Something Wicked

Chapter 2

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Later On That Week

Amanda's heart hadn't healed in the slightest. She still didn't even know how she let things with Liv come down to this. How had things ended up like this? She didn't quite know. One minute, Olivia was with Cassidy, supposedly happy, and the next Olivia was in Amanda's bed. Claiming that they keep what had happened a secret. Oh and what a 'secret' it turned out to be. Amanda never imagined herself to be the 'girl on the side', but Olivia held a special place in her heart. But then there was Cassidy. Amanda's blood seemed to boil at the mention of him.

The blonde was pulled out of her thoughts by a wad of paper hitting her square in the forehead. "What the hell, Fin?" Amanda exclaimed.

Fin let out a laugh. "You've been sitting there for almost 20 minutes without speaking to any of us with your eyes staring off into the sunset."

"Okay and?"

"Something you want to share with the class?" Fin wiggled his eyebrows at her.

Yes.

"No. I'm fine."

"Sure you are." Fin answered as he watched Olivia stroll into the precinct.

"And what time do you call this?" Cragen opened the door to his office and eyed the late detective.

"Sorry Captain, I had to drop Cassidy downtown for some undercover work and got caught in traffic on my way back."

Cragen nodded and closed the door again while Olivia walked over to Amanda's desk and placed a cup of coffee in front of the blonde.

When the younger woman failed to react the brunette eyed her suspiciously, "Hey you okay Amanda?"

"Fine." The response was short and abrupt, much like Olivia's interest in her. Rollins' heart pounded in her chest as she wasn't sure whether she wanted to slap Benson for fooling around with her heart like this. Or alternatively kiss her in front of the whole squad.

The woman's body was tense, her emotions were running high and she definitely didn't want to be there of all places.

Suddenly to the surprise of everyone, Amanda stood up, grabbed and her coat and hightailed out the precinct without a word to anyone. Olivia eyed the blonde's fleeing figure sympathetically before turning back to Fin. Fin noticed something was wrong with Amanda—and he knew it had something to do with Olivia. He just wasn't sure what yet.

"I'll go check on her." Olivia hesitantly made her way towards the stairs that led to the roof.

"You left everyone pretty worried back there." Olivia said once she found Amanda on the roof.

"Oh. Well screw them." Amanda spat out angrily. She faced away from Olivia; she didn't want the older woman to see her tears.

"I can tell you're mad at me." Olivia softly replied.

"I-I'm not mad at you. Just…just sick of whatever this is."

"Amanda." Olivia began, not sure of what to say. "This, is whatever you want it to be."

"You have a choice." Amanda turned to face her. "Him, or me." And with that, she left Olivia on the roof alone.

The next few days were tough, what with Amanda avoiding Olivia. Every glance and every stare was dismissed by the blonde. Rollins bought her own coffee to work and she managed to keep her head down.

Olivia was yet to come to her decision, maybe she never would. But Amanda knew deep down that this struggle between them couldn't last forever. Sure she felt some undying attachment to Benson but she was sure she could live without her. Or could she?

"So go on, tell me what's up with you two?" Fin nudged Olivia as he watched Rollins walking out of the precinct with Nick.

"Nothing's up. Why?" Olivia's response was quick, her mind was mixed, and her decision was still in the air. "Oh come on Liv! Everyone's noticed something's up between you and Rollins. So just tell me, what's up?"

"Nothing is up Fin. Difference of opinion nothing more."

The senior detective eyed her suspiciously before turning back to his paperwork. Olivia gave a sigh of relief. She was under enough stress as it was, she really didn't need Fin poking his nose into her business.

Once Amanda had re-entered the precinct with Nick, her eyes accidentally found Olivia's. Olivia gave her the look she had seen hundreds of times, only saying one thing; we need to talk. Amanda was saved from her poker face coming down when Cragen exited his office.

"There is nothing else we can do today. Everyone go home; that's an order." No one had time to object as he quickly bustled back into his office. Olivia's gaze didn't leave Amanda's for a second. Sooner or later Amanda was going to have to talk to her. Angry or not.

Amanda said a brief goodnight to the guys and exited the precinct with Benson hot on her heels.

"Amanda!" Olivia shouted into the cool night air grabbing hold of Amanda's shoulder. "You can't keep avoiding me."

Amanda heaved a heavy sigh. "Who says I can't?"

"I do. I can't stand to know you're angry at me. If you're done with me fine, but I need to know."

Amanda turned around and carried on walking. "I never said that Liv, after all you're the one who has to make the decision."

"And what if I don't choose you? What if I choose Cassidy? Then what are you going to do?" Benson walked briskly after the blonde and kept at her growing pace.

"Then you don't choose me. It's not my heart that's being torn from two sides Liv" The younger woman's eyes were fixed ahead of her, she ignored the brunette although her heart was telling her to do the opposite.

"But that's not true." Olivia grabbed for Amanda's hand and the pair stopped, "It's your heart as well. I don't want to hurt you."

"Well you should have thought about that before you jumped into bed with me all those months ago!" Rollins voice was louder, "What you don't seem to get Miss Perfect is that you can't have everything and that good things don't last forever. We were a good thing but now I'm not so sure."

Olivia let go of Amanda's hand and let her eyes drop to the floor. She knew her actions were improper yet she just couldn't help herself. The southerner was so tempting and she felt even worse knowing that either her boyfriend or her lover were going to wind up hurt at the end of it all.

Rollins used her hand to lift Benson's chin, their eyes locked and a tear rolled down the brunette's cheek. Amanda lent forward and placed a small kiss on Olivia's lips before whispering "But I want you to know I love you."

As quickly as it had been said Amanda had disappeared, leaving Olivia Benson on the sidewalk contemplating a decision that would change her forever.

A/N: So who do you think Benson is going to choose? Or will Rollins break off the relationship before Liv has a chance to decide? Well you'll have to wait till next time to find out :D Oh and we'd love you if you'd leave us a review! Thanks.