Chapter 2 Kurt

It had been 6 weeks, 6 very hard, long weeks. Kurt was laying in bed, wondering when it was going to get better. 6 weeks ago Drew and Kurt threw their little boy Max a 3rd birthday party at a child themed restaurant in their neighborhood. Kurt had taken Max to his day care The Primrose School and then went to work. He was the top fashion designer for Marc Jacobs New York. He had started fresh out of high school at , and after graduating from Parsons his work was noticed by Marc Jacobs and he got a job right away. He had moved up in the company quickly and loved his job. He loved that Max's day care was close that way if anything went wrong he was able to get to Max quick.

Kurt worked straight through the day, he had brought clothes to change into so he wasn't planning on heading home until after the party. He went by the day care picked up Max and then headed to the party. It was wonderful. So many people showed up, his dad and Carole, Rachel and Finn and their little boy Alex. Kurt's best friend Elliott and his boyfriend of the month Adam. Elliott didn't ever seem to settle down, also some of the kids from Max's class were there.

Drew stood by his side, loving on Max spending time playing with him, giving him all of his attention. Kurt was so busy making sure that Max was happy, he didn't realize how standoffish Drew acted to him. He was there but they didn't talk, they didn't touch once which was weird, because when Drew and Kurt were together, they were usually touching in some way, holding hands, having their arms around each other's waists. Talking, smiling, laughing and to be honest loving.

They loved just spending time together. When Max had came along it didn't pull them apart, it seemed to bring them closer if that was possible. They had met in high school and they fell hard for each other. They had been together now for 5 years almost 6. Drew was Kurt's world. When Kurt had decided he wanted to have a baby, since they both had a good jobs, financially they could afford it, and they decided to try. They found a surrogate, and because Drew always said he wanted his baby to look like Kurt, Kurt was the biological father. Drew told him it didn't matter to him, just because he wasn't the biological father, didn't mean he would love their baby any less.

Kurt was a little shocked though when Max was born that Drew didn't want to be listed on the birth certificate and Max wasn't given his name. Once again Drew just said he doesn't have to have my name to be mine. It won't make me love him less.

Thinking back Kurt really wishes he had paid attention to his concerns. Something just didn't feel right, but he was so in love with Drew and then when Max was born Kurt felt his life was complete. He was happier than he had been in his whole life. He didn't care that Drew was his first and only boyfriend, he liked it that way. He liked that Drew was his first for everything and as far as Kurt was concerned he would also be his last. Kurt was settled, Kurt was happy, Kurt was content, Kurt was also stupid and blind but he didn't find that out until after Max's party.

Drew had carried Max over to Kurt when everyone had left, he helped Kurt get all the presents Max had gotten into Kurt's car, he kissed Max on the cheek "Love you little buddy" gave Kurt a one armed hug "I need to run to the office, you guys run on home" Once again not picking up on Drew's strange mood, he drives to their apartment. Kurt gets Max out of his car seat walks into the lobby, and goes to the elevator. When Drew and Kurt's professions took off, Drew a record exec for a well know record label, and Kurt with Marc Jacobs they had moved here. It was a little pricey, but it was worth it to be close for both of them for work and for Max's day care. It was also within walking distance of Central Park. They took Max there every Saturday.

When they had moved here, once again Kurt thought it was funny that they put the mortgage in only his name. Drew shrugged it off, "Well because we aren't married the mortgage company might have a problem putting it in both our names, but this way no matter what you and Maxi have a place" he said kissing Kurt until Kurt no longer cared whose name was on what, as long as Drew kept his lips on his.

When Max and Kurt walked in the apartment it took him a few minutes to pick up the subtle changes in the room. He noticed there was some DVD's missing from the shelf. The pictures of Drew's family were no longer sitting by Kurt's families pictures. Forgetting about this for a few minutes, he takes Max to the bathroom, gives him his bath, puts him in his pajamas and reads him a bed time story until he falls asleep. It is only when Kurt walks into their bedroom that the change is really noticeable. The closet door is wide open and all of Drew's clothes were gone. Kurt goes to the dresser and all of Drew's drawers were empty. The shoes that he always kept lined up against the wall on his side of the room were gone. In the bathroom all his stuff was gone, his night stand drawers were empty. What remained was the picture of Kurt, Drew and Max taken last month in central park.

Then Kurt saw the white envelope on his pillow, with the record label logo on the left corner and his name in the middle.

Kurt,

I know this is a complete dick move, at least I did wait until after Max's party. I can't be here anymore, I can't be with you, I can't be with Max. I really did try to love him, I spent all the time I could with him hoping. But nothing. That is why I didn't want my name on the birth certificate.

When I saw him, I felt nothing, I assumed I would feel something for him, but nothing. The sad thing is that I have been pulling away for months and you didn't notice the difference. You have been so caught up in work and in Max (I don't judge you for that), but you haven't paid attention to us. I am not pointing fingers, or putting the blame on you, because I have been sort of doing the same.

