Author's note.

Thanks for all the reviews on the previous version of this story, however I have decided based on some of the feedback I got, to revise and change some things in my story. So I have taken it down. The first two chapters are back up, so read and review and let me know what you think.

I don't own any of Stephanie Meyers work.

BPOV

It had been three days since Alice left, and Jasper still hadn't come back. I was beginning to think everyone was going to end up leaving me. Carsile and Esme barely came out of there room, except for when Esme brought me food. And Carsile came as he never left her side anymore. The sadness on there faces made me realize how much pain I brought to this family. If I had never met Edward and let him go when I should've, none of this would have happened. I rolled over on the bed to see the clock. 6:45pm, Esme should've been in with dinner, not that I ate it. But it was nice to see her out of her room. When I looked back at the clock and it was 7:30pm, I was starting to get worried. Esme usually came at the same time everyday. I didn't want to leave my room and the safety of Edwards's things, but I couldn't loose another Cullen. I slowly opened the door and peered out into the hallway. I couldn't hear anything, but in this house that didn't mean a lot. I decided to just walk straight to Carsile and Esme's room. I knocked on the door, but couldn't hear anything from the inside. I went to knock again when I felt a gush of wind behind me. Jasper stood in front of me, although he wouldn't meet my eyes. He wasn't in check with his power, because I could feel the sorrow washing over me. I tried to keep it at bay, but in the end it got too much and I fell to the ground. Suddenly I felt the sorrow go away, although the echo was still there, and jasper had his arms around me. He was sobbing, Jasper sobbing. I had never spoken to him much, but I spose with everyone else gone I was as good as anyone to go to.

'Jasper, what's wrong?' 'There…there gone... .'His sobs got louder as he spoke.' I know, I know.' What else could I say? Focusing on his grief was the only thing keeping mine from over powering me.

'No there all gone...'

'Esme and..? ''Yes.. .' With that one word, all the emotion I had been keeping inside spilled out until I was crying along with Jasper. I knew my emotions would make his harder to bear, but I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. I don't know how long we sat there, but by the time I lifted my head, I could see a faint glow coming through the windows. It had to be nearly morning. I was curled up in jasper's lap against the wall. He had held me all night while I cried and he sobbed. He didn't move at all now though, just held me close while staring off into the distance.

'Jasper?' Yes Bella?' Please don't leave me like the rest.' I knew I sounded whiny and pathetic, but if all the Cullens left, I knew I wouldn't survive the pain.' Of course Bella, I'll stay.' I hugged him even tighter, if that was possible. I knew it was cruel to keep Jasper separated from the rest of his family, what was left anyway, but I couldn't loose the last scrap of Edward I have.' Bella…you should get some rest, you've been up all night.' Will you stay?' Even I could hear the desperation in my voice. (I was losing it.)'If you wish me too, I will stay.' I was still surprised how the Cullen's talked, no matter how long I had been around them, how the Cullen's spoke.

They always spoke so proper. I walked back into Edward's room and halted at the door. I don't think I could sleep in this room with a guy other then Edward.

Before I could even say anything Jasper took me into a spare guest room.

It pretty much looked like every other room in the house, without the personal affects.

It's ironic how the room is right between Edward's and Alice and Jasper's.

The bed was soft and as know as I felt Jasper wouldn't leave, I fell asleep.

JPOV

As I was watched Bella sleep, I though back to when I watched Alice in our bed.

Obviously she didn't sleep, but sometimes she was so inside her head that it was like she was asleep. I never saw her more at peace in this life. Bella on the other hand, didn't look at peace, every time I got distracted and forgot to send calming waves over her, she would scream and cry in pain calling out Edward's name. Her feelings washed over me, crashing me with sorrow, pain, desperation and oddly guilt. Did she blame herself for there deaths? For the others leaving? Knowing how selfless she was, and taking the blame for others, she probably blamed herself for everything that happened in this family. To be honest, the family has been a lot happier and more whole since Bella came into our lives. I looked over at the clock and it was 4:40, Bella had slept for over 11 hours. 'Bella?'

She started to stir and ended up rolling into me.

