Soooo second chapterr people!!! Enjoy! x
I stormed through the deserted hallways, fuming. How could he just kiss her like that?!
Because he knows she loves him.
BUT SHE NEVER SAID THAT! What if she wanted someone else?! After all it was MY hand she was gripping.
But she loves him.
"Argh SHUT UP!" I screamed at my mind. I can't take it any more! I slammed my fist into the wall, ignoring the tears that were flowing freely across my face. I repeatedly slammed my fist into the wall. The pain was becoming intensified. But I didn't feel any in my hand. The pain was entirely in my chest.
"Jamie? JAMIE! What the hell are you doing?!" Jared yelled, running up to me and trying to restraining the hand that continued to pummel the sharp rock. He grabbed me around my middle and pulled my away from the wall.
"No. no." I whispered, hanging limply in his arms. I collapsed onto floor, pulling Jared down with me, and curled up against the wall. My hand was numb but I could feel the warm liquid spreading across it. I couldn't control the tears escaping my eyes. Jared stared at me.
"Jamie, what the hell did you think you were doing?! What's wrong?!" He asked.
I shook my head, unable to speak. He fell to his knees and pulled me into a hug. I winced as my hand was strained. I couldn't move.
"Jamie, you know you can tell me anything, don't you?" he asked, gently brushing my hair away from my face.
I shook my head again. Sure, I was close to him. Sure, he was nearly like a brother to me. But, I couldn't tell him. I couldn't tell anyone this. Especially since what I was feeling was wrong.
"Well, you can. Jamie, trust me. What's wrong?" he asked again. I wanted to tell him. More than anything. But I just couldn't. He wouldn't understand. He'd tell Mel. And Mel couldn't know. At all. I moved away from him. Leaning against a wall, I put my head between my legs, resting my arms on them.
"Nothing." I whispered.
I could almost hear his eyebrows shoot up.
"I just want to be left alone Jared" Not daring to glance up, I let my hair fall across my face, "I just have some things I need to deal with."
I heard him sigh, then slowly get to his feet and walk away.
Come back! I almost screamed. Wishing I could tell him everything. Wish that would make it easier. Wish I didn't feel like this. Except I couldn't, and it wouldn't make anything easier and I do feel like this. I put my face in my hands and sobbed. I couldn't have her!
This alone was torture. The perfect girl. The only girl. I've never felt this way before. She's the only one. I couldn't handle this. I tilted my head against the wall and pictured her. The beautiful shimmering eyes which pored so deeply into mine, the soft blond eyebrows which would often crease together in worry for me. Golden sunshine hair which framed her perfect, flawless face. And even underneath that, words, full of wisdom, always had the power to make me happier. She was like earth and sky. Day and night. Angelic, soft and sweet but always determined. And she was all Ian's, I thought bitterly. I shook my head. I couldn't stay here. I needed to be strong. Like Jared. I needed to be tough. Maybe then I could match up to Ian.
In your dreams.
I growled at my inner voice and stood up, wiping my tears away. I started in the direction of the Brandt and Aaron's room so I could change my clothes. These jeans needed a break. I'd been wearing them for almost a week. I only had one other pair of jeans and one other t-shirt. I might ask Wanda if she could get me some more clothes. Then I froze at what I was saying. The thought of actually talking to her had me shivering from head to toe.
"Jamie!" I heard my name being called out. I reluctantly turned round to see Uncle Jeb walking towards me.
I honestly did try (and kinda fail) to put on my happiest face, "Yeah?"
Jeb frowned at me and cocked his head, "You alright, kid?"
I nodded fast.
His eyebrows knitted together more, "O…kay. I was just seeking you out to tell ya that there's a free cave if you want it. I mean it's kinda out of the way but its there for ya if you want it."
His words completely surprised me. Not only was he telling me I could have my own cave, but he was also giving me the choice. "Wow, yeah okay. That's awesome."
"Kay, so dya wanna run and get your stuff and I'll take you there. I'll meet you in the game room with a mattress as well." And saying that, he walked off, leaving me in complete shock. I pulled myself together and ran to Aaron and Brandt's room. They'd probably be told later. I grabbed my other jeans and t-shirt, my jacket, my only book, my new toothbrush and toothpaste (which Wanda got me! Yes, I got goose bumps when I picked it up), my pillow and my photo of mum, dad and Mel. I was just picking that up when I noticed my hand was still dripping blood. I put everything down and ripped a bit of fabric away from the cloth covering the door and quickly tied it round my hand. There, that should hold. I dunno how I was going to explain it. I picked up all my stuff and left the room without a second glance.
I ran all the way to the game room to see Jeb struggling with a mattress twice his size.
"Here, let me help," I murmured. I put all my stuff onto the mattress and then picked up the other end of it.
