The light streams through the thin curtains in my apartment, burning into my eyes as I open them. I search around for my alarm before realising the noise is coming from my door. I slide out of bed and move to the door quickly, opening it.

She's stood there with that god damn smile. Holding flowers. This girl will explode my heart.

"Can I come in?"

Jeez she looks so good. Her hair, that smile, those eyes. I could get lost in those eyes...

"Dani?..."

"Oh - yeah of course, um yeah..."

I step aside letting her step into my cramped place.

"Sorry for waking you up it's just that I really wanted to see you. I've got a day off and so have you so...Oh and there's this bakery place near me that I've always wanted to try so I thought I'd bring breakfast" She smiles holding up a bag in one hand. Her eyes run along my clothes and I suddenly feel self aware. I mean here I am wearing an over sized Garfield t shirt and pyjama shorts and she's actually dressed. Fuck.

We walk into the kitchen and I tug on the bottom of the shirt, trying to make my outfit more decent. She sets the bag and flowers down onto the kitchen counter.

"Lemme just go get change-"

The end of my sentence turns into a soft moan as she kisses me hard, her hands wrap around my waist which lifts the bottom of my shirt slightly. No. Instead of wrapping my arms around her and indulging in her as I want I pull away and tug my shirt down. Her dark eyes look at me, confused and slightly hurt. Shit.

"Babe I just need to go put something proper on."

"But you look really cute just like that."

I look up at her, trying to think how I can explain that I don't feel comfortable with most of my legs showing. That I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. Years of bullying have made me too self conscious to allow myself to feel comfortable.

"Um help yourself to coffee babe I'll only be a second."

"Okay sure" She turns back to the kitchen as I run into my bedroom shutting the door behind me.

I rush getting into clothes and brushing my teeth at the same time, hearing San boiling the kettle in the next room. Then pulling my hair into a respectable style and putting basic makeup on quickly. I walk out of my bedroom, shutting the door behind me. Her back's turned to me stirring a cup.

"Sugar?"

"What?"

"Do you want sugar? milk?"

"Oh, yeah milk and four sugars."

"Four?" She turns around looking vaguely alarmed.

Redness seeps into my cheeks gently. "Yeah I like things sweet"

"I'll have to remember that..."

All of my blood seems to be in my face right now. What this girl does to me...

"San, how did you know I had a day off?"

Now it's her turn to blush, her tan skin tinting red "Oh, well I may have called Gunther to see..."

I giggle, "That's adorable."

She rolls her eyes, "I don't do adorable."

I nearly roll my eyes. Because turning up with flowers and breakfast isn't adorable. Sure.

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It's been an amazing day, we ate and talked until it was late afternoon. We flirted and joked around, learning more about each other. Now it's early evening. She's curled up next to me on the sofa, her fingers intertwining with mine. Her eyebrows occasionally knit together trying to concentrate.

"I have no idea what's going on."

"That's because you wanted to watch the sequel without watching the first few films"

"The cover looked way cooler though." She looks at me. Damn she's beautiful. I laugh, kissing her hand softly.

"Yeah but still...and I can't believe you've never watched Harry Potter before now."

"It's for nerds and British people."

"So I'm a nerd?" I ask, pouting playfully.

"You're my nerd baby" She replies, smiling and winking. "But seriously what the fuck is happening in this film?"

I roll my eyes. In a few seconds she has me lying beneath her on the sofa. "Don't roll your eyes at me, it's mean."

I laugh and she leans down kissing me. The film is forgotten as she kisses away all of my earlier worries. Everything bad burns away with the warmth of her lips against mine. Her tongue runs against my lips quickly, and gently starts exploring my mouth. I forget my insecurities and give into her kisses. She's making me feel whole for the first time in years.

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I walked her home later on and walking back slowly my mind is wandering. It's so difficult. I like her way too much already. I just need to remind myself not to get too attached. I can't let myself get hurt again. I need to back off a bit.