A Cold Awakening

Chapter Two

Once again a familiar feeling rose in her throat as she rushed to the toilet. All other symptoms of a hangover had gone so why was she feeling so ill again?

Her home phone rang as she retched down the toilet; after composing herself she slowly walked to the phone while cuddling her stomach.

"Hello" she said faintly, followed by another retching sound,

"Kerry where are ya' if your not here in ten minutes Gina will kill you. Look yesterday I wanted to talk to you, about the other night.." But Before Smithy could finish Kerry cut in.

"Smithy don't, I made a fool of myself ok it's hard enough without you talking about it." She said while rubbing her stomach, something didn't feel right and she was certain it wasn't because of the other night.

"No im sorry I shouldn't have kept on accepting sex from you all of the time" He said in a quieter tone, being careful so that no one heard his secrets.

"You make it sound like I'm some hooker Smithy" Replying in a slightly annoyed tone towards him.

"I didn't mean it like that Kerry, it's just that I'm worried about you and you don't deserve to be treated the way I've treated you." He sighed before carrying on.

"Look I'm gonna have to go because I can see Gina, I'll call you back"

Just as Smithy went to put down the phone he heard a disgruntled Kerry say 'Don't bother'.

"Smithy I need you down Sun Hill Clinic there's been an arson attack" Gina said while peeping her head around the corner.

Grabbing his coat and phone in one hand he quickly close the door behind him and Gina.

In the car Smithy was silent, appearing to be concentrating on his driving but Gina knew exactly what was going on far too well.

"Has Kerry spoken to you? Only she isn't in and she hasn't reported it to June or me so im guessing she chose to ring you." Gina enquired, even though she knew she probably wouldn't get the truth.

"No ma'am you told her to stay away from me remember, and she has" Angered by Gina's previous orders over his relationship with Kerry he continued to look ahead attempting to be detached from the situation.

Gina just shook her head and looked away from him, Kerry had twisted Smithy around her little finger that was for sure and it was time for Gina to loosen that grasp.

"Don't think I'm being harsh Smithy but you've got a bright future in the MET and that's something I can't say Kerry has. Maybe a few years ago she might have but not now."

"And don't you ever wonder why she has changed, don't you ever want to find out? To talk to her about it?" His face was flushing red at the sheer annoyance of Gina and so many questions he wanted to pose to her but it was clear it wouldn't get him anywhere.

"She had the same opportunities as everyone else at the station Smithy and she chose to ignore that and just mess her life up. Perhaps she's happy going nowhere but you're different to her Smithy." Every time she spoke she tried harder to persuade him that Kerry was a waste of space but it seemed as if Smithy was set in his ways.

The car came to a halt as they reached Sun Hill Clinic but Smithy hadn't finished,

"Yeah I am different to her Gina because I want her to achieve something with her life even if she feels it isn't worth anything, is that so wrong to believe; is that so wrong to want? Is it?"

" I do hope we aren't going to be this unpleasant all day, ill accept that outburst but anymore and that's it." Gina pursed her lips and cursed Kerry inside her head; why couldn't he see?

She stared at her calendar; it had been eight weeks why hadn't she realised? Cursing herself she pulled it off the wall in a blind rage and sobbed, screwing it into a heap she threw it onto the floor. She didn't feel the way she had felt before: warm inside, extremely happy and bouncy. Instead those feelings were replaced by a coldness, she felt detached and felt anger towards the life growing inside her; it reminded her of the things she couldn't have. She couldn't be happy, she didn't deserve Smithy or his child and she knew instantly that she had to do what was best for it. She could either ignore it and hope it would go away or get rid of it before it got out of hand.

Short chapter but I have little motivation at the moment for FF xx