"Thanks," he said, staring at my hand, "Should I ask?" I shook my head sadly.
"Okay!" He said in his cheeriest voice. He whistled the entire way to my new room, his happiness penetrating the darkness in my mind and stabbing all the way through it. He led the way through a tunnel I'd never been before and at the end of that tunnel there was a bright blue door fitting perfectly. My jaw dropped open.
"Think of it as an early birthday present, kid," he said.
I turned to him, "Omg, thank you Uncle Jeb, thank you so much!"
Jeb laughed, "If you like this, wait till tomorrow, you are gonna love your actual birthday present."
I stared at him blankly, "Birthday?" I thought he was just kidding at first.
"Sure, now Mel's back, dya really reckon she's gonna let us forget you're birthday? Wanda got it back when she was in Mel's body." And just like that the stabbing in my chest returned.
"Cool," I said detachedly. Jeb noticed my change in tone but said nothing.
"Anyway, lets get this in there and then you can get some rest coz I've a feeling you're gonna need it for tomorrow."
Oh you have no idea how right you are, Jeb.
I said nothing. He put my mattress down in the middle, patted me on the back with a worried look and then left. I looked around my new room. It was small but not too small. It had some cracks in the walls to act as shelves. All in all, I loved it. I collapsed on the mattress, shoving everything off the bed. Why was it always my sucky hormones that had to mess up my life?
I rolled over onto my back. And why did Wanda, who was so pure, so gorgeous, have to come back looking like an angel? It just wasn't fair. My eyes drifted closed. It seemed like her face was imprinted on my eyes. She's just so impossibly beautiful. I tossed and turned, trying to get that image out of my head. Trying to fall asleep. It wasn't working. I sighed, and pummelled my pillow into a comfier shape. It must have been really late at night; I could see the stars sparkling in the darkness of the night sky. I tried another technique. I imagined a large meadow. I remember my mum telling me this, if I ever needed to relax. I remember scoffing how I would never need to relax. How it was a sissy thing to do. I laughed at her. Who's laughing now, huh?
So a large meadow, nice and grassy. I could actually feel myself succumbing to sleep. I was sat in the middle of this meadow, could hear a stream bubbling away gently, feel the wash of warmth as the sun watched over me. I was in bliss. I shut my eyes in this dream and leaned back till I was lying down.
Suddenly, I felt a tickling on my neck. I smelt raspberries. My eyes snapped open to see Wanda leaning over me, the sun was shining all around her, her eyes were sparkling more than usual, and she was practically glowing. I could only see love in her eyes, and lust. My heart set on the fastest race possible, trying to climb out of my throat. My body tensed, especially my cock. I could hardly breathe. Could she feel my hardness? How would she react to it?
I reached up to her hair and tangled my fingers in it. It was so soft. Not once did she break her eye contact from mine. I loved the feeling of her slender body against mine. I wrapped my other arm around her waist. She was just so perfect. She slowly lowered her mouth onto mine. I relaxed completely, and rolled over so she was being pressed to the ground. My breathing became uneven, as she opened her mouth ever so slightly. On impulse, I slipped my tongue into her mouth. I heard a little breathy laugh escape from her throat. She grabbed my hands and slid them under and up her shirt. Her skin was so soft, so delicate. My hands felt so massive against her stomach, so cold against her warmth. She moved one hand to my face then as the other began travelling down my stomach. She unbuttoned my jeans and my breath caught. This. Was. Not. Happening. She pulled away from my mouth to wink at me as she slipped her hand below the waistband of my boxers and slowly began to stroke my throbbing hardne….
I shot up awake, my heart beating so fast. I once heard someone say that a mouse heart beat a million times a minute. Whose is beating faster now? My entire body was shaking. I had never felt anything like this before. I tried to raise a hand to brush my hair back from my face, but I couldn't find one. Then I realized it was cupping something. Under my jeans. My eyes widened. I pulled my hands out quickly. I could still feel the electricity shooting through my veins.
Perfect timing to get a new room though. Thanks Jeb.
Soooo Jamie's not so innocent ;) :P
i am currently soo addicted to hey monday. dunno why. they used to really annoy me coz they were literally copying paramore. anywayy...favourite songs, 6 months and obvious. i am also in love with kevin jonas' song. he's got such a different voice! it's like not so whiny and more mature. doesnt mean im not still in love with Nick coz he just rules.
Grr and im so annoyed at liverpool for beating united yesterday. was sooo annoying. was funny how they were throwing beach balls onto the pitch though. LOL
i'm also addicted to Merlin....hmm *plots a fanfic* actually seriously thatd be kinda funny.
ANYWAY....Question for today....Whats your fave fruit???
Me: i cant decide between blackberries or apples....actually together they work quite well... you should try it sometime :P
Peace out x