I Need A Fix

:: roxas x larxene – sake

I'd woken up in the morning to find my bed empty and my AC running perfectly. I could hear her running around, and gathering her things, but I wasn't about to get up until I was sure she was gone. I didn't want to talk to her, and I didn't want to have to ever see her again.

I haven't had a one-night-stand in forever.

I got out of bed and pulled a pair of boxers on, groaning in discomfort as I headed towards the kitchen. I shouldn't have drunk so much the night before, because my head was killing me. I grabbed a motrin, swallowing it down. I turned on the sink, holding my head under the cold water until I felt I was a little more awake. Mornings after always sucked.

Especially when you were so used to waking up and not being alone.

God, I was getting all emo again. Leave it to me to get emo.

I could hear my cell phone ringing, and even though I knew I was supposed to answer it I didn't want to. I already knew who was calling, and why they were calling. I had just gotten home, my real home, and I wanted to relax. I wanted to abandon the world for a day and just drink till I felt slightly better.

I walked over to the table I'd set my phone on, answering it and putting it on speaker. "Hello?"

I pulled out a carton of milk and just started drinking out of it. I hadn't been able to do that in such a long time.

"Sora, is that you? You sound like shit."

I chuckled. It was a good thing Larxene couldn't see me, because I probably looked like shit too.

"Yeah, it's me. Good morning to you too." I took a gulp out of the milk carton, propping myself up on the counter in the kitchen. "What do you need?"

It actually hadn't been who I had expected it to be. I was sure it had been my boss. He never gave me a break from work, because I was the best and the best always had to be busy.

"Just checking in to make sure you survived. I heard you got back last night."

"Yeah, I did. I guess I'm single again." As I chugged the milk, it just didn't seem to be having the effect that the alcohol did last night.

"Ooh, you were out that long? Sorry, Sora. That sucks for you. You want to go out for some drinks tonight with the group? We all thought you'd be busy but I guess you're not."

"I'm busy. I want to sit at home and sulk in my misery."

"Drinks on Axel?"

"I'll be there."

"Okay, see you tonight."

She hung up the phone, and I hopped off the counter putting the jug of milk back in the fridge, and headed back to my room. I laid down on my bed, burying my head under my pillow in order to block out the light that shined through my window.

In a matter of seconds I was back asleep.

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I didn't bother getting real dressed to go drinking. There was no one I wanted to impress, or needed to impress. I threw on a pair of jeans and a collared dress shirt that had white and black stripes on it, throwing on a light coat over top. It wasn't cold out but I needed a place to put my gun, and my belt wasn't an ideal location when I was undercover.

Eh, I won't need it anyways. Never mind, no coat.

I headed out the door, already knowing where we were going to meet. We met at the same place every time we went out drinking. Some bar or club or whatever that had drinking, dancing, and some more drinking. I really hate dancing, but when the drinks are free you can deal with the mass of people grinding not too far away from you.

I hadn't gone drinking since I'd met her... but now she's gone. It looks like I'm back to my old ways.

Shit, I'm thinking about her again.

Before I knew it I had arrived and all the same people were in all the same spots.

"You showed up!" Axel said, giving me a pat on the back as he stood up so I could slide into the booth. "Sora, we haven't seen you in so long."

Axel knew my real name but he would never, under any conditions, say it. Axel is probably the only person in the world who knows my real name.

"Nice hair color!" Larxene shouted, her voice raising over the blasting music. "Blonde totally suits you."

I gave her a half smile, because it was the least I could do for the compliment. It was my natural hair color; I still wasn't quite used to it.

"I heard you got dumped," Demyx added once I'd sat down next to him. He smiled when my eyes turned to glare at him, and I wished every second they would burn a hole into his thick skull. Of course, they didn't, and I doubt he even realized I was glaring.

"No worries, we got ya covered," Axel exclaimed, waving over a waitress carrying a tray of alcohol. "Drinks on me, Sora! No worries tonight!"

To put it simply, I drank more than the average human should ever drink, and I was happy about it. Well, almost happy, except the flashing lights and booming music was beginning to mix together into some sort of headache. I'd have to have been drinking for sometime now, but I couldn't tell you how long.

"You 'kay?" I heard Axel slur as he drooped his arm around my shoulder in an attempt to balance himself. "I think... we should go." He stated, his words melding together to become a part of my surroundings (and my headache).

I couldn't think straight. In fact, I couldn't think at all. All I was focusing on was Larxene standing in front of me blabbering on about something I couldn't actually hear. She was probably the least drunk of us all, considering she'd been out dancing while we'd been drinking ourselves to death.

She grabbed my arm, pulling me into the crowd of dancing individuals, and proceeded to teach my drunken self how to dance. I wrapped my arms around her waste, leaning against her back and burying my face into her neck, mostly in an attempt to keep standing than wanting to actually be close to her.

Though I can't deny it felt good. I hadn't felt this good since...

...shit. I'm supposed to stop thinking about her.

Time seemed to pass by quickly and in the next moment Larxene was pushing her body against mine behind the building, her mouth finding a way to my own. Was Larxene always this hot, or was the sake just getting to my mind?

Larxene's blonde like her, but she had much prettier eyes and much softer hair... and a cute figure I just wanted to grab all the time and hold close to me.

After that, my world went black.

-

I wasn't sure how many more days I could wake up with a headache like this, but I have a feeling I will be for a very long time.

What was I so depressed about?

I wasn't depressed. Just soaking in my return to my home... that's all. Well, my empty home. My empty, lifeless, and lonely home.

Where was a pack of cigarettes when I needed it? I searched my apartment up and down, looking for any remaining cigarettes I might have had stashed away just in case I really needed them. I'd told my self I'd stop smoking, but obviously that goal no longer needed to be held considering I was only doing it for her.

Yes, I found a pack.

I went out to my back porch, sitting myself down in dirty plastic chair before propping my feet up on the glass table in front of me. The glass was cold against my bare feet, but it felt nice compared to the hot surrounding air.

It hadn't occurred to me that all my neighbors were now seeing me sit outside in a dirt hole wearing nothing but my boxers, but right then I could really care less. Right then, I just wanted to smoke. I pulled out a cigarette, lighting it and inhaling deeply.

Ah, I felt calmer already.

I leaned backwards so that the two back legs of the chair were balancing me perfectly. It was rather relaxing, sitting outside and smoking a cigarette. It was something I hadn't gotten to do in a long time.

Then my phone started ringing.

I looked down it in disbelief, narrowing my eyes in hopes it would stop. It didn't. In fact, if anything it only seemed to get louder and louder; that was partially because of my headache.

I picked it up, grudgingly placing it up against my ear. "Hello?"

"You're back on duty."

I pulled the cigarette out of my mouth in disbelief, mumbling curses under my breath as I smashed the end of it into the table to put it out. Just as I was getting comfortable...

I stepped back inside, closing my sliding glass door behind me.

"What is it?"

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I was having tense trouble on this one... I kept switching from past to present -_-

but hopefully it wasn't too bad :)

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