Chapter 2
Cece's P.O.V.
I heard someone knocking at the door so I walked up to it looking thru the peep hole it was Ty, how in the heck did he know where I lived. *Opens door* Well what can I do for you? I ask. Can I come in? He asks. Okay, if you tell me how you know where I live? I said. Okay, come here. He took me to my living room window and showed me the place across mine and said it was his. I saw you threw the window yesterday when Rocky pointed it out I swear I'm not stalking you he said. Alright fine I believe you but shouldn't you be doing something we were just texting I say. Yeah but at this time no one's home and I have no one to hang with he says. I'm pretty sure you have plenty of friends to hang out with Ty I said. They are all doing something he says. Mhm sure, I guess you can watch the movie with me I reply. Thanks Ce he says. Yeah sure I say sitting on the couch as he follows to sit.
After Movie
After the movie ended I look over to Ty and say alright we hanged out you should go home now. I see how it is you don't want to hang with me He replies. No it's just I'm not in Chicago to make friends I say nicely. Oh so we can't be friends, can we be acquaintances? He asks. Ty look I just don't want to get close to other people I'm not good at being fun you'd get bored hanging with me I say. Well I didn't get bored just watching a movie with you he replies. That's because we weren't talking smartass I say. Yeah okay well tell me can you dance? He asks. Huh can I dance I say laughing. Is that a yes? He asks. Of course it is I say. Well than let's dance he says. Uh one problem where? My living room doesn't have enough room I say. Let's go down stairs on the street he says. Uhm alright I say hesitantly. We get down stairs and bring a radio and just start free styling it was kinda fun but not fun enough to change my mind. We both got tired and rested on the stairs about to pass out. So did you enjoy hanging with me? Ty asks. Catching my breathe I say it's a possibility to take in. Ha-ha Ce you have a weird way of describing stuff you know that right? He asks. No I didn't I say wondering what he meant by that. Ty someone says in the distance. Oh hi Tinka he says when he realizes who it was. What are you doing? She asks. Ce and I were just dancing he replies. Oh well let's go up to your place then she says. Yah I'll be up in one second he replies. Uh fine she says storming inside. Hey Ce if you want there is this Dance show that I host for if you want a spot on it tell me he says handing me a card that says Shake It up and a # on it. Alright I'll think about it maybe I reply.
Home
When I got home I sat there pondering about what Ty had said wanting me to go on a dance show, was I really that good? I thought to myself. Today was interesting but also intriguing. Sitting there on my bed I just kept wondering if I might have potential in this world if maybe I do mean something to others.
Next Morning
I woke up feeling terrible as usual I stayed at home looking at my wrists and wanting to cut but not wanting to also the situation was complicated. I decided I should take a shower, as I was in the shower rinsing myself I was looking at all the scars on my body and just standing in the same place for a long time not wanting to move. Occasionally I had bad days and they were for no reason it was just what I was like my behavior. Searching for what I wanted to be was hard and my family knew that. Finally after looking at the knife for 3 hours I shredded a little bit of skin only some tiny amount of blood releasing from inside me. The cut made all that was bad go away it was like when you have air in your lungs stuck to you poke a tiny hole to release the pressure of what was holding you back from breathing. And after cutting I could breathe freely. The rest of the day went by slowly and painfully when you cut yourself at first there is relaxation but the after mark of it hurts the slightest touch is agonizing pain. I heard my phone go off so I decided to check it out.
Hey why aren't you at school? - Rocky
Today isn't a good day- Cece
Oh alright. - Rocky
Bye- Cece
I've never told someone other than family that I had a hard time excepting life and I didn't plan on it, it was hard to think of telling someone living isn't what you wanted to do it wasn't how you saw yourself being. For some reason there was this light in my heart something telling me that it was all going to be fine.
At School Tomorrow
When I got to school I headed over to Mr. Butler and gave him my absent note. Thank you Ms. Jones takes a seat now he said. Alright I said heading for the seat I was in on Monday, when I sat down I heard someone ask me hey red why weren't you here yesterday? I turn to see Ty. Oh just not feeling good I reply nonchalantly. Oh A'ight trying to ignore me again he says sarcastically. Definitely you know how it is I say turning my head to the front of the classroom. So did you think about what I asked you? He asked, yeah and I think I will I reply. Okay well come to this address after school he says handing me a piece of paper. Oh okay now focus on your work I say grinning at him and then back at my paper.
More to come tomorrow, I might have it later tomorrow because I'm not sure what drama I want to start adding to this story to be honest. -Believe