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A/N: WOW don't expect it to go that smoothly. But sometimes I surprise myself. Well here is the next chapter. And thanks to everyone that reviewed. They certainly make my day :)

Eternity can't ever change your mind.

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Lisbon halted outside the interrogation room trying to control her erratic breathing. She thought she was angry but really she was only felling helpless and a little guilty. Joni had to be in trouble to make her realize how much she had missed her older brother.

In all those years after her mother's death she had resented him sometimes. These realisations hurt like hell and increased her feelings of shame. Especially the stupid reasons for the slowly increasing resentment towards him.

He had been the big invincible brother who always had the right things to say when she was upset. She would have needed him so much to help her after their mother's death. The first two years without her were hell but Joni had still been there. He had taken over the job of raising them. He always had the right things to say. And then she had resented him for getting the easy way out

She felt the tears well up in her eyes reminiscing her childhood, well more the less happy part of it. The tears came from the pain and hurt they'd been through but also from the shame of actually thinking that.

How could go from a able minded witty youth to a vegetable be the easy way out? She despised herself for thoughts like that. These emotions and thought had been the real reason for her constantly decreasing amount of visits she'd paid him til she completely stopped seeing him.

She knew Benedikt, one of her younger brothers had been visiting regularly til he had to move to New Jersey but he still called.

Taking a deep breath , brushing off a stray tear she pulled the door open ready to get this done. She halted abruptly right behind the door because she couldn't see Joni. Confused she turned around scanning the hallway. Upon hearing a noise sounding really close to a chuckle she cautiously wakled back into the room. Slowly making her way towards the table she stopped looking around searchingly.

„I heard someone chuckle in here. But no one's in here."

Sighing theatrically she continued to mutter to herself:" Maybe Jane is right and I work way to much and let lose way too few times. The stress is making me go crazy. I better go see the shrink right away."

Again a chuckle echoed through the room.

This time Lisbon jumped for show clutching her heart as if she'd been scared out of her mind.

„Shit. I hate ghosts!"

While she said this she slowly bent down peeking under the table finding green eyes staring back at her sparkling with surpressed amusement

With a wide grin she said:"Thank god it's you. I thought I'd go crazy."

Joni bit his lip to prevent him from laughing out loud but after a while he shook his head to confirm that there were no ghosts.

„Can I come in?" Lisbon asked indicating the table with her hand.

Again Joni bit his lip scrunching up his nose in deep thought. Finally he made some room for his sister to join him under the table.

Lisbon made herself comfortable beside her brother looking around the room appreciatively.

„Nice place. Where are we?"She asked remembering his games from the time she had still visited the residential home their father had hid him in the moment he could be released from hospital.

Joni drummed a complicated rhythm onto the legs of the table seemingly far off into his own world he retreated to when the outside world became too overbearing to enjoy.

Lisbon didn't push knowing this would only unsettle him. Instead she joined in his rythem tapping her feet onto the floor. This brought a smile on her brother's face and managed to widen hers.

Everything came back to her. The good times her and Joni would sit in his room making music. She was quite good playing the guitar and quite decent at the piano and Joni was a hell of a drummer. A member of several bands in the area. It had been him who took her deeper into the dark realms of the metal micro cosmos of Sacramento. And had definitely been responsible for her recklessness to that time. Her wish to become a member of a band herself when she was old enough.

She wrecked her brain trying to remember the last time she played an instrument. Now sitting there under the table tapping rhythm after rhythm with her cool big brother set her back into the good old days and made her feel happier than she had been in a long time.

Finally Joni turned towards her still drumming a quite complicated rythem he said:" We' re at Atticer."

He looked thoughtful as he studied her. Of course she knew where Atticer was.

They had gone there every time they couldn't take it anymore. When their father had been drunk again and had turned violent on them. Then Joni and her had packed some stuff, took their younger brother's and left for Atticer. Well the name for their secret place wasn't really creative seeing they went into the attic but the world they had created was.

„I always liked it there,"Lisbon murmured.

A comfortable silence filled the air.

„Do you go there often?" Lisbon asked.

This time Joni reacted immediately:" Yeah. When the big bad man comes!"

It sounded dark and a bit scared. Lisbon observed him contemplatively.

„Who's the bad man, Joni?" Lisbon asked calmly.

„The big bad man!" Joni whispered turning away from her and resuming his tapping onto the legs of the table.

„Joni," Lisbon enquired reaching for his shoulder. As Jonathan flinched away from her touch she took that as her cue to leave him be for now.

„You hungry or thirsty?" Lisbon asked him while risng to his feet.

As he didn't react she said:" Do you have to use the bathroom?"

Again he gave no indication that he had heard. Lisbon nodded to herself and sadly left the room.

Arriving in the kitchenette she prepared herself a cup of coffee taking some calming deep breaths to get her emotions back under control.

„Atticer," she sadly smiled to herself.

Meanwhile in the observation room neither Jane nor Minelli really knew what to do with the scene that had just unfolded before their eyes.

A/N: That was quite a Lisboncentric chapter. I'll try to get the rest of the team back in the picture as well. But Lisbon is the main character in this story. Please let me know what you think.