What's Missing
Chapter 2: moth to the flame
It had been two weeks since she started to save the world again. She had already told Wade that she was not going to be doing this very long there was just something that she had to figure out first. It was as if she was a child again, doing something just so she could figure out what was so great about doing it. She knew that what ever this thing was it had something to do with a certain green skinned woman. She was the thing that Kim had missed all these years, the thing that was calling her back. Just like a light draws a moth to it she was drawn to whatever light that Shego possessed.
She was the moth, Shego the light and if she was not careful she knew that she would end up burned. She did not want to come away from this more hurt and depressed than she already was but there was mo backing away from it. Now that she knew that she had a reason to be back in tis life she as not going to five it up for anything in the world. She would take the burns and all that if it meant that she would be happy when this was all said an done.
She was sitting at a small coffee shop in town when the 'Kimmunicator' started buzzing like it was on fire or something. She fished the device out of her pocket and turned it on. Wade was staring back at her with a huge smile.
"What's the sitch Wade?"
"Well I just looked at the website and there are all kinds of people welcoming you back, they wanted me to tell you how happy they are."
She rolled her eyes, She had been seen once a few days ago fighting Monkey Fist in Canada and this was what happened. Everyone in the world was calling her name. She had received more phone calls from her family than she had in years. Everyone was happy that she was back, everyone except the bad guys that was.
"You did leave a message that everyone can see, telling them that I am not back for good. Right?"
"I sure did. Everyone is still happy that you are back though, even if it is only for a little while."
She didn't even want the world to know that she was back. It would only make it that much harder to walk away from the mall again. It was hard enough for her the first time. She felt like she was letting the world down, in a way she was but she knew that there would be others to take her place. The world had been doing fine before she came along.
"Please tell me that you have something for me to do. I don't have to be anywhere and I have no one to hang out with. Tell me that someone is up to something evil."
"You're in luck lol. Drakken and Shego were just spotted trying to break into a computer electronic store."
"Where is it and how fast can I get there?"
"It will take you a whole of thirty seconds to get there. It's across the street from here you are right now."
She looked over and saw the computer store that he was talking about.
"Computers and Such?"
"Thats the place."
"Thanks Wade, I'll call you if I need anything."
Walking across the street she decided to take the front door. The place was open so why not. She found it strange that they would be making a robbery attempt in the middle of the day. It was not their style, Shego was more of a night owl she worked best in the shadow of night. No one was around and even if they were she could just hide in the shadows until they had their backs turned. Kim figured she did it so that she would not have to really hurt any innocent people. Shego may have been a lot of things but she was not someone that enjoyed hurting people. She seemed to have no problems hurting Kim when she got the chance to though, maybe that was because she knew that Kim actually stood a chance of hurting her back.
There was almost no one in the store and the ones that were seemed to be making a hasty exit. They must know that the place is getting robbed. If She was not who she was and just another random shopper and she saw Shego and a blue man trying to steal stuff she would be making a quick exit to. They were not the most inviting people in the world.
"Ugh Kimmie do you have to ruin all of my fun?"
Kim turned around to see the older woman standing behind her with her hands on her hips and a smirk on her face. It almost looked like she was happy to see her again. She was more than happy to see Km again but that was not something thats she was going to be telling her anytime soon.
"yeah I do, it's fun for me."
"Yeah that was one of those questions that you don;t answer."
"Whatever, why don;t you just tell me what Drakken is up to so I can kick your ass and get back to my coffee."
Shego stepped forward a little but still smirking at the redhead. Kim moved back a step so that she could get some distance put between her and the thief. That was something that had always bothered her, When ever Shego was close enough for her to touch she got squirmy, kind of like a stray cat did when you first approach it to pat it. She was scared that she would not be able to fend her off, something in the way that she moved always told Kim thats she was up to something other than what everyone thought she was.
"Why would I do that when it would just make you leave quicker. Three years is a long time Princess and we have a lot of fighting to catch up on...or other things.
She raised her eye brow suggestively at Kim as she continued to walk closer to her. What had she meant by that? Kim was playing the words over in her head to see if she would get what the raven haired woman was talking about. Suddenly the meaning was staring he right in the face. Her eyes opened to the size of saucers and she tried to move back some more but he back was already pressed against the counter of the store.
