Natsu loved to star gaze, now. Before, he had never really understood why people enjoyed it so much - just looking up at tiny balls of light that were millions of miles away. It wasn't like food, that you could eat and touch and interact with. They were just… there.
Now though, Natsu could truly appreciate how beautiful they were. The stars were like fireflies, pinned to a velvet canvas of inky blue, or perhaps they were more like fairy lights on New Year's Eve. Either way, they were incredible.
And yet, watching the stars twinkle was oh so bittersweet for the young dragonslayer. He could always picture Lucy lying next to him, pointing out all of the constellations in the night sky. It had been their thing to do on missions. Him, Happy and Lucy - watching the stars. Looking back, Natsu had never really listened to what Lucy had been saying, instead, watching her face as she practically glowed from the excitement. He had seen her love of her spirits and of the stars so clearly that it had been blinding.
But now she was gone. Forever.
And he had been the one to kill her.
He knew that he hadn't actually shoved a claw through her heart, but it was entirely due to his own lack of control that she was gone. If he had only been able to take control over END, then Lucy would still be alive, and his friends wouldn't be scared and broken. His guildmates would be able to look him in the eye without flinching away, and he would be able to look at them without being overwhelmed with guilt.
Maybe Natsu wouldn't be so broken, but Lucy's death had left him empty.
.
.
.
And yet,
Lucy was still sort of there.
Her magic had helped Magnolia grow after the attack of the Alvarez Empire. She was in the blooming tulips and shimmering rainbow cherry blossoms. Her magic swirled around the city and guild she had called home, watching over the town even after her death. Everyone could sense her, and everyone knew of her sacrifice.
Lucy was a hero to everyone.
But Natsu was alone.
.
So yes, Natsu loved stargazing.
It was a way to connect to the woman he loved.
A.N.
Sorry for the huge gap between updates, but I had a serious case of writer's block. I got my inspiration on an expedition into the wilderness.
Since this chapter was so short, I'll be posting another one in the next few days.
Please review and tell me what you think.
Sorry for the wait
Ellie