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Olivia sat up from her bed, looking at the photo on her nightstand. Two years and seven months. She hadn't heard from him.
This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
She got ready for her day, wondering what her day held for her. Tomorrow, she was supposed to get married to Brian. The thought that Elliot wouldn't be her husband stung. She always thought that he would leave his wife, proclaim his love, look at her like she was more than his partner.
So many nights, they spend pent up in a car. She wanted him more than anything else those nights. His blue eyes always shined when the street lights hit them. He smiled whenever a good song came on, humming along with the melody. What she wouldn't give to hear him right now. What she wouldn't give to see him.
So I'll be waiting for the real thing,
I'll know it by the feeling
Brian made her happy. At least, that's what she thought. He made her smile. He took care of her... most of the time. The night Lewis showed up at her apartment flashed through her mind. He bailed on her, but... it was work. They both had a job. He was working when they found her too. He didn't show up to the hospital until the following afternoon, when she was about to check out of the hospital.
The moment when we're meeting,
will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
Olivia arrived at work, greeting her coworkers with smiles. They each said something about the wedding tomorrow, either wishing her luck or wondering if Brian was going to get called to work while they were saying their vows. She had to laugh at that one. If that happened, she could honestly say she wasn't surprised.
So I'll be holding my breath,
Right up 'til the end
Until that moment when,
I find the one that I'll spend forever with
"Hey Liv, don't listen to them. Brian wouldn't be that stupid." Nick said, jogging up behind her. He put a hand on her back, comforting her.
Olivia nodded. "Yeah, I know." She said, mostly trying to convince herself. She looked around before noticing something on Nick's desk. She moved closer, inspecting the object. It was a piece of paper, crinkled at the edges. Kathy's name was on the paper, but it was her maiden name. "You know Kathy Malone?"
"Yeah, her daughter takes care of Zara sometimes." Nick smiled lightly. "Do you know her?"
"Uh," Olivia started before shaking her head once. "Yeah, she never really liked me." She smirked.
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
After getting a call, Nick and Olivia headed for Bellevue. They interviewed the victim, consoling her when she started crying. After getting the rape kit, the brought the victim down to the precinct to get her statement.
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
When work ended, everybody smiled and said that they would see her tomorrow for the wedding. Instead of heading home right away, she wanted to stop somewhere. She told the cabby driver to pull over when she saw Elliot's old building from when he and Kathy were split. She handed him his money before stepping out, walking over to the steps where they sat and had a coffee.
Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right,
it's just like deja vu
Me standing here with you
She sat down on the steps, resting her purse in her lap. She looked to the empty spot to her left, where Elliot sat next to her. She remembered their conversation. They had gone to their favorite diner and had a great dinner, even if it was midnight.
So I'll be holding my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when,
I find the one that I'll spend forever with
He told her he'd always protect her that night. She gave him the space to disagree while staying his partner. The way he spoke that night, it changed things between them. It brought them closer. His knee brushed against hers on this step. That closeness only got stronger with time. She felt the tears building up realizing she was giving him up tomorrow when she said 'I do.'
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Olivia entered her apartment later that night. She felt drained. What a way to feel the night before a wedding? Not just a wedding. Her wedding. Yet, she felt like a door was locking her soul into a concrete room with no escape. Shedding the clothes from her body, she entered her bathroom and started a shower. The water cleansed her from the scumbags of her day.
After she dried off, she looked in the mirror. This was her last night as a single woman. Her last night as Olivia Benson. Tomorrow, she would be Olivia Cassidy. The name made her cringe. It made her sound like one of those bitchy housewives that does nothing but gossip about the latest scandal. Her eyes looked herself over, catching the scar on her neck. It was lighter than her darker toned skin. She ran her fingers over it, closing her eyes when Elliot's face entered her mind from that day.
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
The next day, Alex and Casey took her out for a quick and light breakfast before going to get their hair done. Olivia had a simple dress, so she wanted a simple hairdo. Her dress was white, of course. It was strapless and hugged her curves down to her waist before flowing out, a small train spreading on the floor.