"What Princess, don't tell me that you have not gotten that before now?"
Kim did nothing but stare at her with a blank expression on her face.
"Oh my god, you are just getting it. I have been throwing innuendos at you for years. You Should have been born a blond I swear."
"Hey!"
Drakken chose that moment to run into the room with an arm load of computer parts. He looked like he was about to die from all the running. Shego looked at him with eyes that told him that she was seriously going to hurt him. He chose the worst times to enter a room. Especially when she was in her own on nights off. That was embarrassing.
"Shego lets go... Ah Kim Possible!"
"Drakken you should not be surprised to see her anymore. I mean we fought her like every other day three years ago and you were still surprised. You should know that she will be here to bring down what ever lame ass plan you have come up with."
"Will you ever be nice to me?"
Kim chose that moment to back flip over the counter and run at Drakken she still needed to stop him from taking what he had in his hands. Seeing her running at him he tried to back out of the way but only succeeded in tripping himself and dropping all of the things that he had in his arms.
"Nice Dr. D' nice."
Shego walked to him and threw him over her shoulder. She looked over her shoulder at Kim before she walked out the back door and gave her a wink. That made Kim blush she was finally figuring out why she missed Shego so bad. IT was not the fights that they would have, it was not the jokes that they would send back and forth at each other. She missed her because she had feelings for her. She knew that when she was younger she would have never let herself admit to something like that, just because she was raised a Christian but now she knew that she could.
"See ya soon Princess."
Wade called her on the 'Kimmunicator' a few minutes after she left the computer store. She told him that she stopped them from taking what ever it was that they were going to and then they fled the store and that she didn't think that they were going to try again. She left out all the details about what Shego said and what she meant by saying some of the things she did. That was not something that she could tell Wade. He was 15 after all and telling him that another woman was implying sexual situations with her would only lead him to stare off into space with a far off look in his teenage eyes. That was not something that she ever wanted him to be thinking about. It would just gross her out beyond belief.
" I can't believe that I did not see it before."
She was back at the coffee shop ordering another coffee to take home with her. She figured that she had better go home for the rest of the day. Now that she knew what she did she was in for a lot of thinking. What was she going to do. There was no way that they could actually be together. What if she was just joking around trying to distract Kim? What if she did not feel that way at all, Kim would feel like a dumb ass telling her that she had feelings for her if she did not feel the same way.
"Why dose tis have to be so confusing? It is not that hard to just tell some one that you have feelings for them."
She was trying to kid herself on that one. In all the years that he had been alive she knew that it was the hardest thing in the world to tell someone how you really feel. There was too much chance that you could get hurt, the fear of rejection always held someone back from telling the truth when it came to telling someone what you feel about them. It was hard for her in this situation because it was Shego, she would never let it go if Kim did tell her and she did not feel the same way.
She did not know what she could do. It was not like she could talk to anyone else about it, everyone that she knew would probably just throw her in a mental institution for telling them such a thing. There as no one that would get it like she know did. It as that Shego was the only one in her life that had always been up front with her. She was the only one that could actually let her have fun in a fight. She was the only one that did not think that Kim was a hero. She knew that deep down Kim was just like everyone else. There was also the fact that she was beautiful, that only added to the good things about her. She was funny and smart and the sarcasm thing was pretty hot too.
Kim could not believe that she had not seen it until now, how could someone be so blind to what was staring them right in the face? How could she be so stupid. The pet names were enough for anyone else to get it. Why didn't she?
"I am such an idiot."
It was now two in the morning and she was no where near figuring this out, all she wanted to do was sleep but her mind would not let her. All it wanted to do was think about a certain plasma wielding woman. She had not left her mind since she had gotten home. She was all that she could think about and she was no where near figuring out what she could do. Kim felt like she as back in high school again, a love sick teenager that had no clue as to what she could do to get with the person that she wanted to be with. All her mind seemed to be doing was fluctuating between her past memories and all of them seemed to start Shego
"Why do I do this to myself, and why in god's name dose it have to be with her?"
"I don' t think that he has anything to do with it Kimmie."
It came from behind her, she didn't even have to turn around to know who the husky voice belonged to. She had memorized the face of it's owner a long time ago.
"Shego what are you doing her."
