JUSTUFF: Hey guys!
So, FINALLY, a new chapter of iLove America. Bon appetite.
Disclaimer: I don't know many, many things, like a mansion, a limousine…and certainly not iCarly.
Sam's POV
When I was walking down to the lobby of Bushwell Plaza, I heard footsteps. Not wanting to look behind me because I knew who it was going to be, I walked out into the pouring rain.
"SAM!" Freddie called from behind me. "WAIT!"
"WHAT FOR?" I turned to him, with fierce attitude. I got calmer. "Freddie, you're going to go off and die. Before I ever build up the courage to tell you-"
"Tell me what?" Freddie narrowed his eyes, with curiosity.
"Doesn't matter. Not anymore." I stated, and turned back to the direction of my house, and walked.
In my bedroom it was cold and dark, just like my mood. I cried, and cried, and cried. I was going to lose Freddie, and there was nothing I could do about it.
Even if I told him how I really feel. I wanted to tell him, before he ever died or planned to die, and I kept pushing myself to, but never did, for fear of getting hurt, I always got hurt in relationships…my dad, my mom, up until Carly took us to see that psychiatrist, Pete, Jonah. I always got hurt…
But I didn't think I was ready for that, that rejection. I mean, how could I be? I picked on him, I made fun of him…in his eyes, I was just a monster.
How could he like a meat-loving monster?
I had to, though, and I knew I had to. I want him to know, but I don't want him to know. It's a weird balance of both, and that balance is what kept me from deciding to not tell him, or tell him.
I didn't want to lose Freddie. He meant way more to me than anyone in all of the previous relationships I got hurt in…
And I was scared that this pain was going to hurt way more than any other pain and hurt I've ever experienced.
I, Sam Puckett…was scared.
Hey, guys! Like it?
I hope so!
I worked pretty hard on it, but in a short amount of time, so people didn't think I was going to write in it.
I am. I finish all my stories, good or bad. So no one think that.
SAYING OF THE CHAPTA: Bric-a-brac, knick-nacs, don't try crack, wow, this is lame.
You know me! ;)
Loves and Hugs,
Celene (or, AKA, ~Zazeendot)
P.S.-Today was the Knott's trip at my school…too bad I couldn't go…one percent away from going.
Hey, at least I got to stay home, and finally give you guys a new chapter!
Wow, I'm using a lot of emoticons today! I am just SO emotional! ;)
See you guys!