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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;"I'm at my house, in my bed and he can't come back to hurt me anymore. I look over to see that it is around 4 am. I get up and put on shorts and a shirt with no selves and walk outside where a park is. /p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;"I jog across the street and start to run. I run for about an hour but stop when people start to walk around for their morning running routines./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;"Which for me consists of a black pair of jeans and a black muscle t shirt that shows off my six pack. I also wear a black leather jacket so anything black. That's what I wear to work./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;"The office contains around 6 - 7 floors that each have a different uses. As agents all of the rooms are designed to help us in what we do or try to do everyday in someway. I ride the elevator up to the 3rd floor. Where I am greeted by office desks and the giant smile of Zeke./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;"We both end up in tears of laughter when he totally agrees. This leads to an argument on who has better abs. I smirk to myself when Zeke gets the girls from costume up to see who has the best./p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;"They both agree that it was me but I just laugh at the look of hurt on Zeke's face when I was called the best. Zeke walks back to his desk and pouts until I say he has won and then I go up to the 5 floor to do so combat and fire arms training./p
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