Forget and Be Free
When Koga had told himself he would wait for her to awaken, he hadn't thought it would take so long. It had taken three days and he was very aggravated. He was aggravated because…no…
Ayame awoke feeling very sore all over. Her head hurt especially and the pain in her heart was reduced to a numb ache. She opened her eyes noticing two dark wolves talking to each other. It wasn't until her eyes landed on their leader, the one with the blue eyes deeper than the sea that the pain in her heart escalated and sent shocks to her brain. Ayame gasped and back up against the nearest tree, clasping her head between her hands.
He heard her gasp and his head whipped around, catching the sight of her backing away from him like a frightened child. He walked over to her, leaning down and touching her on the shoulder.
"Ayame?"
She screamed as white-hot pain coursed through her and seared her broken heart. He had forgotten her. He had forsaken her. He had lied to her. And for all of this she had believed him, followed him because she…she…
But it hurt so much to love him and not be loved back. He always hurt her. She had risked her life searching for him, and if he didn't feel responsible for her, she would be dead. If she could forget him, the pain might stop and she would finally be free.
FORGET! FORGET! FORGET! PAIN!
The screaming came to an abrupt halt as the lights clicked off behind her eyes. Then she was brought back to the reality in front of her.
"Get your hands off of me!"
"Ayame-"
"Stop saying my name! Who are you?"
Koga did a double take when he heard that. He had heard about holding grudges, but this was over the top. "Are you serious?"
"Why would I lie about something like this?"
"To get back at me."
"For what? I don't even know you!"
…She couldn't forget him.
Seriously, she had just regained consciousness and they were already arguing. Hakakku and Ginta joined them to try and smooth things over.
"Ayame, are you alright?"
"Hakakku, Ginta, could you please tell him to leave me alone?"
"Koga was only trying to help."
"Yeah, he was the one who pulled you out of the river."
He had saved her. Then he couldn't be that threatening… "Thank you…Koga, for saving me, but I really need to get back to my clan."
"Why were you all the way out here anyway?"
Ayame remembered leaving and the urgency that entailed. She remembered falling into the river but…she couldn't remember why. "I…I don't know."
"Well, I think we should all visit the mountain of the white wolf clan. Princess, I need to speak with your grandfather."
She took the hand he had extended for her and noticed how her heart raced beneath her breast. But why? Why did she feel this way? Did she, in fact, know him somehow?
After she had reattached her armor, they all started off together on the path she had taken. She led the way for the two wolf demons of her brethren clan and the other she had forgotten.
…"Ayame…" Koga held out his hand for me and I took it as if it was where I belonged. His hand fit perfectly in mine. He pulled me to him and kissed me tenderly…
… A knife slammed into my gut and twisted inside of me. Blood spilled out of my mouth as I looked up to gaze upon him. But, from his royal wolf clothing, I could already tell. It was Koga. I looked up into those cold blue eyes before sliding off the blade and into darkness…
… "Koga!" I screamed. How could he do that to me? In the arms of that wench! She took the sword from his sheath and ran him through from the back. I realize what this means: War…
She awoke with a start and gasped. Then she remembered that she had set up camp with three of the dark wolves. It was just a dream. Koga was still awake and looked at her questioningly. He could smell the fear on her. "Something wrong?"
She tried to swallow with her dry throat so that she would be able to answer, but she couldn't. She was too afraid of what might happen, what she might do, what he might do. So Ayame shook her head. She would not tell him she had a nightmare. He might start asking questions that she didn't want to answer.
He looked away from her and asked, "Do you want to take a walk?"
Alone? With him? Well, Ayame figured in the least the night air would help to dispel this sense of foreboding that had settled over her. "Sure."
She followed him to a field bathed in moonlight and the light of the bright flowers beneath them. He laid down in the field and she sat beside him. "So you really don't remember me, do you?"
"No."
"But you remember Hakakku and Ginta?"
"Yes."
He sighed heavily. "I am Koga, Prince of the Dark Wolf Clan. You don't remember that?"
"No. I don't remember you Koga and no I can't tell you what I do and don't remember. My memories seem complete, you just aren't present in them."
"Ayame…I'm sorry that you can't remember me, but you will at least have to accept me."
"I do accept you. And I recognize your position as Prince of your clan. But that doesn't make up for the fact that I don't know anything about you."
They sat in silence for a long while and he tried putting his hand on hers to gain her attention. She pulled away immediately as the pain shot through her for the first time. It hurt for him to touch her. It threatened her to remember what she had locked away in the recesses of her subconscious. She stood and walked away from him towards Hakakku and Ginta. She wanted to rouse them so they would arrive at the mountain sooner. And the sooner that happened, the sooner Koga would leave her alone.
Author's Note: So? See where I'm going with this?
It would have been longer, but some moms are concerned with sleep...or grades. Just wanted to put something up. Personally, the only grades I'm interested in are the ones I get for creative writing like this.