A/N: Okay here is Edward's POV. He is a little different. But this is how he wanted to be written. Usually, I try to outline my story but this one has been screaming at me and they won't let me plan it out. I hope it makes since.

I still own nothing of Twilight. I would really love the money Stephenie made though.

EPOV

"Edward, it has been 32 days, 32 God damn days, since you have called me. I am tired of playing these games with you. I don't get why you always have to get so moody and take it out on me. Have you ever thought of taking a Midol or two? I know you are listening. It is 7:30 in the morning. At this time everyday you sit down for exactly 15 minutes to drink one cup of decaf coffee and read the newspaper. YOU CAN ANSWER THE PHONE! Fine be that way. Call me as soon as you decide that you are allowed to live a life." With that the answering machine hung up.

What a waste. I wasted so much time with that girl. Tanya and I met shortly after I started undergrad. The first year it was nothing but friendship, then slowly things progress to something more. The first two years together was nice. It was like she understood me. She got my reasoning for why things had to be the way they were. But then slowly she changed. She stopped trying to understand. She wanted me to be something different than what I was. It started small. First hints to go to this party or that. Then out right invites. She would interrupt my schedule and expect me to drop what I was doing right then and there. Then she would make plans with others during our scheduled time. It was like she didn't even want to be in this relationship.

The straw that broke the camels back so to say was when she tried to get me to sleep with her. We had talked about this. Sex was not something to take lightly. Only after marriage would I consider sleeping with her. For everything there is a time and place. It was the motto that I lived by. I had my life structured as to how much time spent doing what. For everything that I changed I looked at the cost of the sacrifice for the change. I had very clear priorities and never wavered from them. It was the way it was.

I can't remember when I became like this. In a way I was always like this. I thrived on the schedule. When I was younger I would attend school during the day and then came home and practiced my piano for exactly one hour and then I would help with dinner, eat, do homework, and then head to bed. 8 hours minimum a night in sleep, never less. Your body requires it. I know that will change as I start my residency and they own me and my time but I am sure with how efficient I have become in the rest of my life I will be able to get more sleep than the regular resident. It is all about structure and discipline. Both I knew and knew well.

I, however, had no idea what I was to do about Tanya. I thought not calling her back would give her a clue that we were done. I never really had to break up with someone in the past. It isn't like I have had a ton of girlfriends I have had a few, but most can't understand me and they walk long before this. The real disappointment in this was that based on my cost analysis 6 months time would have been the best opportune time to propose to Tanya. It would allow for a long enough engagement for her to plan a wedding and yet us to have time to figure out the future plans. You know when to have kids and how many, where to live and all that jazz. I would be finished with school by time the wedding occurred and then we could settle into the family life. Yet, that analysis was thrown out the window when Tanya gave me that ultimatum.

I think that is what is confusing me the most. She was the one that set a deadline on our sex life. To tell me that she would either be sucking my dick or I would be buried into her by Friday or she was gone seemed rather clear to me. I picked to be gone but yet she is still calling me. I was already off my schedule today so I figured it would be a tank day. I allowed myself one of these a month and it looked like today was it. Tank days were for those days when the schedule just won't work and Tanya's phone call and my time spent contemplating it has forced me into a tank day. I guess I better get this figured out so she doesn't force me into another tank day this month.

It looks like I was going to need help with this one and the only person I could think to call was Alice. She would be able to tell me how to get rid of Tanya.

"Edward, tank day I take it? What brought it on this time? I thought everything was in total order for your life. Something has to of happened for you to be calling me outside of our scheduled weekly chat." Alice chipper voice came over the phone. It really did amaze me how we could be so different yet come from the same mother and father. I guess if you really wanted to consider it you would have to look at our older sibling Emmett. He was more like Alice than like me. So maybe I was switched at birth or something. I was just so much more disciplined than my siblings. They were so much more about living their lives. The nice thing is that they never once made me feel like how I lived was wrong. They just accepted me for who I am.

"One word, Alice, Tanya."

"Did that bitch call again. What is this like 10 times this month?" Alice never really did like Tanya. She accepted her because she was the first girl that I dated that actually gave me a chance. Usually women wouldn't tolerate a scheduled time to talk and date and what not. Women liked things spontaneous. I learned that early on. I would try to do that. But for me it was just easier not to.

"She is up to once a day, now. You should hear the message she just left. It was worse than some island stranded sailor. Something about me being moody and needing Midol." I huffed out. But instead of the sympathy I thought I would get from my sister I got laughter. "Really, Alice, laughter at my pain."

"Oh come on Edward, even you have to admit that you can be moody when things don't go as planned. As rigid as you are you are also very realistic about yourself. You know how you are and you recognize that you aren't like most people so don't' go getting all huffy about someone pointing it out now."

Alice had a point, it never really bothered me in the past when someone would call me a freak or something because I was the way I was. Why now? Why this girl? Maybe Tanya was more to me than I realized. Great now I am starting to question my question.

