Today is a new day. It's a good thing it was winter break, no school and no pretending or answering questions. After yesterday's epiphany I realized I didn't get one nightmare. I actually felt quite safe and liberated. It's also the first of many dreams featuring a hefty wolf. Think of the hulk. That was the size of this wolf. Normally I'd be scared shitless if I found myself confronting this beast but he was oddly cute and cuddly and I wanted to pet hit fur. In my dreams I did, ahhh so soft. I wonder what that is about.

The task of the day is to start my first day of renovations. I start with a shower. At first it was something normal. It was a pattern like any other in my routine. After my shower I look in the mirror and for the first time in weeks truely looked at myself. I didn't have any dark circles under my eyes - thank god- but I''m so underweight it's freakishly nasty. I look pale and cold. Its my mission to change it.

I got dressed in a plain pink t-shirt and distressed skinny jeans and a pair of pumas.

I went down stairs slowly hoping not to be seen. It would really freak Charlie out. I haven't been out of my room in what seems like forever.

I lead myself into the kitchen slowly. My mood wasn't the only thing that was back, up and running... my stomach went ggrrrr. I think that my new mentality has allowed the rest of my body to open its self. This hunger was most definitely profound. I wanted to eat an entire cow.

Charlie was in the kitchen. oh well. I stepped in and Charlie turned to see be but almost dropped his cup of coffee when he saw I was up. It was pretty funny actually.

"Morning Dad," I said casually as if these last few months never happened. I reached up and got a bowl and the box of cereal. I was really trying to keep my composure, I really wanted to laugh at his face. I mean really, never seen a girl eat cereal? Although I could really go for some eggs but since I've been in zombie mode I haven't gone grocery shopping. One of the first things I should put on my check list.

"Morning?" He looked at me as if I grew another head. I could feel his eyes follow me and stare at me intently. Analyzing every movement.

"What are you looking at dad? Never seen a girl make herself a bowl of cereal before?" I laughed under his suspicious eyes.

"Ookay, well I'm off to work. Have a good day." He couldn't leave the room any faster.

I finished my cereal and headed upstairs with my trash bag. I turned on the radio and felt this sense of relief that I could breathe again.

In about and hour I had thrown away my bed sheets and pillows. Edward use to lay on those. I through away all my blue shirts because those where Edward's favorite colors on me so I wore them regularly. I threw away that old desktop that was only collecting dust, this way I don't replay the memory of e-mailing the Cullen's everyday with no response, just that empty silence.

I headed downstairs to through away the trashand on my way back I noticed there was mail with my name on it on the entry way table. I started riffling thriugh them one by one. Spam, college spam, spam, spam, spam, lawyers, spam - wait what. I opened the one that read that it was from Jenks Law on it.

A/N: For those who read the original story... obviously the story has changed a lot. For the new people reading, welcome, nice to have you here. For everyone, the story is going to keep being updated until I like flow of the story. The concepts are all still the same, a new bella she finds out stuff from her mom, she regains her friendship with jake, gets imprinted on and there is family secrets, etc. that all lead to her maybe happy ending... you'll have to stay tuned to find out!

P.S : The next chapters make no sense because I changed the first two chapters of the story just recently 3/16/2018. But they will ALL be edited by the end of the weekend