My Life, My Pain, My Struggles

Okay. So this is a story about Jasper (Obviously). This is basically about what I think would happen if Jasper never met the Cullens, and never met Alice. This takes place around the time New Moon takes place.

Dislcaimer: I do not own Twilight; Stephenie Meyer does. This was created 'cause I felt like entertaining myself and other readers.

Happy Reading! :)

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Jasper's pov

Biology was not entertaining at all... Well, actually, why would I think it would be? School sucks. I shouldn't even have to go to history class. After all, I was alive during some of the events that happened, like the war I fought in when I was sixteen years old in human years. Obviously I would know all about it, and yet, we were beginning to learn it on the first day. The first freakin' day. What the hell?

I angrily walked down the hall, not looking where I was going, and bumped into a girl that was in most of my classes. Her name was Elise Rose, and she was late today. She was marked absent by Mr. Smittie.

Elise Rose looked different from the other girls in my classes. She had raven-black hair, that I guessed was natural, and beautiful sky blue eyes. She had skin that was pale, but wasn't as pale as mine was. She was short, whereas the other girls in my classes were tall and lanky. Her black hair went down to mid-back. She wore no makeup at all, unlike the other girls. The other girls always dressed in pink and wore skirts and all that frilly crappy stuff, but Elise wore a black tee-shirt with a long-sleeved white shirt underneath, black skinny jeans to go with it, and black converse sneakers. I myself, personally liked that kind of style. I usually wore clothes that weren't too colorful.

"Sorry," I muttered, my southern accent still very pronounced. She didn't blush unlike most of the other girls would. Not to be conceited, but I found that kind of surprising. I've been earning a lot of stares from the girls and the gay guys here. Another thing I hated about being a vampire was that the majority of humans found us all beautiful and absolutely alluring. I don't get it.

"Sorry," she returned the apology. I was surprised at that, too. No one spoke to me at all today. "Hey, aren't you that new student here, Jasper Whitlock?"

"Yes." Christ, when could I just leave? If only they could understand.... Elise's blood is especially tempting my policy to not drink any human blood at all. I hated it. I hated a lot of things. Humans especially.

"Oh. Well, welcome to the boonies and to the hellhole." And with that, she walked away. I noticed that she had some kind dark, gothic atmosphere going on. When she left, I could feel waves of sarcasm and.... sadness? What was she sad for? What, the new student just bumped into her and she just had to walk away? What the Christ?

I laughed a little at what she'd said before she left. Welcome to the boonies. No one I knew ever put it like that before. And she was right, school is a hellhole. Maybe after I graduate and go to college, I'll just settle down for a while.

I walked across the parking lot to the bus stop. I had a car that really stood out. It was a black corvette. But I was in my Sophomore year, and the faculty and other students would question me about having a car. I was supposed to be sixteen years old when I'm posing as a human. But, as I said earlier, I'm really a hundred and fifty years old, maybe a little older. I lost track.

As I walked by, I heard some girls in the other Sophomore class gossip across the parking lot. One was blonde, one was a red-head, and the other had black hair.

"Hahaha! I heard that Elise Rose is trying to flirt with that new student, Jasper Whitlock. Good luck to her. She's not even pretty, but he's hot," Blondie scoffed.

"Isn't she depressed or something?" Red giggled. Ugh. Did they even know Elise?

"Jasper's too good-looking for her. I think she cuts herself. She always comes into homeroom with random contusions or whatever," the black-haired girl shared. I recognized her as Tia Ryan. She came late to school as well. She seemed really snobby.

"You must be ashamed to be her cousin, Tia," Red sneered. I assume that Tia is the blondie. I was right.

"Yeah, she's freakin' pathetic. She's so embarrassing to be related to. Elise is such a pain in the ass," Tia scoffed. I could feel waves of annoyance coming off of her and the others.

I rolled my eyes and continued walking to the bus stop. I had enough of their gossip. The bus eventually came and I entered, putting in sixty cents in the coin slot.

Then I smelled it. There was another vampire on the bus. I followed the scent and it turns out it was a male vampire with bronze hair and golden eyes (A/N: You guessed it- it's Edward!).

I took a seat next to him. He stared at me for a while, then smiled at me.... uh, what the hell? I tried to smile back, but couldn't find myself to do it.

"Hello," he greeted me.

"Uh... Hi," I replied. "Wait- who are you? Are you a.... vampire?" I whispered the last sentence so that no one else could hear.

"Yes. You are, too," he replied knowingly. "My name is Edward Cullen. What's your name?"

"Jasper. Jasper Whitlock."

"Oh. Nice to meet you. Do you mind if I hunt in this area for a while?"

"No. It's only me here, but keep as far away from them as possible."

"Of course." I could sense genuine sincerity radiating off of him.

This 'Edward Cullen' guy was getting on my nerves. I got up from my seat because this was my stop. I had a feeling I'd see more of Edward Cullen.

I got off the bus. I was right next to a convinient store. I headed for the woods. I ran, and I could run really fast, to my cottage. It wasn't too small, but it was medium. It seemed large for just one person to be living there.

I entered my cottage and sighed. A lot has happened today. I really needed to hunt really badly.