Disclaimer: I won nothing Stephanie owns it all.
Chapter 2
I went and jumped into the shower. I was standing there in the nice hot shower and thinking it felt so good. After Edward anything hot felt wonderful. I met some of Jacobs's friends on the reservation and one of them that I thought was unbelievably hot was Paul. But I stood no chance with him. He was like a God in every sense of the word. He was tall and had shaggy hair that was thick and so black. I longed to run my fingers through it. He was so well defined. His muscles had muscles. His eyes I could get lost in his eyes they were a stormy grey color and just so sexy beyond belief. And when he touched me I got so warm. Not only because of his natural body temp but because of what he made me feel. I know I didn't want a relationship but for him I might change my mind. He was that breathe taking.
See Paul in my mind started to make my juices flow. I longed to have him touch me, to have him run his warm hands slowly up and down my body, making me quiver in need for him. I knew I would never get his image out of my head unless I took care of myself first and I needed to. I didn't want to be uncomfortable tonight and just accept anyone tonight at the club. I knew I wouldn't cause I didn't want anyone else but him. I had to justify it to myself why I was taking the shower head off the holder and changing the setting to pulsing. I laid myself in the bottom of the tub and brought the shower head to my nub. Making me sigh out loud. I took my other hand and gently pinched my nipples thinking of Paul and pretending it was his lips on my nipples gently biting them. I trailed my hand down in between my legs gently spreading my lips apart with my fingers.
I sighed at the feeling of rubbing my clit with a circular motion and the water beating down on my clit I moaned. It felt so good. I started to image it was Paul again and slowly inserted a finger gently thrusting it in and out, raising my hips to meet my hand. I thought about Paul seeing him in his cut off shorts. I know he has a large Package. You can just tell with how the shorts fit rather snuggly. I inserted a 2nd finger and started to rub my clit at the same time. I was so close to climaxing I just needed a little more. I thought about the day I was in the water with Paul and he was splashing me with water when I lost my footing and about went under the water. He grabbed and pulled me close to his body. I could feel him he was hard as a rock and I looked down between us and saw his head starting to peek out of his shorts. "mmmmmmmmmm" that was what I needed as I shattered around my own fingers.
I slowly stood up and washed myself and got out of the shower. I wasn't embarrassed or upset about masturbating it was my life now. A girl had needs and if I had to take care of it myself then so be it. I would rather be alone then be hurt again like that.
I stood in front of my closet trying to decide what to wear. I was still feeling the effects of my time in the shower and said screw it. I was dressing to the nines. I felt sexy and I wanted to look it too. I decided to wear a corset that was midnight blue and the matching thong. Over that I wore a scoop necked tank that showed my cleavage to an advantage with a Jean skirt that went to the tops of my knees. I even decided to wear heels in the same color of my under things. I somehow managed to outgrow my clumsiness. I still wasn't graceful but I could walk and not trip on air now. I did my make next making my eyes look smoky with a brown/bronze colored shadow. It made my brown eyes jump and look sexy. I smiled at my reflection. I looked good and I knew it. To top off the look I added some clear lip gloss. It made my lips look pouty. Just the look I was going for. I grabbed my leather jacket and headed for the stairs to wait for Angela to pick me up.