She turned around to see the older woman standing beside an open window across her living room. She was not wearing her usual attire, to night she had decided to wear a pair of loose fitting dark was jeans and a black tank top with a black silver studded belt. She really did not look like herself but Kim thought she looked better tan she usually did. That was not saying that the cat suit did not look good on her. It was just a look that she had seen to much.
"I am here because I need to get you up to speed on a few things, 'cause apparently you are not smart enough to figure it all out on your own."
"Okay...what the hell are you talking about."
Shego walked to where she sat on the black leather couch and just looked at her for a few long moments. She could not believe that Kim had not figured it all out by now. Back when they were fighting she had given more signals than was necessary from any normal person to get it. She should have thought this over before just showing up. She didn't even knew what she was going to say to Kim to get her too understand why she was there. What she needed to tell her was not something that she was ready to say, she didn't think that she would ever be ready to tell Kim something as big as that.
"I have been trying to tell you something since...well sine I go to know you. It's not something that I can come right out and say you you're gonna have to work with me here Princess."
"Well if I had the slightest clue as to what you are trying to tell me I might be able to help you."
"Ugh. All I can tell you is that it has to do with you and me. I don;t look at you like I look at everyone else."
"No you look at me like you want to kick my ass."
"That is not what I am trying to say..and hey I do not look at you like I want to kick your ass."
She was walking back and forth now trying to do something, anything to get her hands and the rest of her body to stop shaking. Kim was standing now too looking at her like she was insane or something.
"Just tell me what you need to tell me Shego because I am really tired and I need to get some sleep."
"That is the thing I can't say it. I have never said it to anyone before and I don;t want to get hurt if I do say it."
"It's not that hard to tell me that I am a better fighter than you."
She knew that is not what she wanted to say but she thought that she might as well have some fun with her while she still could.
"Oh my god, You should be a blond."
"I should not be. Why should I be?"
"Because I have been telling you but not telling you what I need to for years. You have just been too damned blind to see what is staring you right in the face."
"Right now you are staring me in the face."
"OH. MY. GOODDD. Why can you not get what I am trying to say. You are the only one that seems to not know it. I bet even the buffoon could get this."
"Do you like someone and are trying to tell me so I can help you."
Oh boy was she having fun now. She was going to drag this out as long as she could.
"I can help you, who is the lucky guy. It's not Drakken is it cause that is ewe."
The look on her face when she said that was worth it. She knew that she would never go for Drakken but it was funny to say it and have her look at her like she had three and a half heads.
"What do I have to say to get you to know what the hell I am talking about, I do not like Drakken."
"There is nothing you can say apparently I am just too blond to get what you are telling me."
Shego was ready to smash her head against a wall. Kim just had to be difficult. There was nothing that she could say to get her to understand what she was not saying. She had always had trouble telling people what she really felt, when it came to most people she didn't like them at all and they knew how she felt by her actions towards them. She used to beat the hell out of Kim on a regular basis maybe be that was why Kim was not able to get what she was saying. What if she showed her what she was trying to say. It was a risky move but why the hell not. She was a risk taker with the rest of her life so why not now. She was pretty sure that it would not blow up in her face anyways so she might as well do it and get it over with.
"Honestly Shego I have no clue..."
Shego moved forward and took Kim's cheeks in both palms and looked her in the eyes.
"Shut up Princess."
She could feel the older woman's warm breath on her lips and it was driving her insane. At least her plan worked. Shego closed the gap that was lingering between them doing something that she had wanted to for a very long time. Her lips pressed softly against Kim's for the first time and she swore that she was going to fall over just from the wave of emotions that were running ramped through her entire body. Kim's arms came up around her neck and she snaked hers around the younger girls waist pulling her as close as she could get her.
There was nothing in the world that could compare to the feeling of having Kim so close to her. She was never going to not feel this feeling again. It was like something had been lifted from her body that she had not known was there. She slid her tongue across Kim's bottom lips asking entrance. Lips parted and tongues explored areas that they had never seen.
"Do you get what I am sayin' Kimmie?"
"I don't get what you are saying but I sure know what I am feeling."
To be continued...
A/N: I am not sure if tis is a good chapter or not. I liked some parts of it then I hated others please tel me what you think.
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