AN: written in letter format to himself, naruto talks about his life day to day. the letter's are dated and signed by him. each chapter will contain several letters naruto writes to himself, so it'll be his POV. you can consider them as diary entries, but in the end, you'll see why they're letters. i guess you can say this is Narutocentric it's a one-sided perspective type of story so yeah. i hope you guys like it, i came up with it in the shower three hours ago. please don't be offended by naruto's comments, i'm writing through how I imagine his reaction to said replies/retorts. ooc my fault, sorry. okay, i change my mind. these are like half diary entries half letters. he writes them on separate pieces of paper and like puts them in an individual envelope. but you guys can think what :]
Summary: "I don't like living alone with no one to love..." "But that's okay. A lot of people love you, they just don't show it." "Like who?" "Like me."
Pairings: naruhina, duh, implied shikatema, sakusasu, nejiten, tsujira & inochou
Rating: T for language, and sexual reference, and whatever teenager-ish pops up ;)
Genres: romance, hurt/comfort, dry-black-morose humor, angst, drama, friendship, family?

Naruto belongs to Masashi Kishimoto, I am just borrowing the characters mentioned above. I also don't own any name brands mentioned.

September 8th

Dear Me,

School started today. I guess it was an okay day. I don't really like the class and the roster, though. Homeroom's teacher is just... weird. Everything he says just sounds like he's talking about some chick's boobs. It's really strange. Second hour's teacher is just plain... great. Hint the sarcasm. She dyed her hair purple, she has a vampire bite tattoo on the base of her neck, she wears fishnets. Third hour's teacher is fucking scary. He has white hair and wears a fucking mask. He had this book with him, it's like a dude chasing a chick on the cover, really weird. I guess this is what junior year's like. I've got a shit load of things to sign.

Naruto

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September 10th

Dear Me,

Mom hit my arm yesterday so hard that I couldn't write. She hit me 'cause I asked her to sign my syllabi 'cause Dad was drunk. She then struck my face, telling me not to talk back. I think Mom was drunk too. Oh how I wish I knew my real parents. I should write down how I'm actually adopted. The mayor of the city told me, personally, that my mother and father were dead and any family that wanted to take me in, can. So my 'Mom and Dad' took me in and started beating me shit-less. They called me a 'monster' and a 'demon', but I didn't know what the fuck they were talking about!

I guess I should be fortunate she knows how to cool and is smart enough to feed me. Or else I wouldn't be here today. Heh, funny talkin' bout today, I saw Sakura today for the first time. Damn, she got hot! But everyone knows that she and Sasuke's going out. They're like a perfect couple. I envy that bastard. He gets every girl 'cause they throw themselves at him! No one really likes me! I can make a list of friends off the top of my head...

-Sakura (daaamn!)
-Sasuke (even if we hate each other)
-Neji (again, even if we hate each other)
-Tenten (she plays great in sports!)
-Lee (crazy and energetic, just how I like 'em)
-Shikamaru (funnily lazy, it's hysterical)
-Ino (she and Sakura get into cat fights a lot, it's crazy hot)
-Chouji (my eating buddy)

Am I missing anyone? Nope. Fourth hour is kinda weird. Our teacher is a dude... that looks like a lady! Hahaha, but seriously, he's freaky pale, has crazy long hair, and has like snake eyes. Someone has a snake fetish! Fifth hour, sixth hour... SEVENTH HOUR! The teacher has a pony tail! And a crazy scar over his nose! It's weird! But he's crazy nice, and he offered to buy me lunch sometime! Fucking Hell, here comes Mom.

Naruto

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September 15th

Dear Me,

Fuck. I have cuts all over my arms. Dad threw a beer bottle at me. I sometimes hate my 'family' but really, if you had a house, money to go to school, a nice and cozy bed, and food at the table, you wouldn't want to leave, right? That's when I feel suicidal. Okay, I know what you're thinking, this is the third some letter, how can you be saying that? Well, idiot, listen closely, and read with wide-eyes: I have no real relatives. I have no life. I have no parents. I have no real friends. I've got nothing to live for. So you're probably thinking, 'Get your act together, man. Stop being a bitchy wuss and suck it up.' Well, first of all, shut the fuck up. Do you know how much it hurts to have bottles thrown at you just because you asked the wrong question? Do have cold food and is forced to eat it cold just because you got one answer wrong? Yeah, that's what I thought. Sitting there, tears in your eyes. Well you know what? I don't need this.

Naruto

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September 17th

Dear Me,

I've just noticed, that all the dates I write on, are the 'th's'. Cool, huh? First ten days of school down, and everyone thinks I super rich. I mean come one, really? What guy wears a pair of beat up Vans, jeans that are way too big for me and a shirt from some weird store I forgot the name of. Yeah, I have an iPod and a nice phone, but that doesn't mean I'm rich, right? Y'know who's rich? Neji. He's crazy rich, he has like six cars that are his and has a huge house. I've been to his house once, and I swear, I got lost. I, on the other hand, do not have a big house nor six cars. I have a bike and a shitty apartment. With two drunks and smokers. Fuck my life.

Naruto

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September 20th

Dear Me,

Why am I writing every two days? I really do not know. I'm writing this during sixth hour with the boring teacher no one cares about. You know what I have for sixth hour? Nothing. It's my free hour. I usually talk with Tenten and Lee, or do my homework, or write my letters, or see if my cuts are healed up. Or sometimes I sleep. But sixth hour isn't really an hour, it's like forty-five minutes, but they still call it an hour.

We got some new students today; Temari, Gaara, and Kankuro. You're probably thinking why this is supposed to be important, but I have a crazy feeling it will be important, just not now. Jeez, what a weird conversation we're having. It's going like this:

"Lee? Did you just say you like fucking socks?"

"No! I did not, Tenten!"

"What are you guys talking about?"

"Fucking socks."

"I do not fuck socks! But if I did, however, I would do it in a YOUTHFUL MANNER!"

"You do everything in a 'youthful manner'."

"Like fucking socks."

Weird, huh?

Naruto

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September 21st

Dear Me,

Finally, a 'st'! Today, my mom hit me in the face. It sounds like I'm complaining, but tomorrow, when I go to school with a black eye and swollen lip, I'm not gonna say anything. If I do, Mom's gonna hit me harder next time. I hate my life. I hate it so much. I wish I could just find it, materialize it and beat it to a bloody pulp. I'm going to Neji's house later for a project with Tenten and Lee. Did you know that Neji and Tenten are going out? It's really weird. I bet they're gonna get married someday. HAHAHA! I wish I had someone to love. My 'parents' don't love me. I have no relatives that could love me. So why bother trying? I gotta get started on my homework or Mom's gonna whoop my ass again. I hurt my ankle today to, but no one cares about that.

Naruto

AN: so what did you guys think? sad, funny, stupid? anything, i'll take it. concrit is great too, but if you're a bitch about it (which i would not attempt, since i'm on a lady thing) I will be super pissed. try me. review! and thank you reviewers/alerters/favoriters! you guys are great :3