You can't give up
When you're looking for
A diamond in the rough
She took a deep breath as Cragen took her hand and squeezed gently. He asked her a simple question, but she felt herself losing grip on her nerves. "Are you okay, Liv? Are you ready?"
Olivia looked at him and she knew he saw it. She wanted to get married because she wanted someone to come home to, someone to share and have a family with. Even if it wasn't the right guy, she wanted the other things more than she was willing to admit. "I'm sure I want this." That's all she said before she turned to the opening doors. Everyone was standing, smiling at her.
Cause you never know
When it shows up
Cragen gave her to Brian at the alter. He smiled at her, one of those smiles she came to know as 'I can't wait to get you out of that.' She felt like a piece of meat at that moment, and she remembered when she told herself she would never be with someone that made her feel that way. Most of the police academy was here, and if she left him at the alter, she'd be known as the runaway bride for the rest of her career. Most of the people there were from her precinct. They all looked happy.
The priest went on about matrimony and her and Brian's 'love' for each other. When he said those magic words 'Speak now or forever hold your peace.', her heart stopped. "I object!" She heard that one voice say.
Make sure you're holding on
Cause it could be the one
the one you're waiting on
"Elliot." Olivia breathed.
"I will only object if she wants me too." Elliot said, taking a few steps down the isle before stopping. He had tears in his eyes, and she knew she mirrored it. He mouthed the words 'I'm sorry', and she felt her heart beat wildly. The butterflies in her stomach started fluttering. The feeling of dread left her body as she felt complete happiness fill her.
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
Olivia turned to the priest and then looked at Brian. He looked furious, but he wasn't even paying attention to what she was about to say. That only made her choice easier. She looked back up at the priest. "I want him to object."
Gasps filled the church as more people started smiling even wider. Brian dropped her hands from his and watched as she walked to Elliot. Olivia was never one to show her emotions, but, in this moment, she did just that. Elliot met her and wrapped his arms around her as she did the same. The feeling of being complete suddenly hit her like a wall of bricks. She had almost forgotten how much she loved this feeling.
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh!
They both pulled back to looked at one another. Olivia put her hands on his shoulders and he cupped her face. He was wearing a black tux, as if he was dressed for their own wedding. She could feel all the eyes on them. Most of them were probably hatred, but she didn't care. She had wanted Elliot. And, she finally had him. He dropped his forehead to hers, closing his eyes. "I love you so much, Liv. And, I'm so, so sorry for leaving you. I was stupid and I hope you can forgive me. I just didn't want you to hate me. And, I guess I was just so focused on that that I didn't even realize how badly I would hurt you if I left. I wish I had never left. I should've been here, with you. I should've been telling you I love you from day one. I should've done so many things. But, all I can do right now is hope that you feel the same and hope that you forgive me. It doesn't have to be now, but I hope you forgive me in time." He caressed her cheek with his thumb. "I couldn't take it if I had to leave you again." He breathed. That whole speech he said loud enough for only her to hear, and she loved it.
Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
"I don't want you to leave again. What kind of woman would I be if I let the man of my dreams, the man I love, walk out of here again?" Olivia asked with a soft smile. She watched as his eyes opened to reveal his sparkling blue orbs. "I love you, Elliot. I love you so much." She clasped her hands behind his neck, pulling him closer to her. "Kiss me."
Elliot did just that. He felt like he had just been awaken from this deep sleep he didn't even know he had been in. The way they melded together just assured him of their relationship. Neither realized that people were clapping, all of them friends and cops that weren't close or fond of Brian.
Nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Olivia pulled back, breathing heavily, as the clapping registered in her mind. She couldn't believe how many people were smiling at them. "El, they were waiting for this."
"They've probably known longer than we have." Elliot smiled lightly, pressing his lips to her temple.
"Well," Olivia started with a small chuckle. She noticed that Brian was gone, along with his buddies who were the at the alter. His family was gone also. The people that were happy for them were still there though, smiling at them. Most of the church was still full. "We should probably use this for something useful." She smirked at Elliot, intertwining her right hand with his left one.
"Are you really asking me to marry you right now?" Elliot asked with a grin. Olivia nodded. He pulled her to him and kissed her hard. "The answer is hell yes, Liv."
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
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