Hey hey hey! How is errybody today? I had a total nerdy nerd fest updating my story whilst watching the Avengers...

Loki tho... 3

Enjoy!

~FallOutHanstran~

Chapter 2: Heartache is Life

A few days passed and we had a proper memorial for Nat, which was a heartache on its own. I stared out the window, watching the rain fall and the lightning flash across the sky, "It's strange, whenever something sad or tragic happens, the weather seems to fit the mood." Tony said,

"Not now Tony." I muttered,

"Look, I know you're upset, we all are."

"I- I'm not in the mood to talk." I said, walking away.

Clint hadn't been seen since her memorial, I sighed and texted him, 'Everything okay?' I've never seen Clint cry before... And I couldn't help that seeing him cry would make me do the same. I sat outside his room, "Clint?" I knocked on the door, "Please let me in." No response, with a sigh I got up and walked around.

"Jess?" Seamus asked when I was laying in bed,

"Yeah?"

"Clint will be okay... He just needs some time to cope." He climbed into bed and started rubbing my back.

I rolled over and looked at him, "One will never cope with the loss of a loved one wether they are friends, family, or partners." I rolled back over, "Trust me, I know."

"And you think I don't? I've lost over half my family and every day I still wish they were here... To hear my mom say she loves me again..." He trailed off.

I rolled over and hugged him, "Nobody deserves to lose anyone." I said and kissed him.

A few weeks later nobody said much to anyone, and Clint was gone, physically and mentally, nobody heard from him since Nat... It broke my heart. My dad came on base to help with some investigations and other miscellaneous stuff, "Thanks for coming out dad." I said,

"No problem Jess, anything to help." I smiled, then my face quickly fell, "Whats wrong baby girl?" He asked (still using his nickname for me),

"Dad, do you believe people cope with death?"

He had a look of thought on his face, "I don't know Jess, everyone is different."

"I guess you're right." I nodded, even if it wasn't the answer I was looking for.

Later that day I was cleaning up some files when I noticed a picture fall out of one of them. When I picked it up and turned it over, I nearly had a heart attack. The picture was of me and my sister, so many years ago, I looked at it and realized that I forgot what she looked like. She had the same blonde hair as me but she had pale blue eyes like my mom and a smile shared with my dad. I felt the tears run down my face as I realized that I missed her more than I thought, "Oh Rosa." I wiped dust off of the picture and put it in my pocket, then picked up the file next to it, no surprise, the picture came from my dad's old SHIELD file. With a sigh I put everything away and left the room.

Dinner at the base that night wasn't the greatest, and I wasn't sure why, "This food is bland and flavorless." Tony muttered,

"Yeah." I agreed, "Why is Coulson making us stay the night here?" Everyone shrugged,

"Who knows, all I know is that I'm going to bed." Tony got up and left, I followed him out.

*Many years ago...*

"Jessie catch me!" Rosa exclaimed to me as she stood on the edge of the swimming pool, "Okay, jump!" She jumped from the side and landed in my arms, "Don't let go!" She held onto my arms, "Don't worry Rosa, I will never let go." I smiled at her, She smiled back. I helped her swim in the shallow end of the pool, she was four and I seven, but she looked up to me like I was a hero, even before I was one. She kicked feet in the water as I pulled her around by her arms, "Jessie look! I'm swimming!" She had the cutest grin on her face, "Yeah, keep going." I smiled. She laughed as I pulled her around the shallow water, when she was tired out we sat on the patio chairs and dried off a little, "Jessie? Can you take me out to the deeper water?" She asked, "Maybe one day when you're older." I said, "As old as you?" "Yeah, when you're as old as me." "Yay!" She clapped, "I love you Jessie!" She hugged me, "I love you too." I hugged her back.

I woke up freaked out and crying, "Rosa..." I choked and looked at the picture, it was all a dream... No, a memory. I got up and paced for a minute before grabbing my water bottle and heading to the bathroom. "Get a hold of yourself!" I told myself as I splashed water in my face. When I walked out of the bathroom there was a distant explosion and the room shook, sending me to the ground, "Dammit!" I got up and headed to the hallway,

"Jess!" Tony said,

"Let me guess, we're under attack."