Chapter 2

Dean carried Sam outside dragging him to the back seat, he didn't look as though he was seriously injured just a bump on the head. He took a deep breath turning to face his friend who was still pointing his purgatory made weapon directly at him.

"Cas...Cas it's okay you're safe now,you're home now." he muttered nervously.

Cas glared "HOME...define home for me,what is a home if not protected and with family? I have no family remember...not anymore."he mumbled the last part.

Dean widened his eyes "C-Cas,what happened to you,how are you here,alive?"

Castiel lowered his weapon keeping his distance almost cacooning himself into his own little shell "Not here,we should go-"

Dean simply nodded "Yeah you're probably right,why don't you go and zap us off far far away from here."

"NO...NO, let's drive,I trust you Dean...we should drive,please."he begged wrapping his filthy trenchcoat around his gaunt interior.

There was something definately wrong here,he could feel it in the pit of his gut,Cas had done something really bad. Without even thinking he threw his arms around his friends' waist holding him in a loving embrace "I thought I was never going to see you again."

Cas remembered this,knew what it meant like the last time down in purgatory,he curved his lips up slightly into a small smile gently putting his arms round Deans' waist also feeling the spark "I missed you too."

Dean smirked pulling himself away "alright well lets be done with this chickflick moment and get the hell outta here."

On the road Cas sat shotgun in the front of the Impala resting up against the car window as the soft melodies of Bob Dylans' Blowin in the wind hummed through the Impala speakers.

Dean sighed softly looking back towards Sam checking up on him then turned to Cas who had fallen silent "So Cas,you wanna start talkin?"

Cas let out a little groan "Not yet...now is not the time,just drive."

They arrived at yet another motel in the next town over a few hours later,Sam laying down on the bed whilst Cas stood gripping his machete style weapon in his hands,having not parted with it since his return, Dean knew what that felt like having suffered from the exact same symptons,infact he didn't exactly feel like he was entirely cured.

"C-Cas?"

Castiel glanced up slightly his back turned to the hunter "I-I'm going to get cleaned up."he exclaimed wandering through to the bathroom.

Shortly after Sam stirred from his sleep interuppting Deans' moment "Dean? What happened?" he asked rubbing his head.

Dean frowned clearing his throat something telling him that what ever happened to Cas wasn't good news,whatever it was he wasn't sharing would only make the situation worse. "Finally your awake,erm what do you remember?" he asked as he turned to face his brother.

"Not much...there was erm...an explo...no no an earthquake,something came shooting out of the sky and then...black."

Sam squinted his eyes trying to fit the pieces the together,his memory still a little fuzzy.

"Yeah I saw that too but,nothing I could find,I was more concerned about you,you feeling alright?"

Sam nodded "a bit of a headache but yeah perfectly healthy,are you alright?" he asked concerned.

"Me? Yeah...I'm fine." He turned towards the bathroom debating weather he should tell Sam about Cas. "Look why don't you go rest,get your strength back up then we can hit the road?"he suggested with a smile.

"Best Idea you've had all night"he nodded resting his head up against the pillow.

"I'll be right here if you need me alright?"

Sam let out of a groan of a response and turned on his side falling instantly to sleep.

Dean sighed turning his attention back to the bathroom slowly strolling over to knock the door "Cas...Cas can I come in?" with no response he chose to go with his instincts and opened the door finding the angel stood staring back at his reflect through the steamed bathroom mirror,the bathtub filling up with water at a rapid pace.

"We have to go back Dean...we have to,you know you miss it too"he breathed heavy turning his head slightly pulling the hunter towards him,uttging him by his shirt. "Sam doesn't even know does he? The full story?"

"Cas-"he resisted feeling Castiels' hands on his chest.

"The moment before you left me there to rot,I realised something all those monsters we hunted they were trying to warn me not harm me." he slammed the hunter to the tiled wall caressing him gently.

"What are you trying to say?"

Castiel breathed in his fingertips trailing,exploring his hair "think back...you'll see,the one's you thought you could trust,they betray you..they-"he gulped his fingers trailing his chiseled cheekbones now "they always betray you...we have to go back"

"I-I don't know what you're talking about" he looked up at his friend. "Cas...tell me what happened please,let me help you,what happened when the portal opened?" he wasn't fighting him off,strangely whatever this was he enjoyed it.

Castiel stared longingly,pain behind his eyes evident in the creases of his eyelids "You left me,you left me all alone and I...I couldn't...I-"he held his breath pushing him away turning his back to him quietly sobbing to himself.

Dean stood staring down at the ground now unaware of the fact that he was crying "Cas..I'm sorry I never meant to leave you,you know that right,not a day goes by that I wished to go back and get you,but I couldn't, I thought you were dead."

"I wish I was-" he turned the tap off staring down at the small pool of water as if staring at the bottom of a neverending abyss.

Dean swallowed back the tears now "I'm sorry Cas."