her and shook my head.

"No more than usual. Why?"

"Good! That means that the pain medication is working." I raised my eyebrows in question.

"Oh, that's right. You don't remember do you?" I shook my head and her smile fell.

"Well you hit your leg with your fist. You tried to push Edward away which caused you even more pain. Then you started thrashing around in his arms. Now you have bruises on your arms from it. Edward's been moping around about it all day. He blames himself for it, but it was really your fault." She smiled at me apologetically and then continued.

"Anyways, you finally gave up against Edward. We were all in here by now. Jasper felt your pain and he had to leave. You were totally oblivious to anyone but Edward and Carlisle. A bone in your leg collapsed and if you would have kept thrashing then your entire leg would have collapsed too. I know it's a lot to take in. I'm sorry that it happened, but I'm glad you're not in pain." She smiled softly and patted my arm.

I glanced down at my left leg and sure enought it was in a cast. I frowned at it. Why did I have to inflict pain on myself? I sighed and raised my arms so I could investigate. I cringed at them. They were covered in quarter sized black and blue spots. Some bruises were twice as big and others were so small that they were barely noticeable. Edward would definitely blame himself for this. I would have to talk to him as soon as possible. I noticed that Alice was watching me closely. When I met her gaze she grinned. I was confused.

"Edward just went for a run so if you have anything you want to ask me then go ahead. If you want to talk about it now is your chance." I detected how she stressed the word anything.

I only wanted to talk about one thing. I didn't want to die. There was only one solution to that.

"If I decided to go through with chemo do you see me living afterwards?" I asked her.

"Humph." She scowled at me.

"What?"

"I didn't see you asking that, but the answer is no. When you decided to do chemo in the beginning I saw you die, but then you changed your mind and I saw you become a vampire. I still see you changing into one of us." She grinned up at me.

"So you'll change me?" I asked her, but she only shook her head.

"Carlisle will. I already have a plan. Emmett's in on it too. I have everyone blocking their thoughts, but they don't know why."

"Thank you, Alice"

"Anything for my sister." She hugged me softly.

"Let's change your shirt so Edward won't have to see those bruises." She said to me as she pulled away. I had a problem though. I couldn't bend my arms without being in pain.

"Alice I need another favor."

"What is it?"

"I can't take off my shirt. It hurts to bend my arms." I felt my cheeks burn and Alice giggled.

"Don't be embarrassed Bella! I've seen you naked before. I don't mind."

She smiled and put a black long sleeved shirt in my lap. I carefully lifted my arms directly above my head. She lifted up my shirt and pulled it off. She gasped as her eyes widened and she covered her mouth with one of her hands. Her cold fingers traced my ribs and I winced. She quickly pulled her hand away. I looked at where she had traced her fingers and my eyes widened. There was a black bruise the size of Edward's hand.

"I'm so sorry Bella. I didn't mean to hurt you." She apologized.

"No, no don't worry about it. It's my fault." I told her.

Then, the door opened and my head snapped up to see Edward standing in the doorway. His eyes took in my exposed chest and my face was burning. His eyes roamed my body and his eyes darkened in anger.

"Did I do that?" he asked

"No!" Alice and I said at the same time.

"I'm sorry." His eyes traveled to the window and he focused on the outside world.

"God Edward, shut up!" I yelled at him.

His eyes jerked to my face and he blinked. He was surprised by my tone and choice of words. I glared at him. I was sick and tired of him acting like everything was his fault. I had had enough of him degrading himself.

"Why don't you be a gentlemen and remove yourself from the room while Bella changes and gets ready for bed." Alice demanded.

I saw his eyes flicker to my chest before he left the room at vampire speed and slammed the door. I felt slightly rejected as I stared at the doorknob, but I was also grateful for Alice. She sighed and I felt her gaze on my face.

"Are you mad at me?" She asked.

"Not at all! I just wish I wasn't sick. Maybe Edward and I could…you know." I blushed.

"I know. When you get better, you two can do anything you want." By better she meant when I was a vampire.

"Thanks again." I told her.

"You're welcome! Now can I pick you up so you can wash off?" She asked brightly.

"Sure." I said to her as she slipped her thin arms under me.

I groaned when she lifted me from the bed and into her arms. She froze in alarm, but I told her I was fine. As Alice helped me get ready for bed I thought about what she said earlier. Carlisle will. I already have a plan. Emmett's in on it too. I smiled to myself, but I instantly felt guilty. I was going behind Edward's back again. We were both being selfish. He was desperately trying to keep me human and I was dying to spend eternity with him.

I thought about how close we would be when I was changed. He could hold me tighter. He could finally give me a proper kiss. He wouldn't have to worry about hurting me. I was already twenty. Our relationship was illegal! I had never thought about it like that. I didn't want to get any older. I was ready now.

Alice helped me back to my bed and told me to get some sleep. I lay in bed staring up at the ceiling. I was tired, but I wasn't sleepy yet. My leg was starting to bother me more than usual. I would have to ask for more morphine.

"Bella?" My angel's voice brought a smile to my lips.

"Come here Edward." I said softly.

I closed my eyes and listen to his almost silent footsteps. I felt the bed sink as he sat down on the right side of the bed. His cold fingers traced patterns on my palm. I pushed away the guilt that began to creep up on me and focused on the feel of his marble skin against my soft flesh.

"Closer." I demanded. I felt him lay down next to me. I put my hand on his thigh and he froze.

"Bella." He warned. I opened my eyes to look into his. They were dark with desire. I grinned at him and he sighed. I breathed in the scent of his sweet breath.

"Relax. I'm not doing anything wrong." I told him.

His eyes narrowed. I brushed my fingertips up and down his thigh. He closed his eyes and swallowed. I stopped moving my hand and rested it on the top of his muscular thigh. I don't know what had gotten into me, but suddenly I wanted him more than I ever had. My heart started to ache at the thought of not being able to be intimate with him. My lips trembled and I felt a silent tear glide down my cheek. Edward opened his eyes and watched the tear fall. When it reached my chin he kissed it away and his lips lingered there.

"Why are you crying my beautiful Bella?" He asked me before his lips briefly pressed against mine. My throat was tight and I furiously blinked back tears.

"Because I need you." I choked out.

"You have me." He didn't understand what I was talking about.

"No I don't. I can't have you. My leg is in a cast and I'm sick. Don't you understand how this affects me?" I sighed.

"Oh." He said flatly. I had gotten the point across to him. That was a start.

"Isabella, what can I do?" He asked me. My eyes shot back up to his face. I didn't think he would give in so quickly.

"Make me happy. You can love me."

"I am loving you."

"That's not what I meant. I need you to show me, Edward." My cheeks felt warm.

I studied his face in the moonlight. His skin was glowing enchantingly. He was deep in thought as he stared at my hand still resting on his thigh. I continued to watch him in silence until he picked up my hand and kissed every one of my fingers and then my palm. He leaned over me and pressed his cool lips to my shoulder. He pulled away, but stopped when his lips brushed against my ear. I shivered.

"I can try, but I will not make you any promises." He kissed the top of my ear and then retreated to gaze into my eyes for a moment before lifting himself off the bed.

I watched him as he slowly began to unbutton his shirt, revealing the perfect contours if his pale white chest.

A/N: Hmmm. So what do you think will happen next?! I hope i did okay. Anyways, please review. That would be lovely. I probably won't update for awhile.

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