Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or any of it's characters.
It has been three weeks since Alice showed me her vision. At the time it had petrified me – would I really let down my family by attacking someone so close to school? The days that followed consisted of me not breathing unless I needed to communicate to someone outside of the family; but I avoided that as much as I could. However, I soon got tired of that. It was uncomfortable and such a hassle. Since then there have been no problems, no close calls, and no temptations. I felt that I was doing well, but every now and again I saw Alice looking in my direction suggesting that I wasn't out of the woods just yet.
Emmett suddenly kicked me under the table... this was his way of saying that I needed to listen to him.
Dude, stop stressing! It happens – just 'cus Alice has seen it doesn't mean it will happen... and even if it does – no worries! You wouldn't be the first one...
He stopped sharply when Edward clipped him around the ear.
"Sorry! Was just saying..." Emmett whispered to Edward softly so no one else could hear.
The bell rang and we all made our way to our next classes. Bella, Edward and I had chemistry together. As we walked into the classroom we made our way to the two empty benches where we always sat away from everyone else. I sat at the bench in front of Bella and Edward and was grateful for the harsh smell of chemicals in the room which drowned out the smell of the humans. As the lesson was about to start, a young girl fumbled into the room. I wouldn't have noticed her entrance if it were not for the fact that the only seat left in the room was next to me. Once again, I blessed the smell of the flammable liquids on the benches.
She sat next to me and laid her bags and books on our table with a loud bang. Most of the other students in the class turned to face her as the blood rushed to the surface of her cheeks. I looked away quickly keeping my mind off it.
She looked at me and smiled. "Sorry." She whispered.
I smiled gently, "First day?" I asked her, trying to be polite. "I haven't seen you in this class before."
"Yeah, I moved here this weekend. My dad's job meant we had to move." She said timidly. She held her hand out, "I'm Sara, by the way."
I looked at her tiny, fragile hand, knowing that I wouldn't be able to touch it. I pulled my hand to my face and pretended to cough into it – hoping that this would put her off from wanting to shake it. "Toby." I replied, simply, without turning my head in her direction and hoping that I wouldn't have to talk to her much for the rest of the year.
She laughed ironically to herself. "Nice to meet you then, I guess." She said as she too looked away.
The lesson proceeded to look at the chemical properties of flammable liquids. The Bunsen burners were on for the majority of the lesson, making the temperature raise slightly.
"Right then, let's see..." The teacher began. "Who can tell me what the auto ignition temperature for ethanol is? Sara, isn't it?"
"Um yes Sir. Um." She seemed to be taken off guard. She kept stuttering as she flicked through her text book. I could hear her heartbeat racing. She moved onto her next text book, but while doing so knocked over the still alight Bunsen burner and flammable liquid with the previous one. The hot flame soon set alight to the soggy text book. I grabbed the nearest fire hydrant and let the foam pour over the small flames sending some smoke around the classroom.
The mixture of screams and laughter stopped and Sara once again blushed at the faces looking in her direction.
"Thank you Toby." The teacher said, whipping his glasses frame clean from the sweat that had protruded off his forehead. "And Sara, why don't you just open a window... before the smoke sets off the fire alarms."
"Yes, Sir. I'm – I'm sorry." She stuttered. I tried to stop myself from laughing as she stumbled towards the window.
It all happened rather quickly after that. Sara had opened the window and before she had chance to turn a huge gust of wind blew through her hair, turning the pages of her text books situated next to me. The wind seemed to plunge itself down my throat and into my lungs bringing boiling venom to my mouth. Her mouthwatering scent was unlike any I had ever smelt before. It scorched my nose and my muscles tensed to pounce on my pray who hadn't even turned to face me yet – and nor would she. She would never know who her attacker was. Would she even have enough time to register the fact that she was dying? I doubted it. I was completely unaware of anyone else in the room. In the school. In the world! That was until I felt a strong arm holding onto my wrist. It was a very strong grip – too strong. I turned to fight off this competition but saw Edwards golden eyes, staring into mine.
"Go, Toby! Now!" He said.
With the monster inside me temporarily tamed I turned back to the girl at the window. Sara. She had only just turned around. Her cheeks were still fresh with the embarrassment of what had happened. This sight made the venom boil once again and I could feel the monster climbing up my spine to escape and attack this helpless girl. DO IT DO IT DO IT the monster shouted. Once again my muscles tensed and my eyes burned black with thirst.
But instead of moving towards the prey, my body was being pulled away from it. Two strong arms pulling me away from my delicious meal. I needed to get into their mind – my best chance of fighting them off.
Come on Toby, LISTEN TO ME! Clear your head. Do not breathe! Hold your breath, hold your breath. Come with me. Relax, it's just me.
I let the gentle voice of Edward take me away. My head started to clear and my vision started to return. And with it the realisation of what I had just done.
"What you nearly did." Edward corrected, still pulling me towards the direction of the parking lot. "Just forget about it, don't even think about it. We'll just get you some fresh air."
But I couldn't forget about it. The scent had etched itself into my mind forever. But that was bearable. The one thing that was haunting me was the look of Sara's eyes as she turned to face me, to face the monster.