This is truly my own doing. I know that, but I still feel hate burning through me. I hate whoever locked us in this school. I hate whoever decided to make us kill each other. I hate the person responsible for that video. The video that made me decide to kill in order to get out of this school.
I hate Naegi for being so easy to manipulate. Making it so easy to plot to frame him and therefore making it easy for me to plot to do this. To in turn plot my own downfall. In a way its his fault and I hate him.
But there's so much more hate for my idol group. For being weak, for failing when I wasn't there. For abandoning me, and everything we've worked for for so long. They ruined my entire life's dream, they ruined it all.
I hate Leon. Why couldn't he just die? Why didn't he just leave after I went into the bathroom? I hate him for deciding to turn the tables and kill me. He actually left and came back just to kill me.
Who I hate most is though is me. I decided to attend this school away from my idol group, even when they begged me to stay. I thought I could go back to them I never thought I would end up here, stuck and dying. I never thought that I would not only plot to kill, but also attempt to carry out my plan. And I hate myself, I hate what I let myself do.
I know this is my fault. It really is. I am the one who chose to try and kill, not whoever locked us in this school, no matter who was easy to manipulate. I did it, I can't hate any them.
But I can make sure Leon doesn't get away with stabbing me. He is just as bad as I am, he didn't kill in spur of the moment, he took time to return and then kill. Fair is fair right? If I'm going to die so is he.
I'll just pick up my hand and write in the only source of "ink" I have. My own blood. I'll have to write behind me because I can hear him moving around out there. I hope that Naegi and the others get my message. I hope they understand what happened and that I am sorry. But they all need to know who they're dealing with. 11037.