Work is taking my life over, and with work I have found someone else. Someone with no kids, so we won't be held back. If we want to go out we don't have to worry about a sitter. If we want that second glass of wine we don't have to worry about staying sober in case we need to drive a kid to the emergency room. We used to talk about traveling. I still want to do that but I don't want to wait 15 to 16 years until Max is grown to be able to.

I guess I really should have opened my mouth when you said you wanted a kid and let you know I really didn't want to, I just wanted to keep it us. I just really thought it would be ok. Before coming home today and packing my stuff, I went to the bank, removed my name off our account, don't worry I only took the money that was deposited out of my last check. I didn't empty it, and everything else in there is yours. I went ahead and paid my half of the mortgage payment through the rest of the year to give you time to see if you want to stay here or move. I am really sorry that I did this today that I am ruining the memories of Max's 3rd birthday for you, but I just can't stay any longer. Even though after all of this, you won't believe me I do still love you. I really do.

I just can't be in this relationship anymore. I can't be a daddy to Max. He is wonderful, loving and such a caring little boy. He deserves a Daddy that can feel the same love that his papa does.

Good-bye,

Drew

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That had been 6 weeks ago, and Kurt was still reeling from it. How do you begin to move on from something like that. He still went through the motions, he still took Max to school every morning, took himself to work. Tried to not lose patients when Max asked for the hundredth time where his Daddy was. How do you tell a kid that daddy didn't want to be a daddy anymore.

He still took Max to central park every Saturday spending time with him in the stroller or running around chasing the ducks. Having movie dates on Sunday while eating popcorn. Kurt tried to make it as normal for Max as possible.

Kurt misses the closeness more than anything, having someone to come home to, talk to, tell all the craziness too.

He missed someone to cuddle up with at night, wake up with in the morning, and everything they did in between.

Looking at the clock, it is still only 10:30 he picks up his phone and texts Elliott

From Unknown: hey Elliott, sorry to bother you, can you possibly come over, I really feel like I am going to die.

From Unknown: Hi, I think you texted the wrong person, but you have me worried now are you ok, do you need to talk, I know I am not this Elliott you were intending to text, but I am here if you need someone.

From Unknown: I am so sorry, I was trying to text my friend, I did his number from memory instead of my call log like I usually do, I messed up on a few numbers. So sorry I bothered you.

From Unknown: No need to be sorry, I have done that on more than one occasion. I accidentally butt dialed one of my exes. I had forgotten to remove his name from my phone log. Now that was an interesting conversation.

From Unknown: Well if we are going to talk Unknown can I know your name

From Unknown: LOL my name is Blaine, sorry, and may I have your name unknown number 2.

From Unknown: lol Nice to meet you Blaine, well sort of meet you my name is Kurt.

Kurt at this point added Blaine to his contact list. Why he didn't know, but it was nice to have someone he didn't know to talk to. One of the first things Kurt noticed about Blaine was that he seemed really caring, and the second thing he noticed that when he mentioned an ex he said he not her.

From Blaine: So Kurt, why do you feel like you are going to die. Anything you want to share with a complete stranger.

From Kurt: I just went through a break up with my boyfriend, we had been together for 5 almost 6 years. I came home one day and all his stuff was gone, he apologized, pretty much let me know he hadn't been happy in a while, and left. We never even fought that is one of the crazy things. We had been together since high school and then one day he decides he isn't happy. That was 6 weeks ago, I hit a low tonight and thought Elliott could come and talk to me. He usually drives me crazy, but he makes me laugh.

From Blaine: Sorry to hear about that. I swear it must be in the water, I came home from work yesterday went in my room and found my boyfriend of 5 years banging his boss in our bed. I was shocked and hurt and called my best friend made her catch the next flight so she could be here with me when I made him pack his stuff and get out of my house.

From Kurt: Ouch, at least I didn't walk in on mine cheating, I just came in and found a note on my pillow that he was happy with someone he worked with. I don't know how long that had been going on. It was weird, I didn't really feel him pulling away you know. Everything felt normal

From Blaine: I know I feel the same. Nothing felt different for me either. What a jerk move though to just leave a note on your pillow, at least he could have faced you when he broke it off. I am so sorry.

From Kurt: Thanks, even after 6 weeks I am still finding it hard to process.

From Blaine: 6 weeks isn't really that long ago, especially when you were together almost 6 years. Something like that takes time. It isn't going to just go away over night.

From Kurt: Oh well, it is getting late here and I have a really early morning. Thanks for listening to me, it was really nice to sorta meet you Blaine

From Blaine: Thanks, have a good night. May I text you tomorrow, I have really enjoyed talking to you.

From Kurt: I would like that, and good night Blaine.

From Blaine: Take care of yourself tonight Unknown2 (LOL) tomorrow always holds the possibility of being a better day, just don't lose hope.

Kurt set his phone down and smiled. It was nice having someone to talk to who knew how you felt, because they were going through it themselves, actually Blaine's situation was worse. He can't imagine if he had walked in on Drew. Being walked out on was one thing but to have the man you were living with, bring someone into your home, into your bed would be 10 times worse.

Kurt rolled over and got comfortable. He hopes that maybe he will hear from Blaine tomorrow, that he didn't just say that. For the first time in 6 weeks, he found himself looking forward to tomorrow.