Thanks to all the people who reviewed. Here's chapter 2.
-Chapter 2-
"That was very nice of you to do that for Amy." Leonard said as soon as we got into his car. He started the engine and started to drive.
"Yeah, whatever." I murmured not thinking about it too much because I was remembering about a incident that I never thought to consider a second time.
"What? Is something wrong?" I heard Leonard say but I didn't reply.
It happened when Stuart asked Amy out. Sheldon came into my apartment and asked me out to a date. I immediate had known then that it was not about me. So I asked him if he was trying to make Amy jealous. And he was. Then I told him about Leonard going out with Priya in a form of a story.
"There was a guy l liked, and I never told him how I felt." I told him. "Eventually, he started going out with someone else and l always regretted it. Do you see where l'm going with this?"
"I believe l do." he said. "I'm the guy."
"You're not the guy."
"Are you sure?" he said. "That would explain so much. Your constant presence in my apartment, that baffling dalliance with Leonard just to be near me. The way you call me sweetie all the time."
At that time I had thought about it as just another piece of evidence of his cluelessness. But considering what I was feeling right now I'm not so sure.
Then he had told me some things that I was not aware of myself. But I did all that because Sheldon is my friend right? That I didn't mind telling him all of my secrets, that I cared more about him than anyone, that I didn't mind him seeing me even naked, and I'm dangerously close to start developing feelings for him? That I wanted to...Ohmygod! I am! I really am starting to have feelings for Dr. Whack-a-doodle. And if I was right about this, then Sheldon must feel something for me, right? I thought about what he said at that time. So he had been wondering about the reason for me being near him, and that he had actually been thinking about me. That he had been searching for answers in his brilliant brain about me. That the final conclusion he came to is me liking him. It excited me to no end that I wound up scaring myself. Why wouldn't it? I just found out that I was most likely in love with Sheldon Cooper and he probably may have feelings for me too. My thoughts were disturbed by someone shaking me. Who? Of course, Leonard. How could I forget? But I did for a moment and I was really glad for it.
"Hey! HEY! Are you all right?" He asked looking at me with concern in his eyes. "You just went somewhere else. I have been calling you for over a minute." I looked around and saw that the car had been pulled over.
"Oh sorry." I said feeling guilty. "What were you saying?"
"I asked you if ther-ugh… never mind." He said and started the engine again.
I had to know. I had to find out how he feels about me. And I felt like I was forgetting something important that related to this whole thing. Oh yeah. The date I so kindly set up for Amy and Sheldon. What if the date was so good that he would actually forgot about me? I couldn't live like that. Now that I know it myself. No way. Then Leonard coughed (without any reason for sure. Unless he could read my mind, which was highly unlikely) reminding me that there was a lot more variable to consider.
The date must've been a success for Leonard. But for me, it was awful. I really didn't want to do this anymore. And it really didn't help that we had sex after it. Even though I could've just said that I was not feeling it tonight, I didn't. I know it's really silly reason but I don't want Leonard to think something was wrong until I clear this out with Sheldon tomorrow. He must feel the same way. He even admitted that I was attractive. That was so unlike him because as far as I know he had never commented on a women's beauty. Did I find him attractive? Of course I did. When he came out of that dressing room wearing the black suit I was left without words. And I remember thinking. 'If he did try, he could look really hot. 'And to this day I haven't even thought about it. And there was something else too. The awkward hugging of his. Now that it had come up, I realized he never hugged anyone in his life. Apart from his parents and Missy of course. I tried to recall everything that had happened between me and Sheldon. And I remembered how much fun I hadwithhim. How I rarely have fun with Leonard.
I may have helped to take the relationship of Sheldon and Amy to the next stage. But until I try I'm not gonna give up. Since the next day was laundry night, I could talk to him about it alone.
Leonard had left saying that he had work to do and I was really glad. I rolled to the other side of my bed closing my eyes and drifting into a dreamless sleep.
I put my laundry into the washing machine and added the chemicals. Where the hell was he? And like on cue Sheldon came in holding the basket filled with dirty clothes.
"Oh hi Sheldon!" I greeted.
"Hello Penny." He replied. He was wearing one of his famous flash T-shirts and checkered pants. "I have this strange feeling that you're about to ask me something really awkward that I would be uncomfortable."
I was shocked. Can he read minds? Probably not. I couldn't start with it now. So… "How was the date?"
"Huh… That wasn't uncomfortable at all. Maybe I am getting rusty." He said and looked down.
"Oh come on…it was just one mistake. So about the date..?" I asked again hoping it would be horrible and I can be with him. But what he said destroyed my hopes completely.
"It was excellent. I got to know everything I needed to know about Amy. I wouldn't be surprised if I thought about going out with her again next time. Thank you very much Penny. You made my life easier somehow. And let me tell you that is not an easy feat to accomplish." He said and I could feel the tears on my eyes now. It was making my vision in my left eye blurry. What if he was lying? I searched for the twitch on his face, but found nothing but the proof that he was really telling the truth. He turned his back to her and started filling the cabin of the washing machine with his clothes.
