I still don't own iCarly, and my chinchilla is still awesome
If girls being in love and kissing offends you AVERT YOUR PURE EYES!
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iWant You to Understand
I felt the pit of my stomach suddenly groan in pain, and my heart beat a million times faster than it's supposed to.
"OH MY GOD" Freddie screamed. He looked disgusted, and, although my strongest feeling was fear, the fact that this somehow disgusted him made me angry. I looked over at Sam, and saw the terror written all over her face. She looked like she was afraid of Freddie. I laughed in my head at the absurdity of the thought.
I looked over at Freddie again, he didn't look disgusted anymore, just shocked, kind of like a lost puppy. I felt my empathy for him rebuilding and interfering with my better judgment, as it had so many times before. "Freddie…" I started, but what could I say? It's not what it looks like? It is what it looks like, that's the point.
He stormed out of the room. I felt conflicted. I looked over at Sam, who was now covered by the cashmere blanket from our couch. She looked annoyed, but understood. "Go" she said "Deal with Fredork's problem, I'll just watch TV and eat some leftover ribs". I giggled "How can you be thinking about ribs!" "How couldn't I?" she responded "With all they're meaty goodness".
I was already relaxed thanks to Sam's never ending hunger as I walked into Freddie's apartment and onto his balcony. "Hey" I said as I stepped out of his window. "Hey" he responded "I didn't think you'd come to talk about it" he said coldly. "Why not?" I answered, confused and feeling like I was being insulted. "Aren't you going to see how Sam's feeling" he answered sarcastically. Trying to ignore his jabs, I continued "No, there are ribs at my place, ribs. I think she's in heaven". "You know, this is the same place me and Sam kissed" he said. "And me and you kissed just a couple of feet away on my bed" he continued matter of factly. I wasn't angry, I knew Freddie well enough to know he was really hurting, and lashing out.
So I continued the open, sensitive conversation. "She told me she didn't like it very much" I said "When I asked her afterwards". He looked up "But we weren't going to talk about it again!" he asserted. "We are now" I replied. "But don't take it personally" I added "I don't think she likes boys" I felt strangely calm releasing the unspoken burden I'd felt about Sam for years now. "What about you" he turned to look at me. "I like boys" I said "and I like girls too, but I like Sam more". "Me too" Freddie added solemnly.
I was on the couch watching some show about a guy and magic hamster, eating ribs covered in Carly's favorite yellow blanket. She was probably talking with Freddie about how she made such a huge mistake, and must've gone completely insane. I sank into the couch and my chest was hurting, thinking about how she doesn't want me.
While I was starting to feel more uncomfortable than I've ever felt before, Spencer walked in. "Hey Sam, any reason you're naked on my couch" He asked calmly. This pain was making me feel moody. "I'm thinking about joining a nudist colony" I replied with attitude. "Oh, maybe you could do that… somewhere else" he answered still calm. My feelings exploded "HOW DO PEOPLE FEEL THIS WAY? WHY WOULD THEY WANT TO? WHY WOULD ANYONE BE WITH ANYBODY IF IT"S GOING TO END IN THIS GOD AWFUL PAIN?" I pulled my hair as I hyperventilated. "Did you have a ten minute relationship and break up while I was gone or something" he chuckled.
I thought out loud again, not paying attention to Spencer "Why would she do that to me, lead me on like that? It's obvious she doesn't like me but why'd she do that? Now I'm gonna remember it everytime I see her, and I won't be able to pretend anymore". "You'd need to talk to Carly to know for sure" Spencer spoke reassuringly. I forgot he was there. I felt really embarrassed knowing that he knew about Carly, or me liking girls in general now that I thought about it. I got dressed as he smirked and went to his bedroom.
Carly walked in. She was smiling, and I smiled back. Like I said, that girl could always make me smile. I was about to tell her all of the things I just thought of when she kissed me. It was deep and tender, and our tongues were intertwined as she put her hands on my hips. Slowly she ran a hand under my shirt and over my boobs. She didn't say it, but she didn't need to. Everything was okay. I returned the favor and ran my hand under her shirt over her smooth skin and knew somehow, this feeling was worth anything I might feel later.
"Guys" Spencer shouted from his room. "Can you do that… somewhere else, you're really loud!"
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Alright, I really appreciated the feedback so THANX! ^^
I know this one didn't have as much smexy but, PLOT HAPPENS srry. T_T