Monotonous.
The only way to describe his current life.
It begins when he wakes up, earlier than he'd prefer, but he's so used to the alarms that normally wake him. He wishes he could just stay asleep. After all, what's the point?
He eats breakfast alone, always too much food left over. It annoys him so much.
After breakfast, he often finds himself curled in Ichimatsu's corner, or up where Karamatsu liked to sit on the roof. He gets now why his first younger brother spent so much time up here. It's serene. You can see so much from up here. So much insignificance. Random, nearly faceless people meandering about, going on with their worthless lives.
He is called in for lunch. Kaa-san made his favourite, yet again. Of course she did. Who else was she really cooking for? Back when.., she'd give everyone their favourite about once a week when she could, the six of them and their Tou-san. She seemed to enjoy everything all the same, I guess. Or she was selfless. Who knows. Who cares.
Osomatsu can hardly even taste the food he forces down his throat. And, again, far too much for him. Too many leftovers. Makes him want to rid himself of his recent meal.
He manages to keep it down, and continues on with his day. What day is it? Does it even matter? Again, he doesn't even pay attention to his actions. He thinks he probably stayed at home today, but even he isn't sure.
He eats dinner without thought, not caring, his mind still bouncing between thinking about his brothers, or just not even thinking at all. After all, he's a jobless, friendless, hopeless NEET. Without the brothers he loves, needs, lost, what does he have to live for?
He goes for a long walk, passing by the places often visited by his little brothers, remaining there for a little while. He misses all of them. So fucking much.
Coming upon the bridge Karamatsu frequented, he stares at himself in the water. He gives himself a familiar 'heh', before beginning; "Ah, this is truly a dilemma, is it not? A guilty guy such as myself, faced with such a situation. Is this my curse, then? To watch as all I love leaves me?"
But that makes him realize...does he really have to sit back and watch? Is there really nothing he can do?
OF COURS E THERE'SSOMETH ING HE CAN DO.
Renewed determination fills his mind as he returns home in the dark. His parents are doting, especially to a child in need. He knows them better than anyone.
He dipped his sushi into the sauce, doing all he could to ignore his surroundings. Jyushimatsu was being his usual, bumbling, idiotic, stupid self. Kept bumping into him. Despite his own warnings, even Karamatsu's warnings, the pathetic dumbass wouldn't listen. Obviously it would be enough to mak e hisap ath e tic re solv e B̷̛̦̟̽͗͒̈́͆͊͗̐̎͠ŕ̸̰͇̮͖͆̌̔̇̀̃̊͂̓̽̽͝ ̵̩̒͊̑̎̋̃̽ę̴̛̦̭͈͕͍͍̤͖͎͇͖̊̋̓̀̆̈͊̕A̷̠̲͕̖̺̩̿̔͂̆́͋̓͘͠ͅͅ ̶̧̛͓͉̼͍͊̽̍̂̏̀͌͗̈́̐̓́k̶̨̨͍̥̭̰̪̹̝͛̉͆͗͛͋̒̐̆̓̈́͗͋͜.
Jyushimatsu pushed him too far. Before he could put the yellow brother back in his place, the blue one had the fuckin gn erv eto punch him. The events following were a blur, Karamatsu bitching him out, the both silently setting up the futon and going to sleep, and Choromatsu leaving the following morning. Among his thoughts, he considered how his other brothers would be su ret o- -
He instantly retaliated Todomatsu's attack, remorseless, leaving a massive blemish on his youngest brother's face. Even seeing the black eye form, he did not care. Todomatsu had it coming. He deserved it.
And then, the little manipulative, despicable youngest actually had the ne rve to actually fucking leave. Where did he even get the money for that, the selfish bastard…
While he was distracted, internally reprimanding the two brothers who left, he overlooked the most useless, pointless, selfless little brother, who followed his long-assigned partner's cue to leave. And that infuri ated Osomatsu.
He was the eldest, and yes he allowed, and even endorsed them all to somewhat abuse his immediate younger brother, and even though Choromatsu had essentially taken his place as second in command, Karamatsu should still accept and appreciate his own sacrifices and responsibilities as the second eldest, even with no benefits. P ainful motherfu cke rdidntdeserve benefits. Without being the one to bear the others' aggression, what was he even good for? He forgot his place. They were all forgetting their place. There was a status quo they needed to keep to, after all.
And then, somehow, Jyushimatsu OFA LL PP EOPLE, landed a goddamn job?! Just how desperate were these people to hire him?! Tch. Pathetic.
Huh… 4 down, I see….
And of course, the one least likely to amount to anything, the dark, depressive, shitty piece of complete trash, decided to leave; without money, without a job, without a plan, without so much as a place to fucking go. It's like the moron was begging to die in a back alley like the inconsequential shit he was.
They'd learn.
They would all learn.
Everyone…