'Later Jasper, I'm sleeping.' She almost sounded grumpy with me. I laughed and then stopped half way through. Why did I laugh, how could I be happy when Alice was gone, and half my family was dead or missing. Threw all this musing inside my own head, I didn't realize Bella had woken up and was looking at me.

'What are you thinking about?' She asked.' Nothing Bella, are you hungry?' She gave me the silliest face, like she was embarrassed to say yes.' I'll make you some breakfast, actually afternoon tea.' I smiled at her and left the room.

Smiling? Laughing? Why was I acting like this, when just hours ago I was sobbing with my brother's fiancé in the hall?

The whole thing threw me. Sometimes I wish I could read my own emotions. As I ran down to the kitchen, I heard the shower turn on. It was nice to know she was getting out of bed these days. Esme had told me she hardly left Edward's bed let alone room.

Thinking about Esme made me think about when they left.

*Flashback*

I knew I had to return to the house at some point, I couldn't leave Esme and Carlisle alone after another one of there kids left. Although they hardly left there room, or each other's side, would they notice me gone?

I had to believe they would, and I couldn't bare the thought of them in more pain then they are, so I ran back to the house to face them and Alice leaving.

When I got there, I immediately knew something was wrong, I could feel the guilt radiating from the house. I picked up speed and nearly ran right into Carlisle.' Jasper you came back.' Carlisle felt ashamed. Why?' I didn't want to put you and Esme in anymore pain.'

Carlisle's face dropped and I knew he was leaving, which meant Esme, my mother, was leaving as well.

'Why..?'

"Jasper' I cut him off.

'Alice left me, Rose, Em and Edward are gone, and now you're leaving me too?'

'Jasper it's not that easy. It's to hard being around this place, and I know our emotions make it harder for you. It's best for everyone.'

'It's best for everyone or best for you?'

Esme fluttered to my side and placed her hand on my arm, even in horrible moments like this, she still radiated love towards me.

'Jasper, we need time. You have to understand that. It doesn't mean we don't care for you.'

'I can't do this alone. Please.. .' I hated hearing the desperation in my voice, but they were they only family I have left.

'What about Bella? What am I supposed to tell her?'

'We left her a note, we left you a note as well, but it doesn't really apply now that you're here.'

'Take care of her Jasper; I know you'll be able to. Help heal her, and let her heal you.'

'She's barely come out of Edward's room, I'm worried about her.' It amazed me how Esme could still be a mother to us in such a terrible time, even to Bella.

'I'll take care of her.'

Carlisle left the note for Bella in my hands, and in a second they were gone.

*End Flashback*

BPOV

The last few days have been hard to say the least. Jasper has been a great comfort to me, although I couldn't get rid of the guilt I felt for keeping him around. He would continue to ask me about why I felt guilty, but I never answered him. If I told him, he would surely leave, and I just don't think I could handle that at the moment. After reading Carlisle and Esme's letter, I knew they wanted me and Jasper to take care of each other. I guess I wasn't doing a very good job. I still hadn't faced Charlie since the Cullen's funeral. I knew I was hurting him by keeping away, but I could hardly get through a day by myself, let alone worrying about him as well.-Great daughter I am huh? 'Bella..?' Jasper snapped me out of my inner musings, with breakfast on the table.' Sorry Jasper, thanks for breakfast, looks amazing.' It's my pleasure, going to eat some today?' I felt terrible that he put so much effort into making me food, but I couldn't bear to eat. What was the point when Edward wasn't around?' You have to eat something Bella, I know you miss Ed..Him, but you need to take care of yourself.' I was grateful he didn't say his name. Thinking it was hard enough. I shoved some of the scrambled eggs in my mouth and swallowed. Opening my mouth to show Jasper I had eaten it he smiled at me and left the room. I knew I wasn't fooling him, I wasn't going to eat it all, but I tried to make a little effort to show him I was trying. Once I finished my 'Bite' of breakfast, I went out of the kitchen to walk back to Edward's room. Walking through this house empty seemed wrong, like the life was sucked out of the house. Looking at all the furniture they way it was before suddenly made me miserable. I fell to the ground, not bothering to go any further anymore and just stared at it all. I knew Jasper could tell I was upset, but I'm glad he left me alone this time. I had to get it out the pain of trying to pretend I was ok was suffocating me.

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