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"Tell me what to do about you
I already know I can see in your eyes
When you're selling the truth
'Cause it's been a long time coming
So where you running to?
Tell me what to do about you
You got your way of speaking
Even the air you're breathing
You could be anything
But you don't know what to believe in
You got the world before you
If I could only show you
But you don't know what to do
Tell me what to do about you
Something on your mind
Baby all of the time
You could bring down a room
Oh yeah
This day has a long time coming
I say it's nothing new
Tell me what to do about you
You got your way of speaking
Even the air you're breathing
You could be anything
But you don't know what to believe in
You've got the world before you
If I could only show you
But you don't know what to do
You think about it
Can you ever change?
Finish what you started
Make me want to stay
Tired of conversation
Show me something real
Find out what your part is
Play it how you feel
Tell me what to do, about you
Is there anyway, anything I can say
Won't break us in two
'Cause it's been a long time coming
I can't stop loving you..."
I sighed.
"Sonny, just get over him," I told myself. "He's just a boy. Just Chad. Just the boy that annoyed you ever since you met him, all the way up until he thought you wanted him to ask you out. Look Sonny, if you hadn't gotten so obsessed with MacKenzie Falls in the first place, you and Chad would have never gone out, and you wouldn't be pining for him right now. You are TOTALLY over him, okay? ...Okay. Time for lunch."
I packed up my stuff and headed over to the cafeteria.
"Hi, Brenda. The usual."
Brenda brought out a steak on a silver platter and handed it to me. I smirked as the cast of MacKenzie Falls nearly barfed at the sight of ick in a stick and ick on a bun. I headed back to my table and smiled. This year, we won the Tween Choice Award. So now... we Randoms get our awesome table, and awesome steaks and lobsters. It was kind of humorous when the Mac Falls cast stood up and prepared to give their speech, since it would be the 7th time in a row that they won the award- but then the announcer said So Random! The Randoms and I were literally jumping in our seats and Tawni ran up to the podium and said, "In your face!"
And then I jumped up and said, "Peace out, suckas!"
Which, now that I think about it, was kind of rude.
Chad looked really mad when I said that, but who can blame him? I mean, I did steal his catch phrase.
I just can't forget how hurt he looked, no matter how hard I try. Sometimes there's so much drama in my life it's like a TV show. Starring Zora, Grady, Nico, Chad, and me. Like a good season of MacKenzie Falls. The two characters, Chad Dylan Cooper and Sonny Munroe, break up. And then like two months later they get back together again.
Which will totally NOT happen. Mel said that I either wrote that song to keep him in my system, or to get him out. I wrote it to get him out of my system. Totally. Duh. I think.
I'm totally over him. I dated a few guys, Jacob and Luke and Kirin, but none of them were the 'One.' I didn't get that feeling whenever Chad and I touched, a numb feeling that made me unable to feel that part of my body for hours afterward. My heart didn't beat quickly, and I didn't get lost in their eyes like I did with Chad's. But maybe that's what happens when somebody ISN'T the one.
Yeah. That's right. 'Cause Chad and I didn't have a good relationship. He cared more about his image than he cared about me. I can't be in a relationship with a guy who always puts himself first.
Wow. A year after we break up and I'm still questioning whether I'm over him or not. Which I totally am.
Over him, I mean. I'm TOTALLY over him.
And I'm also talking to myself. Wow. I'm going senile. I guess without an annoying Chad or a romantic one, I'm completely wacko. I need somebody to go "Fine! Fine! Good! Good!" with. I need somebody that will quarrel with me without getting too ... uh.. aggressive. I need somebody to annoy me besides Tawni, who really doesn't annoy me that much, she just insults my closet.
Not that I mind much.
"I have a sketch idea!" Tawni said suddenly. "Loser Queen. Maybe Sonny should play the loser!"
"Sure, why not?" I replied. "So how does the sketch go?"
"Uh.." Tawni said slowly, like a, well, like a Tawni, "there's a girl named... Uh... Elizabeth, and she's... um... a loser."
"Uh, okay."
"That's an awful sketch idea," Nico interjected.
"Fine!" Tawni said tearfully and stomped out of the room.
We all looked at each other. Exactly a month ago, something happened to Tawni that was so bad she couldn't tell us. She had gotten a lot more touchy lately.
Now that I thought about it, a lot of things have happened to us in the past year: my breakup with Chad, Nico's sick grandma, Grady's broken arm (which he no longer needs a cast for, yay!), Zora's sunburn (not that serious, but the sunscreen she used TOTALLY LIED: it did not fully protect you from the sun), and Tawni's thing that she couldn't tell us about.
But eventually she'll tell us and we'll comfort each other like a family. Because that's what we are. We Randoms will stick together, no matter what, because we actually care about each other, and don't care too much about our image.
Unlike one person I know.
A.K.A Chad.