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Esme POV

Being a vampire was the best thing that had happened in my live. I founded the love of my live. Even if I couldn't have a child for my own I was the happiest woman. My dear husband Carlisle s all I could ask for. He is so caring and loving. He is the most excellent doctor I've ever known. I'm very lucky to have such a wonderful family as my own. I've got 5 beautiful children. I didn't gave birth to them but I see them as my own flesh.

The most painfully think that had happened in my live was losing my child. That's why I try to kill myself and jumped from a cliff (I don't know from where she originally jumped so I'm sorry if this isn't the truth). But if didn't done that Carlisle wouldn't save me by giving me immortality and a new happy live with him on my side.

I really wish that I could give him a child. Something created by him and me. But being a vampire there isn't any chance for this happened ever. We talked about adopting a baby from orphan but it's too dangerous for us and the child. When somehow the Volturi would know about this they could have kill the child or us. Our world has to stay secret to the humans. They can never known.

Carlisle know that having a child for my own is my the greatest dream and I know that this bother him. He would do everything in his power to make me happy but even he can't make my pregnant.

I'm really trying to not think about it so I would not worry my family. I'm making myself occupied with gardening and arrange our house. I'm trying to be a mother to my adopted children but it isn't so easy when they are grown up vampires. The most time I feel like a mother is when Emmett break something or make some kind of prank on his other sibling. He is so silly sometimes but you couldn't guess it when you look at him. He is very big and bulky men but when you look closely into his eyes you can see that he is gentle, loving and soft teddy bear. He always prove Jasper or Edward to wrestle or x-books game.

Edward is the only one I'm afraid about. Since 1918 he hasn't found a mate. He is so lonely and closed to himself. He is always in his room or playing piano or going hunting. I know that thanks for his gift which is reading minds it's really hard to find someone. He acts like it don't bother him at all but I know my son very well. He is my first son even he is older than me but he let me be a mother for him. He is the closes to me and Carlisle than the rest of our children.

I really hope that he will found someone for him. I want to see my son happy with us and living a live not just existing. I know that there is a beautiful woman for him and I'm sure he will find her when the time is right.

evening

Today we are having a family night. We usually watch a film or play some games. Everyone were sitting comfortable in our living room as we were watching "Honey" with Jessica Alba. Alice really love this film and this was her time to chose so boys had to sit and be quiet. During the séance Emmett was so draw into the film and we could hear him singing the songs that were playing. This made us all busting in laugh and thanks to Jasper talent-empathy the girls were rolling on the floor when me and my husband were trying to hide our chuckles behind our hands. Even Edward was a little loosen up and I could see the amusement in his eyes.

Oh how I wish that he could laugh freely with his siblings.

When our laugh stopped we all returned to watching the film. Carlisle and me were sitting on the couch cuddle together when I heard a gentle thumping. It was like a heartbeat but much more quicker. Carlisle looked at me with confusion in his eyes. Alice stopped the film so we all could hear it better. Then my husband lower his head to my stomach and listen there for a few seconds. When he returned to his previous position all I could see was shock on his face. Our children looked at us for some kind of explanation for this but we were both speechless.

I lay my hand on my flat stomach and if to confirm my theory I felt something inside me. I gasped when I felt it kicking inside of me. I couldn't believe it. I was pregnant finally. I didn't bother to think how this happened, my only thought was that there is a baby in my stomach. My and Carlisle baby, we are parents now. I couldn't be more ecstatic. If I could cry there would be tears rolling on my cheeks. Then the baby kicked again.

" I can feel it. It kick inside me" I whisper very softly to my husband 'cause I was afraid that the loudest sound could take this baby from me. I noticed that everyone took an unnecessary breath. I took Carlisle hand and put it on my stomach and as the baby new it he or she kicked his hand saying hallo to his dad. His eyes went wide feeling it for himself. All I could see in his eyes was love and adoration for me and the baby.

Our moment was broken with Alice high squeals through the air. She started to bounced on her feet before me and saying:

"Please Esme can I touch please, please, please. I want to feel the baby too. Please" She said this so quickly even for a vampire. I looked at her and I just can't say no to her when she look at me with her doggie eyes.

" Of course Alice you can" and with that she putted her hand and waited and when she felt the kick she squealed and started to dance around us. Everyone chuckled at her behavior but this wasn't anything new to us. She just acted like herself.

The second one was of course Emmett. For him a baby means someone to play with and the reason to buy some new toys he always wanted to buy but he would be picked on by his siblings.

"Now me, me, me. Please mom" oh he always calls me mom when he is in some kind of trouble or want something. At this thought Edward chuckled because he knows that this is the truth. Smiling at my son I said:

"Sure Emmett but don't put too much pressure on the stomach ok?" I know that he don't want to hurt the baby but with his enormous strength I wanted to be sure.

"ok Esme don't worry I will be delicate. I don't want to hurt the munchkin who I will take at the evil side. He will be my partner in crime. Muhahaha….." I just shake my head at my son. He gently putted his hand were I told him and we waited. After 5 minutes of waiting I known that the baby wont kick again. He or she was probably tired and was now sleeping peacefully.

"I'm sorry Emmett but I think you will have to wait for another time to feel the kick. I think the baby is sleeping now" I could see his smile fail from his face and he started to pout.

"That is not fair. Why you, Carlisle and Alice could feel the kick and I can't. Esme can't you wake the baby please?"

"I'm sorry Emmett you have to wait for another time sweetheart. I promise you that when the baby will be up again you will have as much time as you need."

Hearing my words he grin again. He is such a little child sometimes. Oh my dear son, what do we do with you.

When the shock passed I saw Carlisle and Edward talking about my little miracle. Jasper join them because he is the second old in our family so he could help. Alice was planning what to buy for the baby and how to prepare the nursery. Emmett was looking in the internet for all the toys that he and the baby could play with. When I looked at Rosalie I saw her sitting and looking sad and angry. I really understand her and her feelings. She always wanted a child just like me. This sacrifice was the hardest for her to bear. She would gave everything to be a mother.

I decided to talk with her alone.

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