I would like to thank all those of you who reviewed. I was meant to update this earlier but this summer has been more stressful than I thought. Two days left and I still havent done ny of the work we were meant to do. Oops. Anyway, heres chapter two of 'Goodbye My Lover'. I changed my name because this one seems to suit it more. And yes, its the same title as a James Blunt song. But that song is soooooo sweet. Getting off the point again. So heres chapter 2 before I bore you to death with pointless info.
Disclaimer: I dont own Kingdom Hearts or Final Fantasy. Sadly. But KH2 is coming out in England on the 29th September. Sooooo excited.
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Chapter 2: Being afraid of a stranger
That's how I met him. That's my life story so far. You may still be wondering why I would drag up my pain just to prove a point, but sometimes, going over the past can help the future. I'll start from the beginning, when he first walked into my life.
XxXxX"Selphie, move your backside now! We're going to be late!" Another academic year has arrived. The final year of university and I realise how lucky I am to be here. "Selphie!"
"Coming, coming." As much as I love her, does she really need an hour and a half to get ready for 5 hours at uni?
"Why does that girl take so long to get ready?" Rikku asked me.
Rikku, my cousin and the only family I have left. I don't talk to my aunt and uncle anymore. She's been my rock, as has Selphie, and I don't know what I would have done without her.
"Okay, I'm ready now," Selphie said as she came down the stairs.
"What's the stilettos, Selphie?" I ask.
"I want to look good."
"Still trying to impress that Tidus guy?" Rikku asked, a slight smirk on her face.
"Yeah."
"Still wont pay attention to you?"
"Yeah."
"And you think a tight top, high heels and a skirt that looks more like a belt will do it for you?"
"Kinda."
"How old are you?"
"20." Rikku just looked at me and shook her head. I laughed slightly. "Hey, you're 28 and your single."
"I don't plan on getting married until I can guarantee myself a secure life."
"You can still date."
"The majority of singletons my age are complete jerks."
"Listen you two," I interrupt, "we're late enough as it is. We have to be there in 10 minutes Selphie and you're due in at work in 20, Rikku." That was all it took to get them moving. I roll my eyes and pick up my bag. "Honestly," I mutter.
XxXxX"This year, things are going to change, I can feel it."
"Selphie, just because it's a new year doesn't mean Tidus is suddenly going to fall for you."
We're walking down the hallway towards the art building. Selphie gives me a hurt look.
"He will notice me."
"You'll get over this Selphie. Next week you'll be with some guy from some bar that you met on some night out."
"Maybe. But I just know Tidus is the one for me." I sometimes question whether she truly is 20. "And what about you? Any man taken your fancy yet?" I instantly turn cold at the thought of being with a man.
"Selphie," I say to her, a little more harshly than intended, "lets not go there."
"I'm sorry, I didn't realise-" I don't listen and I walk on ahead.
I'm not ready to think like that. I'm not really to imagine being with someone. I just cant. The nightmares are still too fresh. Not watching were I'm going, I walk straight into someone.
"I'm sorry Kairi." I look up and meet a set of blue eyes. The one male I talk too. The one male that I can actually stand to get close too.
"Its alright Sora. Its my fault." I help him pick up some books. Advanced Law. God, I hate him for being so smart. But I don't really hate him. I'm getting of the point. You know what I mean.
"You okay?" he asks me.
"Yeah, I'm good."
"Things going okay…?" I could tell he was trying to ask me about it but didn't want to upset me by saying it directly.
"Things are…okay." He looks at me. "Don't look at me like that Sora. Things have been better, but I'm getting there." Okay, blatant lie but even so, it stops more questions.
"Are you sure? You seemed a bit flustered when you bumped into me." Okay, I spoke too soon.
"Its just…I…" I'm at a total loss for words.
"Selphie said something totally stupid but it hit you like a hammer hits a nail?" Damn you Sora, why are you always right? He takes my silence as a yes. "Don't worry about her. She's got her head in the clouds over this Tidus bloke…again." I laughed slightly. Sora had a habit of doing that too me. "Anyway, welcome to your last year. Namine should be here soon, and the others." I saw that starry eyed look in his eyes when he mentioned Namine.
"Still haven't told her?"
"Nope." I shake my head slightly.
"I know I'm not the best person to give relationship advice…but tell her already!" Sora laughs at me.
"Maybe, but its hard. What if she doesn't like me back?"
"Sora!" We turn to see Namine running down the corridor towards us. She smiles at him and a faint pink tint crosses her cheeks.
"If that doesn't answer your question, then nothing else I can say." He looks at me and smiles. I smile back but if fades as Namine hugs Sora, him returning it with the same passion. He cant notice my arse. But then it hits me that I'll never have this. Whilst they're talking I head off towards the art's building without them noticing. Yep, they're going to get married and have loads of kids.
I fall into another world. The people fade away from around me and I lose myself in my mind. The one place that is so scarred but is the best place to lose myself. As much as I detest all men, except Sora obviously, I wonder what it would be like to have that. Somebody there. Someone to hold you when you're down, miss you when you're gone, make you laugh and smile. Just someone.
When I'm in my own world, I lose my grip on reality. And when walking through a crowded corridor, that can be fatal. So what happens, the most cliché thing in the world. I walk smack bang into something, or someone, and I'm sent sprawling to the ground.
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry," I hear a voice say. I sit up to see a blonde gathering papers and a guitar case next to him on the floor. I shake the daze out of my head and start helping him.
"Not, I'm sorry. It was my fault. I was in a world of my own." I gather some papers and look up. Damn it.
My eyes rest on crystal blue eyes. I feel something stir up inside me but I push it away. I never had breakfast, thinking of the best possible excuse.
"I…erm…" he stutters. I have to look away, fearing I'm going to get lost again if I keep looking into those eyes. He coughs. "I'm sorry. I should have been watching where I was going."
"No. It was me." I hand him the papers and help him with the guitar case. "I hope I didn't ruin anything."
"It would be my own fault. I'm sorry about that." I laugh slightly. "What?"
"I think we've both apologised enough." He grins nervously and scratches the back of his neck. Where have I seen that before?
"How about I make it up to you?" Now I don't make an excuse for the new funny feeling growing inside me. I've felt this before…fear. "What you doing at lunch?"
I go instantly cold. I push past him and ignore his shouts.
"I didn't get your name."
I cant give you my name. I'm too scared to even do that. I hug my bag closer and wish his voice away, but it wont go. He's still in the corridor behind me, not moving. Probably wondering if he did something wrong.
Giving your name to someone is so simple. Such an easy task. Why the hell is it so hard for me to do? I walk towards the art room. All he did was ask what I was doing at lunch and I couldn't answer that simple question. I'm 20 and I'm afraid of a stranger. The urge to start crying overwhelms me and I wipe a tear away as I enter the room.
I've never seen him before and I pray that it will be the first and last time.
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