Chapter 2
He knew I was damaged, right from the beginning. I told him, so that there would be no doubt. After, he left, I was a wreck and he saved me. He told me he loved me, and always would, he was nice, my own personal sunshine. But I told him I wasn't whole, I was damaged as I mentioned before. And he took it in stride. He was convinced he could heal me, love me enough to help. But I knew he couldn't, I let him try though. I figured I deserved him that much. He was so kind to me when I needed him, and he stayed when I was bad, and then again when it was worse. This was what he wanted, I told myself this over and over again. Night after night, hour after hour of just letting him touch me when I just sat there wishing it wasn't him.
He wouldn't come back, I knew it. But I also knew if he ever did I wouldn't be able to be faithful. I let myself think of him when Jacob was out covering the grounds. That's the only time I let myself feel the pain he could only dim. I couldn't, wouldn't let him see me like this. I had to let him believe he had saved me. And he had, but I was no where near the way I was before. And when he came back and said he loved me, I believed him. And I let him touch me, the way I said only Jacob would. Then he left, I figured it was inevitable. He could never love me, I wasn't what he needed, what he wanted. I was just plain old Bella, with brown hair, and brown eyes. Nothing all that remarkable about me, but he seamed to find something.
When he left again I was devastated, but I didn't let Jacob see. No he would see right though it if I let myself slip, even the tiniest bit. Then he would know what happened, he would be angry, he would find him, hurt him. I couldn't let that happen. Ever.
But somewhere along the road I think he figured it out, he must have. Otherwise he wouldn't have cracked today, and I wouldn't be running for my life. No, he must know, if he didn't what reason would he have to be chasing me for pleasure, for the pleasure in my pain, the pain he inflicted. No, he knows. I couldn't have done something so terrible to make him like this could I?
Authors note: Hello my dear and very, very few readers. I wanted to say this is my first Fan fiction so I know it probably sucks. But hey! I'm making a A in Language Arts so no flames! This is supposed to be a bit confusing, this chapter is just a glipse of what was. Please Review!!