Chapter 2
Ronnie's Pov
I rushed into the living room like a excited child
I smiled it him
He smiled back
I really did love him
More than I thought I could love anyone
He leant in and kissed me
I kissed him back
'Well…..where is it?' I questioned him smiling
'Where's what?' he asked jokingly
'My present!' I said to him playing his joke
He pulled out small red velvet box
My eyes lit up was this what I think it was?
He handed me it
I gently opened it and saw the most beautiful diamond ring
' Oh Jack!' I exclaimed at him
I gave him a big kiss on the cheek
You see Jack had already bought the ring
But knowing him it was far to big
Was it for me or a giant?
Anyway he had got it resized
He took the ring out of the box and carefully slid the ring along my finger
I held it up in front of me hypnotized by the sparkling diamond in the middle
It must have cost a fortune!
Ha Roxy would have Loved a man that always treated her
I never took Jack for granted
I truly loved him
He kissed me again passionately
I smiled afterwards
' Look Ron , I just popped back to give you this I have go to go back to the club theres a whole load of paperwork I need to do' He said sighing
' Oh please Jack cant you do it tomorrow we haven't spent one day together in a week' I said pleading
' I wish I could but it cant wait , I'll make it up to you though , I'll book us a table at fargo's ok?' he said reassuringly
' Fine' I said sighing
He kissed me on the cheek and left
I sighed and sat on the sofa
There was absolutely nothing to do!
I wasn't at work today it was my day off
I should have just asked to go with him
Oh well
I thought about going to see Roxy
But then 'Daddy' would be there
Oh god
Speaking his name sends shivers down my back
The things he has done
Its just unthinkable
I wanted to get him out of my mind completely
It was really hard considering he is living across the road and is married to Aunty Peg
Oh she can be so stupid it some times
I never went to their wedding
I wasn't going to go and be a total 2 faced cow
I am not pretending I like him when I don't
Instead I stayed home with Jack
We watched Romeo and Juliet My favourite
He always knows how to cheer me up
I cuddled up onto the sofa with him
With a big bowl of popcorn beside me
And he always knew how to take my mind off things
To be honest everybody thinks I am a cold hearted cow but I am not
They have no idea what I have been through
No one has
Not even Jack
He knows about the baby
But he doesn't know why I got made to give her up
Why I can never see her again
Or why trying to find her would be the biggest mistake
And it wouldn't be fair on her
I often think about her
That's why truly I hate being alone
Because when I am I think about her
And I end up crying
And then I just cant concentrate
I have a locket
An she does to
Though I doubt her adoptive parents ever gave it to her
Its silver
Mine has a picture of her when she was a baby
And her has a picture of me
2 actually
One when I was about 10 and one when I had her
Oh god I miss her so much
Now I cant help but cry
Oh great when it starts its hard for it to stop
I went into the bathroom
And looked into the mirror
My mascara is all smudged
And my face is all red
I remember her face it used to go all pink and blotchy
Ahhh stop
I cant take it anymore
I quickly wiped my eyes
Trying to forget
I didn't want to
But If I was ever to I had to move on
That saying 'it's better to have loved and to have lost than it is to have never loved at all'
That is crap!
I would have rather never have loved at all because then I would never have to go through this pain!
Suddenly my phone starting vibrating
I picked it up and held it to my ear
'Roxy?' I spoke into the phone
' Yea Ron it's me I was wondering Danielle cancelled looking after Amy something cropped up you wouldn't mind looking after her would you?, it only be for a few hours' She asked me
Oh God
Why me?
Please!?
I said to myself
I really didn't want to do this
I took a deep breath
' Yea sure , bring her over' I said regretting every word I had said
' Thanks Ron you're a star' She said happily hanging up
I banged my head not to hard off the wall angrily
I headed into the kitchen and got the vodka out
I took a big gulp from the bottle
And wiped my face with my sleeve
I headed to the living room and started to tidy up a bit
It was a bit messy
Afterall Jack hadn't been in all week
And I was out busy arranging stuff for the wedding
There was a ring at the door they were here …………….