Yniss pov

Nearly a month has past by and they do't even have a plansayget peeta. Haymitch said that each time he tried to get coin to make a plan on that,she would wave him off with some excuse. It's getting really hard to hide my bump and I think my mom suspects something. I've realized something now,I'm not going through this alone. I refuse to. They will get peeta back no matter what,somehow I will get them to him back.

I look in the mirror and look at the small bump forming. I can imagine the life that's living in there. The little piece of peeta that I have left,and it gives me hope. Putting on the shirt that is becoming tight around that area,I take off out the door of my compartment. They moved me back into the one that my mother and sister share,so I am alone right now.

I make my way to the cafeteria where I am sure to find haymitch,it's breakfast after all. My moods have been off the hook,so I'm not to gentle when I sit down. "Damn what has you in a mood!"He says.

"Well,hmm,I don't know? Maybe the hormones that are raging inside of me? Or the fact that peeta hasn't been saved yet!"I say annoyed. Then I raise my hands to my face and cover my eyes and let out a big sigh and cry."

"Sweetheart... Sweetheart,don't get all emotional with me. I don't do well with hormones and emotions. That's not my type of thing."

"I'm sorry haymitch,I'm wreck right now," I say.

He gives me a sad look and says,"you'll be okay."

"I'm not worried about me, all I care about is peeta."

"I think you should worry about something else too,"he says pointing to my stomach.

"Yeah...I'm going to have to tell my mom soon,"I say with a sigh.

"Listen katniss,coin is going to ask you to be the mockingjay but I'm not sure what she'll do of she finds out you're pregnant. So wait until after to say anything,or wait until they see for themselves."

"Okay,I will."

His communicuff beeps and he says,"damn it! I'll be back. Try to not hurt yourself." He gets up abruptly and leaves the room. Deciding that I can't eat,considering that I would just throw it up right after,I get up and leave.

As I walk down the corridors, I am stopped by a hand on my shoulder.

"Hey catnip."

"Hey Gale,"I say surprised. I haven't seen him much lately because he is high up in command because he saved district 12. Nearly all,except peeta's family. "I see you're out of the hospital."

"I've been out for a month now,Gale," I say irritated.

"Whoa,whoa,easy there. Listen, I'm sorry that I haven't seen you much. I've been busy with this rebellion. But we can talk now. Prim said you were having a hard time,come here,katniss."He says holding out his arms. I accept his hug.

"Catnip,I want you to know that I promise that we will end this. No more snow."

"Okay."

"And I love you."

"Okay."

He sighs and looks down. "I didn't expect you to say it back. I just wanted you to know that."

I look down too and pick at my nails. "I'm sorry Gale,I'm not,I'm not feeling very well." I say,and in all truth I really do feel like I want to throw up. "Yeah,uh,are you okay? You don't look very good."

"No,I can never be okay again,but also no I really don't feel good." I slump against the wall and take deep breaths.

"Katniss,should I get your mom? Or do you want me to bring you to the hospital?"

"Just take me to my room,please. But could you tell my mom?"

"Of course," he says and picks me up. Soon we are at my door and he lays me down on the bed. He takes a seat and says,"I can't wait for all of this to be over."

"Yeah,me t-" I'm cut off by his communifuff beeping too.

"I have to go,I'm needed in command. But I'll see you when I can."

I just nod and he leaves.

About 2 hours later my mom walks in. "Katniss,are you okay?"

I don't reply.

"Katniss,"she says sitting at the end of the bed. "What is it?"She asks. I sigh and pull back the covers and lift up my shirt. "I'm pregnant,"I simply say.

"Katniss..."She says.

"I know,I know,I made a huge mistake,and how could I be so dumb,yada yada yada...Haymitch did you the favour of yelling at me already."

"Katniss...I'm not going to yell at you because I know this is hard for you. But I am disappointed in you and peeta."

"I wish he was here."

She slowly walks forward and wraps me in a hug. "I know sweetie,"she says. I cry into her arms as she attempts to comfort me. For once I allow her to be a mother. But my nausea takes the best of me and I run to the bathroom to puke.

As I sit on the cool tile floor,I tell her,"you can't tell anyone yet."

"I won't."

I nod and she helps me up and into bed. "But you are going to have to tell them soon. I will try to check you the way I did at district 12,but it's not full proof."

"Don't worry,prim already checked it. It's okay,she said."

"Prim knows?"

"Yes,and so does haymitch,but that's all."

"Peeta doesn't know?"

"No."

"But he said so on-"

"He was just protecting us,he didn't know."

"Okay."

Right as I'm about to ask her what I should do to protect it,Gale walks in. Luckily I was able to pull down my shirt in time and hide slightly behind the toilet before he saw. "How are you feeling?"He asks.

"Not to good."

"Can I get you anything?"He asks.

"A blanket,"I say,hoping that a blanket will cover my bump from him. He quickly gets it and I wrap it around myself. I curl up in the bed and he sits by my side. My mom leaves and at first Gale is quiet.

"What's wrong katniss? Did they do something to you?"He asks.

"No,no it's just food poisoning,"I lie.

"Katniss,you are a terrible lier." Damn he saw right through me.

"You're not gonna like it,"I warn him.

"Katniss,nothing can push me away from you,"He says.

"You might change your mind..."I say quietly.

"God dammit katniss! Just tell me!"he yells.

"Gale,I'm pregnant."

His face turns white and his mouth is open,his eyebrows set in a frown. Finally he surmounted his shock and becomes beyond angry. He throws his first into the wall and then brings his hands up to his face.

"What the fuck!"he yells. "I swear I'm going to kill that fucking bastard!"

"Gale!"I yell angrily.

"It wasn't his fault,if anything it was mine."

"Katniss,how could you let him do that to you!"

"Because I love him Gale!"tears are falling from my eyes and I can't even control it.

"You don't mean that. Tell me you don't mean that," he says softly,defeated.

"I do Gale,I'm sorry but I do."

He looks angry again and says,"that thing should be an abortion."

My heart breaks at that,but there are no tears,but instead fire. Fire and rage.

"Get out,"I say quietly.

"Catnip,"he says looking wounded.

"GET OUT!" I yell and throw a pillow at him. He looks unfazed by the pillow but slowly gets up and walks away. When the door closes,I hear another bang from the other side as he punches it.

I don't move,I don't cry,and I don't feel sorry. I feel nothing right now. And I know I won't be able to feel anything until I have peeta by my side. That's something that not even prim can soothe.

I look down at the small bump and rub it saying,"I will never let you go."

That's when Gale's words come to mind and I get angry again. How dare he speak of my baby like that! Gale and I are honest with each other,but that took it too far,and I know that the next time I see him,he won't be too happy with what I have to say.

That's when my mind drifts back to peeta. He should have been the first person I told,but I was afraid it would give him another reason to save me. I wish he knew. He should be here. He deserves so much more,and I will give him exactly that.