My hands clasped around my own neck,
Tightening, Strengthening, Hardening
Willing myself to just press enough—
My whole body throbs from head to toe

The aftermath was never nice
I laid there covered in a cluster of sheets
Blood seeping from reopened wounds.

My heart yearned to leave,
To return to a normal society,
To a normal life
That I used to desire

Nothing can ever be the same
Now body hungers for the pain,
Although I know the difference,
I cannot stop myself falling deeper

I woke up, confused, dazed. My mind immediately went back to the moments before; the touches, the words, the bites... I sat up hastily, catching my breath. No doubt sitting here and wondering about whether my choices were morally correct or not was going to do me any good. I swung my legs off the side of the bed, my dizziness creepy back. Sighing, I rested my forehand on the palm of my head, letting my body a moment to recover. I done this to myself, it was my fault, so I should take the punishment for it. Still, it wouldn't do much harm if they just drink a healthy amount once in a while, for my sake and theirs.

Idly, I made my way towards the dresser. New clothes should be my top priority after my nightgown being ripped to shreds; I pulled out a fresh set of clothes and began to change, taking my time. My body felt heavy— well being drained of blood made you feel that way; I had gotten used to the feeling, or at least I thought. I sat there, gazing at myself in the mirror, slow hands fixing my bottom buttons, climbing up. I examined the bite mark left on my neck, my scars that would never clear. My porcelain skin now tainted, dotted with deep red and purple colours with the occasional spot of dried blood— beautiful. Nothing symbolised care, passion, love, more than dirtying your partner, staining them until they vowed to be yours. That is what I have become since awakening, returning to the way I was meant to be.

"Maybe I'll change my hair up today." I internally debated with myself. Grabbing a piece of ribbon from the counter, I tied a bow, holding half of my hair up, leaving the rest down; I smiled at myself, so this was going to be a good day!

Stumbling, I made past my door, and towards the living room of the manor. Although I walk past them every day, the pictures still never quit to amaze me. The building was truly beautiful, from the artwork to the furniture, no expense was spared. As I came closer to the room, the sound of voices grew louder with each step. I recognised them immediately, noting this had to be an important meeting if all six brothers were present.

"...Arriving in a moment." Reiji finished off a sentence I couldn't fully hear. I rounded the corner, staring into the eyes of each vampire. "Ah Yui, you are late, as always." His stern expression sent chills down my spine; I faced the other way, trying to calm my body. Despite being so different from each other, the brother all shared the same animalistic traits; each sucked until I broke beneath them, in a begging mess, drenched in a sheet of sweat and blood. They all became possessive when they needed to be; none really liked to share too much, except Laito but even he had his limits. My breathing hitched at the thought of all of the brothers biting me at once; what would that feel like? To have Reiji at my wrist and Kanato at the other, Ayato at my neck, Subaru at my shoulder and Laito and Shu at my thighs, printing their evil up and down until eventually settling. Ah, did I really become that damaged with lust that I fantasise about them in the open like this?

"Any moment now, eh?" Ayato repeated, smirking. What were they talking about? Was their father coming to visit? I looked at the said vampire, questionably, waiting for some form of an explanation. My feet ambled in the direction of an armchair, where seated myself, letting them continue talking.

"Ne Teddy, how do you feel?" He eyed me before returning his attention to the stuffed bear "A new doll, I wonder if she'll break as easily?"

A new doll? Surely they couldn't— they wouldn't! Would they? Was I not enough to satisfy them all? The familiar panic rose to my chest as I found it suddenly difficult to breath; I tried my best to disguise my fear, trying to even my breathing. A knock to the door caught me off guard, my anxiety taking its place in my mind. Ayato and Laito teleported out, no doubt to try and mess with the new prey. The eldest laid stretched out in front of me, gazing at me with one eye open, almost looking for an answer.

"This is bullshit I'm leaving" The youngest vampire stormed out, as per usual. They all left one by one, leaving me alone with the blonde. My hands nervously fumbled together, as my mind tried to take in all the information. This is it, I am going to be replaced in a matter of minutes; I wonder if her blood tastes better than mine, if she's more beautiful, if she's—

"Stop worrying, it's annoying." The male's voice brought me out of my thoughts. I gaped at him as if he read my mind and he only replied with the faintest smirk. He could hear my heartbeat rapidly increase, hell, even I could hear it. My eyes fell back down to my lap, filling again with tears. "You're worthless... God, did you actually think you were important?" A small laugh rolled out of his lips as he shut his eyes once more. "There isn't anything special about you anyway."

I ran out of the room, as fast as my legs could carry me. Was it true what he meant? Adrenaline consumed my body, like a chase that I for once didn't want. I rounded the corner, sprinting to the staircase, tears falling at their own accord. I stumbled at the first two steps when the voice spoke:

"Excuse me, could you help me?"