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Sakura has been acting very strange lately. I don't know why. But anyway, there is this new girl in Konoha. Her name is Lani Uchiyama. She is super cute and adorable. She has a special blood trait, or Kekkai Genkai skill, just like me. It is Dojutsu also(sp?). Her eyes change to the color of the mood she is in. Sometimes it is red when it is angry, sometimes blue when calm. But it is normally black for indifference. The different colors have their own special powers also. It's creepy sometimes. She can vanish like the wind, turn into a boy, and do lots of other cool stuff. She is not timid or shy, like most of the girls here in Konoha. She is just the type of girl I like and admire and adore.
Unfortunately, my house isn't big enough for her to stay here. And besides, I can stay at her house, though that isn't really proper etiquette. It doesn't matter. I am an Uchiha. I am not ashamed of myself for breaking one tiny rule. But back to the thing about Sakura. I can't really dwell on Lani much because then my heart will be aching with lust to go and see her.
Sakura doesn't look as good as she used to before she turned 13. She never combs her hair anymore, and looks tired a good deal of the time. Her eyes are red from many nights of crying, I guess. But her mom did pass away a week ago, so I'm sure it's because of that. I can't be certain, however. She is always alert and touchy, and usually has a look of sadness around her face. She does not dress the same way she used to, she is too thin for her other dresses. She shows up for all the missions and sparring, but instead of being so competitive about me when Ino shows up and hugs me from behind, she just lets it pass with a sigh. Everyone is worried about her, maybe even me for a little bit. But not as much as other people. They worry too much about her. I don't really care, since I also have Lani to worry about.
I can't say that I am exactly terribly concerned about Sakura's need of joy. I mean, everyone has to have pain in life, otherwise there would be no joy. Like when my aniki killed my whole family except for me. She has to experience pain, it will toughen her up. But she never had a reason to live before except for me, and she has no reason now that I am already taken in love's caring arms. I have two reasons to live. One there's Lani to love. Two I still have to get revenge on Itachi for killing our whole family and making me have to resurrect the whole clan on my own.
I am jealous of Naruto. I had to wait a whole year for the perfect girl to show up, while he has a girl who loves him dearly right under his nose and he doesn't even realize it! But I have a better girl, at least in my opinion. I could not say that I could love Hinata Hyuuga if my life depended on it. But Lani...she's different. She doesn't care whether she chips a nail or not. She isn't a girl girl. She isn't the type to be found chatting endlessly on the phone or shopping in the mall for forever. And she definitely never wears makeup. I have never seen her lips red like cherries, or her eyelashes thick and black, although that would make a good addition to her fine character and body. I love her more than I ever could love anyone else. I promised her that I would love her forever, and that's a fact. Come to think of it, I made a promise to Sakura long ago, but I can't remember what it is. She probably does, though. And whenever an Uchiha makes a promise, it won't be broken unless the Uchiha dies.
Back before the mass killing of my clan, I was so happy. I never had any regrets, and Itachi would always be kind and not spiteful to me. Now his eyes are full of hatred for me, and are burning holes in my heart whenever I see him. My eyes used to be filled with gladness, and not the hatred of a loner.
But the loner days are over. I still remember them, so clearly and painfully. They hurt me in the middle of the night when I am most vulnerable to the bad days of Geninhood. My heart aches so hard, I have the urge to go and see Kakashi, Sakura, or even Naruto, the idiot. But I just can't stand up and walk out the door. They won't always be out there for me, I know that. But Lani won't be there forever either, though right now it sure feels like it. I can't remember when the last time was that I had broken a promise, can't remember anything important now that Lani's with me. But there's something nagging in the corner of my mind, telling me I have broken a promise recently. And whenever I see Sakura Haruno, a tinge of guilt appears in my head.
I miss the days when Sakura used to be so jealous of Ino and the other girls because they liked me also. I miss the days when there was always a smile hovering around her mouth and her emerald eyes were shining green. I miss the days when she used to slap Naruto because he was either teasing me or something of the sort. I miss the days when she used to overreact because Kakashi-sensei was late for a mission. I miss the days when we used to be Genin and we never went through the Chuunin exam.