With a loud sigh, I asked the one question that I needed an answer to now, "What now?"

"Seriously Edward, I am sure you have already made the pros and con lists. You've analyzed this shit to pieces. What are you really asking of me? I can give you my two cents, but you really already know it. What is it you want?" That was the million dollar question wasn't it. What is it that I want? I have never lead with my heart. I always lead with my head. It got me far. Maybe that is why Tanya was so adamant that I was playing games with her. Everything was always about my head and I never wanted to allow my heart control. My heart just didn't know what was best.

"Fine what do I do? I can't just say the hell with who I am. I am not what Tanya wants yet, for some reason she won't walk away?"

"Edward, I didn't ask what Tanya wanted. I asked what you wanted. You have to decided what is best for you and what you want from life. Then you have to live it. Not plan it and stay to the plan. Life is not about clocks and calendars. Again, what is it that you want?" Alice really was persistent.

"I want what mom and dad have and what Em and Rosalie have." Rosalie was Emmett's wife. They married young. Like right out of high school young. But they made it work.

"Okay, now you are starting to be honest let's see how to get there. Is Tanya perfect for you? Is she going to be that one you can't live without?" I was starting to really appreciate that I called Alice. She always did know how to put things into perspective for me. She knew how to make it about my head and not my heart. Esme, my mom, would just tell me that to get things like love I had to let my heart lead. Alice knew how to make my head tell my heart what to do.

"I need someone that believes in me like I believe in me. They have to understand that I am the way I am and love me for it. I think Tanya has always thought that she could change me. Make me who she thought I should be. So to answer your question, no she is not perfect for me. I don't like who she is now. She has changed, and you know how I feel about change." I answered Alice knowing I was not going to like the answer that she was about to give me. It was like she had lead me down the path to where I needed to go and I could see the pond, now it was time for me to drink.

"I can tell you know what I am going to say. If she isn't the one then for both of your sakes you have to let her go. She may not see it that way right now but some day she will." I was still confused, she made her choice but by the sounds of it Alice was telling me that I had to let her go.

"But she is the one that made that choice. Why do I have to do anything?'

Alice giggled in my ear and then said, "Silly boy, girls don't' make ultimatums to live by then. We make them to get what we want. Tanya just made the mistake of thinking that you wouldn't be willing to give her up. That is the first rule in making an ultimatum. Make sure that what you want is better than what you don't want. She is now thinking that you just don't have the courage to call her. That is why you have to call and break up with her. You can do it. I am sure you have the list somewhere as to all the reasons you aren't meant to be together. Just read that to her." If I didn't know better you would think that Alice was trying to get me to tell Tanya off in a horribly embarrassing way. I am thinking that maybe a just it's over would suffice.

"Fine Alice, I will call her after we hang up. So now that we solved that problem…" Alice cut me off.

"Oh no you don't, we will talk about you getting back on the horse. No change the subject on me you crazy. So what is your plan? How do you plan to find Mrs. Right?"

"I am thinking now is not the time. I have 18 months left in residency and then I can start working. Maybe once school is done then I can dedicate the time I spend studying into a relationship. I did learn something from all this with Tanya. I can't be so scheduled with women, or at least I can't appear to be so scheduled."

"AMEN brother! So maybe some good did come from three years of following around Tanya. I don't think you should wait though. When does summer break start for you?"

"Next weekend, why?"

"Come home for a few weeks. Spend some time with mom and dad. Talk medicine with dad at night and then hang with me and Emmett and Rosalie. Let us set you up on some dates. You know just friendly get togethers. We can work together to break you from your bad dating habits. Then when you head back to school you can practice what we teach you. What do you say? Plus fair starts here next week. You always did like fair."

"Alice, I hated fair it was you that always loved it. There is nothing there for me. I don't like the animals, the carnival rides are nothing but a bunch of rip off scams, and the food is the worst thing you could ever put in your stomach."

"See I knew you would come, fair sealed the deal. I will let mom know to get your room ready. He will be so excited. I am not sure what will make her happier, you coming home or that fact that Tanya won't be coming with you. Love you brother of mine, but I have to let you go, I have a ton of things to do before you get here." She let out a loud smack and then hung up.

As annoyed as I was about the whole fair thing, I was glad I called her. I knew what I needed to do and I had a plan in place. Always be prepared. Not that I was ever a boy scout, but some things they teach are important.

First, I was going to call Tanya and let her know that I was done. This wasn't a game or a mood disorder. She didn't love me for me and that was important to me. Second, I was going to finish my classes and then third climb on a plane and travel home to my parent's house because apparently at the age of 23, I didn't know how to date.

Two weeks at home at the beginning of summer break. Something told me this summer was going to be one I wouldn't forget.

A/N: What is your favorite Carnival ride? Have you ever thrown up from one? Review and let me know your reading.