Okay so I am going to write more to this story but if it takes long to update it means that I am doing my other stories or something. So please keep reviewing. Oh and just to let everyone no I am keeping this story going because of : jasperthewalkingchillpills' review!! Thank you so much!
'bella, I don't want you to come with me' he spoke the words slowly, his eyes on my face, watching as I took in what he was actually saying 'you…don't…want me?' I put the words in a different order 'no' "NO, NO, EDWARD!! EDWARD COME BACK EDWAAAARD! NOOOOO" he has to come back "bells! Bells wake up" I opened my eyes and my father was sitting next to me on my bed trying to calm me down. Even in my dream I couldn't totally see him he was blurry but still beautiful. I leaned into my father chest and started crying he held me until I fell asleep and it happened all over again.
'Beep, beep, beep, beep' ugh stupid alarm, stupid school, stupid life. I got up and got ready for another hopefully better 2nd day of school. i really hope that this day is better, I just cant take another yesterday. I finished getting ready upstairs and went down to the kitchen to grab a granola bar. Finished that and headed of to school. when I got there I had to go straight to class and was late 3 minutes. the teacher just ingnored me and continued reading something to the class. I didn't care what she was reading so I let my mind wander. BAD IDEA. I found myself think about how I always used to talk to…him…when the teacher just rambled on. He would always make me laugh or giggle and the teacher would ask what was so funny, I would say….STOP. Stop bella. Those times are other, get over it. Before I knew it first was out, and it was time for math. That went bye fast, and it was time for 3ed, then 4th, 5th, lunch. It all went in a blur. Today at lunch though Angela came and sat with me. I told her she didn't have to and she said she wanted to. That made me feel a little better. Not anywhere close to good but slightly better. The rest of the day was fine until gym. Ugh we had to run and do sit ups. Horrible I hate gym, I don't see the point of having to do it all four freaking years. When school finally let out I got changed quickly and went home. Okay so today was better, better, not good. I don't know if I am going to be able to deal with this for very long though. It would be less painful to just…nevermind. I wont do that. Charlie would be so devastated, and so would renee. But I got to think of something different. And soon.
Sorry its kind of short but I am going to do it just one day an entry so some will be long and some short. Please review. I will sometimes skip like a week or a long time frame, because like I don't think that 3-4 months of depression is that enjoyable haha but I will write a lot more, if you keep reviewing. So; REVIEW!!